🚀 go-pugleaf

Hi everybody!
Well, I've been reading for so long but haven't said anything yet, so I think 
it's time to make myself known.  My name is David (Renee while En Femme).  I am
twenty years old and go to a University in the Houston, TX area.  As far as I 
can remember, I have been crossdressing since I was in kindergarten.  As a child
I was a "latch-key-kid" so often I was home alone before my brother got home.  
I used to get into my mom's closet and try on her pantyhose, dresses, the works.
All through school I never actually got caught, but my mother found her things 
hidden in my room several times.  I always denied the accusations of course.  
She was very confused, as was I.  She offered to get me "help" but I said no be-
cause I didn't feel I needed any.  I still don't believe I need help, but would
love to interactively talk with someone either on the computer or in person.  I 
know there are a lot of people who still have not "come out" yet and don't want 
to pursue this possibility but if there is anyone who is willing I'm very
anxious.
	Well, a little more about myself.  Probably my biggest problem as far as
passing goes is my size.  I'm a pretty big guy.  I stand 5'9" and weigh about230
pounds.  To say the least, I'm a 44C and wear a 16/18 women's dress.  It's very
hard to shop.  Several good things have come out of this group.  One, I have 
this new sense of bravery.  I recently went out and bought shoes, a dress, and
makeup.  From a catalog, I have ordered a garter belt, a girdle, pantyhose, 
stockings, a few bras, some panties, and breast pads.  All because of this group
Probably the bravest thing I've done so far is shave my legs.  My roommate 
thought of it as a little strange but I told him that it was so I could ride my
bike w/o my legs itching wildly.  I dress up as often as possible.  Mostly when 
my parents go out of town.  I like to sleep en femme, but I can't do it at 
school.  Most of you can relate with this.  My biggest frustration with dressing
up is my nails.  I can't ever seem to get them right.  One of these days, I'll 
get up the nerve to go get a manicure with sculpted nails when my parents are
going out of town for a while.  I wish I could find a genetic female that under-
stands my position and will help me but it's so hard to find someone.  I don't 
know who to tell because if I tell the wrong person, it could destroy my 
standing at school.  I would lose a lot of good friends if the secret got out.  
Well, I've babbled long enough.  I have so much to say, but don't know how to
say it.  Could several people please respond to my outcry.  I want to talk to 
someone so bad but don't have anyone here (school) to talk to.  I'll be on 
tonight(Monday) from 9-10 CST.  Please use the "talk" function.  Mail sent to 
me might be disastrous since other people use this account.  So, please respond
on alt.trans or "talk" to me.  Thanks so much for lending your ear.  I feel 
better.
					Renee
					st1ic@jetson.uh.edu
PS  If you try to talk to me, ask for a password.  I will respond with "Sabian."
This is to ensure that one of the other people on the account don't try to get
in of the conversation. 
						xoxoxoxo	
						Renee

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