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On 01/06/2012 15:06, zardos@blueyonder.co.uk wrote:
> Hey guys i need help in killing my self... please don't attempt to
> talk me out of it that's not what i'm looking for, and i'm not an
> attention seeker either... I need practical information, just straight
> advice.. what i do with it isn't you fault ! a few years ago i took a
> massive overdose of dothiepin it was enough to put me in intensive
> care, but as you can see it didn't work.
>
> So what are the crop of school kids in whales doing ? i herd allot of
> them hung them selves.. don't fancy that much... i am a coward... a
> chicken.. a puff... maybe.. but i'd rather not feel any pain... i
> want... i really want to die in my sleep... take a bunch of shit lie
> down and just die.
>
> there no immediacy here.. i don't need to go today... but i need the
> option... my life is spiraling down hill.. right now i'm taking just
> about every medications we have left in the house... and lots of it..
> i'm hoping for an accidental overdose... i'm not really eating
> anything... and gobbling as much pills as i can afford.
>
> so, there tell me they are web site you can go to these days that will
> tell you what would work ?
>
> maybe you guys know ?
>
> any help or advice would be greatly appreciated :)
>
> Love you all
>
> Z.
Fuck no

In article 
<dfd558c5-5d25-4c04-b290-9f9df7222a45@m10g2000vbn.googlegroups.com>,
 "zardos@blueyonder.co.uk" <zardos@blueyonder.co.uk> wrote:

> Hey guys i need help in killing my self... please don't attempt to
> talk me out of it that's not what i'm looking for, and i'm not an
> attention seeker either... I need practical information, just straight
> advice.. what i do with it isn't you fault ! a few years ago i took a
> massive overdose of dothiepin it was enough to put me in intensive
> care, but as you can see it didn't work.
> 
> So what are the crop of school kids in whales doing ? i herd allot of
> them hung them selves.. don't fancy that much... i am a coward... a
> chicken.. a puff... maybe.. but i'd rather not feel any pain... i
> want... i really want to die in my sleep... take a bunch of shit lie
> down and just die.
> 
> there no immediacy here.. i don't need to go today... but i need the
> option... my life is spiraling down hill.. right now i'm taking just
> about every medications we have left in the house... and lots of it..
> i'm hoping for an accidental overdose... i'm not really eating
> anything... and gobbling as much pills as i can afford.
> 
> so, there tell me they are web site you can go to these days that will
> tell you what would work ?
> 
> maybe you guys know ?
> 
> any help or advice would be greatly appreciated :)
> 
> Love you all
> 
> Z.

Hang in there, the bad times will blow over eventually!

In summer 1992 I had a cold calculating suicidal
episode and planned to OD on a bottle of lithium 
and some cold medicine and some alcohol.  But when
I took a bit of the alcohol (not a lot) I felt
better and called my psychiatrist and he told me
to come off the haloperidol and continue drinking
a small amount of alcohol and see him in two days.
So in my case 5 mg/day of haloperidol seemed to
cause the suicidal thoughts.   Maybe in your case
one of your meds is causing your suicidal thoughts.
You should discuss this with your psychiatrist.

Good luck and keep talking on here!

-- 
David Dalton  dalton@nfld.com   http://www.nfld.com/~dalton (home page)
http://www.nfld.com/~dalton/nf.html Newfoundland&Labrador Travel & Music
http://www.nfld.com/~dalton/dtales.html Salmon on the Thorns (mystic page)
   "Here I go again...back into the flame" (Sarah McLachlan)

Hi Z :o)

So if you don't want to hang yourself...then I imagine you wouldn't want to jump off a bridge.  Have you seen the documentary on the bridge jumpers?  It's actually really good I watched it a few years ago and I just looked it up for you and they have the whole movie online if you would like to watch it here is the link:

http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/the-bridge/

It might give you some ideas on how to do it I don't know if you live near a bridge.

I'm wondering if you have ever asked yourself the question..."Who will die?"  Like "Who are you?"  I mean if you kill the body...and you find out you are not the body...then what?  

