🚀 go-pugleaf

the buzz ( whats happening )
***

laurie anderson
"sharkies night"

***


well i was talkin about lib last night
seemed strong
closed with it



just bopped down th shops
still rainin

got back and checked th mail

hmm

child support aganecy
tellin me elizabeth now has another dependant child
under 18

since jan 11  

sai i missed my step daughters last niught

sounds like caitlin
not 100% though

she mighta shacked up with someone

who fuckin knows

***

ive lived with enough with kids of theor own

and ppoh did ring last night

was writin about her too 
before she rang

major debacle with waynes ex
and their kids

killed their relationship stone dead


***


nirvana
"downer"


***

looks like pooh's gettin her hair done
saw her car at th shops

but no pooh

***

waitin on a call from a  dude called john
a job of sorts

***


"Also waitin on a call from my dealer"

***


afroman
"cause i got high"


***



if my son is living with caitlin again
oh dear

***


worst of th three girls
lied th most
very much like her mother

***


they clip my pension
each week
for child support

i havent had any say in how he was raised
since he was born

lady kept stickin government ppl in my face
and makin threats

because she could

you know


enjoy

***


didnt bother th governmen too much she was risin at ten thirty
with my four and a half year old
wanderin th streets

***

jewel
"do you want to play"

***

caitlins father
\and i
both made complaints
she's not lookin after th kids

just runnin around oin drugs and screwin

and doin everything she can

to bother everybody


she won

by th way


***


she disappeared for six days

left my boy
with a sixteen year old


who cares right ?

***


pj harvey
"long snake moan"

***


"give it up"
"she won"

***


forgot i was male in australia for a second
yur right


we dont have any rights

+++

when his testicles start achin
i hope he kills you

***


after th first five years of it anyway
cause you knew all about it
and chose to ignore it


if caitlin finds one of my old letters lib
you'll be in for a hard time

hope you finally grew a brain
and destroyed all my correspondence

<<< Smile >>>


***


i curse you


***


my voodoo is real


***


i dont need a government to action things for me

***


george carlin
"euphemisms"

***

gorillaz
"clint eastwood"

***


a hundred grand they said
to fight th north quay lawyers

best advice was

walk away
and forget you have a son


she's got ya fucked

***


with yur father bein a murderer and all
and 95% go to th woman regardless
she'll run if it goes against her

five percent we never catch
just go and live with a man somewhere

she's got ya fucked

***


which she was pretty fond of tellin me
fuck you were fun to live with


i can kill this baby inside me
if i want to

.

you asked for him
i said his name at conception

he will be born
on a monday at three


and he was


but YOU own him

he's all yours


i hope for yur sake
caitlin doesnt tell her little brother

th things he cant remember


just like you
he'll search for th truth


***



dumb woman


***



lock yurself in a  bedroom for three days
and tell all four children
to go fuck themselves


me and th girls used to talk about it
while i taught em how to cook


my little boy hated bein taken back to his mothers
would run and hide under th house


bad memories


***


come on dealer lady


***


i got a friend livin a park

down th road at th moment
cant see his daughter
and

it's still
a major part of his conversation


it's not for me

been five years



when yur male man
ya leave kids behind
sometimes


can be painful

but it's fairly normal

***

cat stevens
"on the road to find out"

***


my old man
left a kid in austria

met him for one day

i got a lot more than one day

i had four and half years

***

be thankfull for what you did have


***


i'd drive down our street
and park th truck outside

th little fella would run out
and ask to be put in th back

i'd crack th doors
and he'd jump 

all over th stock

boxes of fat
drums of oil


bags of flour
and sugar


for th showmen
th carnies


travellin interstate in th morning

***


i had this garden
all th other gardners were jealous

was a big veggie garden

and i fed

all seven of us
out of th garden


but

if i spent

fifteen minutes waterin plants
and groomin plants

i'd get three hours of
you dont love me

out doin somethin else
instead of bein here talkin to me

i had th second best
grass out th front of my house
in th street



portishead
"sour times"


the grass died
th vegie plants died

weeds came up everywhere
stopped mulching my
permaculture garden

everything died

i died

***


i stopped making pottery ocarinas
you sold all my motorbikes

i sold two houses
and moved you closer to your mother


700 kilometres south


moved to th big city


now i live
on th periphery
of th big city


ready to leave again

to go back and find home


***


i liked what i had


***



five years of
wanderin around
on a unicycle
puttin smiles on ppl's dials


i'm ready to leave

not as sad i was


***


geoge carlin
"some people are stupid"

