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**************     Conyers Apparitions     **************
 Journal of Reported Teachings and Messages of Our Lord
     and Our Loving Mother at Conyers, Georgia, USA
        Compiled by Our Loving Mother's Children,
            P.O. Box 309, Conyers, GA. 30207
                    www.conyers.org
         Internet Email Edition - February 1997
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           "THE KEY TO MY HEART IS IN LOVING ME
                  AND LOVING EACH OTHER."

                 Midnight, January 1, 1997
     Nancy was together with several of her friends.  The
hidden visionary saw a cross of mystical light move from the
crucifix over onto Nancy's heart and, then, from Nancy's
heart back to the crucifix.  He asked Nancy, "What is this?"
     Nancy replied, "I know but I don't want to say."
     The hidden visionary saw the same thing happen again.
     Nancy said, "For humility, I don't want to say."
     Jesus said, "My daughter Nancy loves Me purely, like a
child."
     Nancy added, "I don't love Him enough."  As Nancy said
these words, the mystical light on the crucifix increased in
intensity.
     Jesus continued speaking, "Pure love of a child is love
united with Me on the cross.  Pure love means carrying the
cross too.  You have to not only love but embrace the
cross."
     Nancy said, "All throughout the day I say  I love You'
to Jesus.  I don't have any human being that loves me as
Jesus loves me."  Another friend in the room saw Nancy
glowing in mystical light as she spoke these words.
     Nancy said, "My gentle God, thank you for your mercy
and love for me.  Whenever I come before You I feel like a
child.  I always have an image of myself coming before Jesus
as a little girl about five years old."
     The hidden visionary again saw the mystical cross come
over Nancy's heart.  Nancy continued, "God, You are the only
One Who loves me.
     "God is the only one I feel close to."
     The hidden visionary saw a mystical light flash on the
crucifix.  He said to Nancy, "I understand that Jesus wants
to speak further."
     Nancy said, "God wants me to say the relationship He
has with me is the same love that is available to you, and
you can love Him in the same way.
     "I talk like a child to Him and you can too.  You can
love Him from your heart.  When I say to Jesus,  I'm sorry
for all those moments I failed or hurt you, I'm not worthy,
I want to love you more, but I don't know how,' Jesus then
pours even more love into my heart."
     Nancy said, "I feel my heart will burst with love for
Christ.
     "When shopping in the store I say,  God, You pick out
what You want me to have.
     "When you tell God,  I love You,' He is pouring love
into your heart more and more.  I feel this is the message
for the New Year."
     The hidden visionary said to Nancy, "I feel Jesus wants
to speak."
     Jesus said to Nancy, "The key to My heart is in loving
Me and loving each other.  Tell My children this.
     "The more you love Me, the more I pour forth My love in
you and the more you can love each other.
     "You see, little one, it is My love that enables you to
love."
     The hidden visionary then said, "At this moment from
the heart of Christ a billow of mystical light is coming
forth and embracing Nancy."  [Because Nancy was giving her
heart to Christ at this moment, Christ was giving His heart
to her in return and drawing Nancy closer to Himself.  This
is what happens when we give our hearts to God in prayer
even though we may not see the mystical light with our
physical eyes.]
     Nancy said, "Jesus said simply to love Him.  I tell
Jesus.  I love You but I don't love You enough.  I'm sorry
I hurt You."
     Later the hidden visionary said,  "I see like a
thousand rays coming from the crucifix into everyone in the
room."
     Nancy said, "The more you love, the more you have the
attributes of God ... mercy, compassion, forgiveness."
     The hidden visionary said,  "The more you love God on
earth, the more you will love God in Heaven."  He then said
to Nancy, "At this moment you are witnessing something."
     Nancy said, "It is an intellectual vision.  There is a
man, who is in government, having trouble with his heart.
They are putting paddles on his heart.  There is someone on
a stretcher.  Someone we would all know like a president, a
leader.  Let's pray for him."
     Nancy said, "Let's pray for everyone close to death."
     Two other friends in the room also saw the mystical
light around the crucifix.

