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"Honey Hemlock" <honeyhemlock@NOTCOLDhotmail.com> wrote in message news:<uvrc1t4jnkq4f3@corp.supernews.com>...
> "Tim Bruening" <tsbrueni@pop.dcn.davis.ca.us> wrote in message
> news:3DFDADBA.A4EC5655@pop.dcn.davis.ca.us...
> > After my Dad left my Mom in 1994, I considered threatening to commit
> > suicide to force him to come back.  Have any of you felt that way?
> >
> 
> This is not something that I usually address, because talking about it gets
> me thinking about it again, but sorta yeah. Mostly I've just seen it as an
> escape from the pain, or "they'd be better off without me around" but other
> times I've thought of it as a tool to manipulate the people around me as you
> did.
> 
> Never the threat of it though, if you threaten there is invariably an
> unpleasant intervention of some sort.

yes. my dad left us when i was young. stephanie always told us it was
our fault, especially my older sister's because of her severe MR
(mental retardation). i always felt too confused and overwhelmed to
know whether my own suicide would do anything one way or the other.

that being said, i can tell you that they need you around.  please
don't hurt yourself.