***


i did end up goin singin lib
just as i said i would

some of th muso's
still call

where are ya man ?
goin back to my ppl

***


the red hot chili peppers
"Track No06"

***


"slit my throat it's all i ever"

***

i dont think so
th old man couldnt kill me with a gun
you wont kill me either

***

you meddle too much mr government

***


course

th government does now know
about th family curse


so one day
they'll come knockin on yur door
th social workers


ringin their hands and
we dont know how to care for his body


if he's got his father's testicles
we got a real problem


***



ya notice my real father
has NEVER shown his head

***


david bowie
"starman"

***

<<< Smile >>>

i dont fit in any of th boxes


not a human

***


still got a police protection order against me
and i kept my promise

you play those games with me
you wont even hear my voice


this isnt their business

***

you started this

give me a son paulie

it's within your gift


never ask for what you want
you just might get it

***

when his powers grow
and he also starts interfering with electrical devices

when th doorlocks on yur car
start goin up and down again

and ford australia cant help you
again


will you wake up then ?

***


black eyed peas
"hey mama"

***


windows is in form today
we're on all music random

***

how will you threaten him ?

***


th day i met
jennifer

kuta lady's ex girlfriend

we arrived to find
jennifer in th front yard

takin piccies of an electrical fire
in th substation up th road

***


turning th alarm clock 
digital face
on and off

cause i was in a bad mood

***


?

"ya shit me to tears"

***


he;s got 

my hands
my feet
my curls

it just may be
that he's a kadeetcha man too


th land will talk to him
as it talked to me

he loved th bush


you cant make yur little boy
be something he's not

***


violent femmes
"america is [#]"

***


but you know better than me


***


most women can only fuck every day
for about eighteen months

are you bringing him up to handle that >>> ?

***

jewel
"till we run out of road"

***

i've learned to skip out th door
when it goes under

once in two days

sleepin next to a comely woman
without fulfilling sex
masturbation just doesnt cut it
put out differnt levels of sperm

ya cant fool th body



yeah
you can teach him about love
your twisted version of it anyway
but he wont keep a woman


***


it's easier to just accept it andrew
i've used this nymphomaniac up


time to leave
she's not as wet as she was
gone off th boil


but th magic provides

just like your mother

they just knock on th door

ya dont have to look for them

***

simon and garfunkel
"cecilia"

***

she knocked on th door after lunch
a clutch of records in her hand

knows what she wants
hey bob geldoff

there's a man who understands women

on her back on th lounge room floor
an hour later

***


pooh called again last night
her latest flame has melted away

she lived next door and i wouldnt fuck her
ya dont fuck th chick next door

where do ya go when it fucks up ?

***

the kinks
"celluloid heroes"

***


rain is still comin down


***

fitting for th invasion day period

***


pooh

hadnt been in my diary
for some time

writin last night
mentioned pooh


sure enough
bout half an hour later


pooh's sendin a  message
i'm single again paulie

***


i washed my hair
before trekkin to th shop

***


it just happens andrew
mostly

yur gift will tell you about it
before hand


i rang yur uncle
th first time i bumped into yur mother again


this woman is going to destroy me
he didnt believe me

have a problem with ppl listening to me

a year later
she was pregnant

with you


and telling me
she could kill you anytime she liked
because she could


hope yur path is easier

love ya hard
.
.
.

dad

***

p.s.

ludwig van beethoven
"symphony no.9 (scherzo)"

+++

the offspring
"staring at th sun"

close

you loved
"come out and play"
was yur favourite song
it's not in here

later...