                     February 11, 1997
     As George began reading to Nancy "The Value of Labor
and Suffering" on page 4 of the December 1996 Conyers
Journal, Nancy saw mystical light appear behind George.
Jesus has told Nancy to be attentive to whatever is being
said when the mystical light appears.

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                     "AMERICA, WAKE UP
                  BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE."


                      Part 13 - China

     Jesus has said to Nancy, "Oh Nancy, My children have
wandered very far from Me.  They do not desire Me and they
do not want to know Me and they do not care.  Their hearts
have grown cold and indifferent.  Must I show My might
before they turn and come back to Me?
     "The days are rapidly approaching when My punishment
will begin.  Oh how I suffer for love of My children.  You
will not love Me in love, will you love Me in fear?  Please
children, come back to Me.  If you know Me, you will love
Me." [3/2/92]
     The Blessed Mother has told Nancy, "God's punishment is
merciful.  Everything God does is merciful." [12/13/92]
     The Blessed Mother has also said, "Panic is not the way
of God.  No matter how dark it may appear around you, you
must persevere in prayer." [2/13/93]
     The  messages in this series, "America, Wake Up Before
It Is too Late" [5/11/93] are presented as warnings from Jesus
and the Blessed Mother, given in love to the people of the
United States just as parents warn their children, in love,
of the future consequences of their choices and actions.
The Blessed Mother has told Nancy, "Children must take
responsibility for the decisions of their lives.  They must
ask God to help them.  You will make more wrong decisions if
you do not seek the help of God." [2/13/93]  The Blessed
Mother's words of advice apply to us as individuals as well
as a Nation.
     In last month's Journal, Jesus' December 1992 warning
was republished: "Do not think that communism is dead.  I
tell you, it is on the rise ... Do not trust Russia."
[12/30/92]  In very recent and in past Conyers messages and
visions, Jesus has also given warnings concerning China.
Some of these messages follow.  The messages are presented
not to create panic but rather to prompt individuals and
this Nation to humbly turn back to God in response to Jesus'
request, "Please children, come back to Me.  If you know Me,
you will love Me."


          "THE FATE OF THE UNITED STATES IS SET."
                      January 2, 1997
     Nancy asked Jesus if it could be possible that from
China will come a great war and if it would have a major
effect on the United States.
     Jesus said, "The fate of the United States is set.
There is no turning back."
     Nancy could not understand how this could happen in
such a great magnitude, a great war that would affect not
only the United States but the whole world as well.
     Jesus said, "Look around you.  I see and know the
hearts of men."

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     The following previously published messages are the
continuation of a series that began in the February 1996
Journal.  The messages in the series contain references to
the Fatima apparitions, disobedience with God's laws, the
sin of abortion, punishments, war, communism, Russia, the
Orient, China, peace, prayer and reparation.  The messages
are being presented in chronological order.


          "IF YOU CONTINUE TO WALLOW IN YOUR SIN,
               YOU SHALL HAVE NO PEACE ..."
                      January 5, 1993
     Jesus said, "If you continue to wallow in your sin, you
shall have no peace on the land, on the sea and in the air."

                      January 6, 1993
     Before the Mass, Nancy heard Jesus say, "Time is
running out for all Mankind."  Nancy then saw an angel
appear with a trumpet.
     During the Mass, Nancy saw many visions.  She saw
angels in flight and it appeared that they changed to small
airplanes, like fighter aircraft.  Later she saw the huge
face of an older man who looked Chinese.  Nancy felt
uncomfortable and asked Jesus if the man was Chinese.
     Jesus replied, "Yes."