Maybe your wanting to kill yourself is a gift...like it is a gift to show you what does not die...but you have to be willing to look.  No one can do it for you just like no one can jump off the bridge for you...you will have to do it.

It's funny that you say you are a chicken...I have a chicken...it's name is Marma...we've been hanging together for the past 3 weeks or so...I am so much enjoying my time with her...in fact it is time for our walk. 

If you find that movie of any interest I'd like to know or even if you think it is shit I wouldn't mind knowing that either :o)

  ~Joysters



On Friday, June 1, 2012 6:06:58 AM UTC-7, zar...@blueyonder.co.uk wrote:
> Hey guys i need help in killing my self... please don't attempt to
> talk me out of it that's not what i'm looking for, and i'm not an
> attention seeker either... I need practical information, just straight
> advice.. what i do with it isn't you fault ! a few years ago i took a
> massive overdose of dothiepin it was enough to put me in intensive
> care, but as you can see it didn't work.
> 
> So what are the crop of school kids in whales doing ? i herd allot of
> them hung them selves.. don't fancy that much... i am a coward... a
> chicken.. a puff... maybe.. but i'd rather not feel any pain... i
> want... i really want to die in my sleep... take a bunch of shit lie
> down and just die.
> 
> there no immediacy here.. i don't need to go today... but i need the
> option... my life is spiraling down hill.. right now i'm taking just
> about every medications we have left in the house... and lots of it..
> i'm hoping for an accidental overdose... i'm not really eating
> anything... and gobbling as much pills as i can afford.
> 
> so, there tell me they are web site you can go to these days that will
> tell you what would work ?
> 
> maybe you guys know ?
> 
> any help or advice would be greatly appreciated :)
> 
> Love you all
> 
> Z.


On Friday, June 1, 2012 6:06:58 AM UTC-7, zar...@blueyonder.co.uk wrote:
> Hey guys i need help in killing my self... please don't attempt to
> talk me out of it that's not what i'm looking for, and i'm not an
> attention seeker either... I need practical information, just straight
> advice.. what i do with it isn't you fault ! a few years ago i took a
> massive overdose of dothiepin it was enough to put me in intensive
> care, but as you can see it didn't work.
> 
> So what are the crop of school kids in whales doing ? i herd allot of
> them hung them selves.. don't fancy that much... i am a coward... a
> chicken.. a puff... maybe.. but i'd rather not feel any pain... i
> want... i really want to die in my sleep... take a bunch of shit lie
> down and just die.
> 
> there no immediacy here.. i don't need to go today... but i need the
> option... my life is spiraling down hill.. right now i'm taking just
> about every medications we have left in the house... and lots of it..
> i'm hoping for an accidental overdose... i'm not really eating
> anything... and gobbling as much pills as i can afford.
> 
> so, there tell me they are web site you can go to these days that will
> tell you what would work ?
> 
> maybe you guys know ?
> 
> any help or advice would be greatly appreciated :)
> 
> Love you all
> 
> Z.



On Friday, June 1, 2012 6:06:58 AM UTC-7, zar...@blueyonder.co.uk wrote:
> Hey guys i need help in killing my self... please don't attempt to
> talk me out of it that's not what i'm looking for, and i'm not an
> attention seeker either... I need practical information, just straight
> advice.. what i do with it isn't you fault ! a few years ago i took a
> massive overdose of dothiepin it was enough to put me in intensive
> care, but as you can see it didn't work.
> 
> So what are the crop of school kids in whales doing ? i herd allot of
> them hung them selves.. don't fancy that much... i am a coward... a
> chicken.. a puff... maybe.. but i'd rather not feel any pain... i
> want... i really want to die in my sleep... take a bunch of shit lie
> down and just die.
> 
> there no immediacy here.. i don't need to go today... but i need the
> option... my life is spiraling down hill.. right now i'm taking just
> about every medications we have left in the house... and lots of it..
> i'm hoping for an accidental overdose... i'm not really eating
> anything... and gobbling as much pills as i can afford.
> 
> so, there tell me they are web site you can go to these days that will
> tell you what would work ?
> 
> maybe you guys know ?
> 
> any help or advice would be greatly appreciated :)
> 
> Love you all
> 
> Z.