                      January 7, 1993
     Nancy was worn out and went to lie down.  She saw the
image of the Blessed Mother in black with the Christ Child.
A black light was also present.
     Jesus said, "War is near.
     "Rest."
                      January 8, 1993
     At morning Mass, Jesus said, "The United States is
going to war.  My children are going to be punished.  Write
My words."
     When Nancy looked up she saw white light over the
Sacred Heart of Jesus picture on the altar and several
columns of white light.
     During the first reading, Nancy saw a vision of the map
of the world.  She saw the United States, the Continent of
Africa and what looked like Europe.
     After the Mass the Blessed Mother appeared all in
black, suspended in the air above the pews.

                      January 8, 1993
     As Nancy and friends were praying the Rosary, the
Blessed Mother said to Nancy, "I am coming in the silence of
your heart because my heart is sorrowful and mourning."
[What was at first an external vision of the Blessed Mother
with the Christ Child, became an internal vision for Nancy.]
     Nancy then saw a map of the world.
     "Your world will be changing.  There will be more
floods, more droughts and more severe storms.  You have
refused the peace of God.  Therefore, you shall not have
peace in your land."
     Nancy saw a vision of a level, inland area of the
United States.  There was flooding; homes were flooded.
     Nancy later saw a vision of soldiers.  It looked like
they were in trenches.

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                  Record Disaster Losses

     During 1992 the United States casualty insurance
     industry reported that it had experienced its
     worst year with record disaster losses.  The
     losses were far greater than any previous year.

                  Major Inland U.S. Flood

     During July of 1993, what was described by the
     news media as the "Flood of the Century", the
     "Great Flood of 1993" and the "flood of biblical
     proportions" caused record breaking floods and
     extensive damage along the Mississippi River and
     its tributaries.  Levees collapsed, flooding
     homes, businesses and vast stretches of prime
     agricultural land.  Soldiers from the National
     Guard, working as if in trenches, repaired the
     levees.  Municipal water supplies were
     contaminated.  A wet autumn, heavy winter snows
     and torrential rains from  Spring through July
     created the record floods.

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                     January 10, 1993
     Jesus said, "I thank the Holy Father for his prayers
for peace and all his helpers."
     Later Nancy asked friends about the confrontation over
the Iraqi missiles.  Nancy said that she thought there was
going to be a war but the newspapers were now reporting that
the missiles had been moved and the crisis was subsiding.
Nancy said, "Jesus said, 'there was going to be a war.  The
war could begin at any time.'"
     Jesus then said, "Who are you to question Me?  I have
heard the prayers for peace.  Have you not asked Me for more
time?"  [Nancy had begged Jesus for more time.]
     "There are many graces when a little soul comes to Me
in prayer.
     "Let Me say this: I have not removed My warning for
war.  It is up to you to pray and amend your lives."

                  "BEWARE OF THE ORIENT."
                     January 11, 1993
     Nancy saw visions of male faces, oriental in
appearance.  The men wore military helmets and their eyes
looked mean.  Nancy sprayed holy water at the vision and it
burst into light as if it exploded.  She asked Jesus for
help.
     Jesus said, "Beware of the Orient."

* * * * *   to Be Continued in the next Journal   * * * * *

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      "TRUST IN MY LIVING SPIRIT, MY HOLY SPIRIT ...
         AS YOU SURRENDER TO ME, I SUBMIT TO YOU."


                     October 26, 1996
     Nancy and the hidden visionary were trying to
understand how God makes them fall into ecstasy whenever
they see visions pertaining to God or the mysteries of their
faith.
     The hidden visionary said, "It is as if the Holy Spirit
rushes upon us and we are caught up in a state of
indescribable peace and tranquility."
     As Nancy and the hidden visionary continued to talk,
Jesus appeared to Nancy in a glorified state, alive on the
cross.
     Jesus said, "My little children, trust in My living
Spirit, My Holy Spirit.  For We dwell not apart from you,
but in you.  Believe and know I am with you always.  As you
surrender to Me, I submit to you."  [See also Ephesians 3:16-19]
     Nancy paused and asked Jesus to repeat what He had just
said to be sure she had heard Him correctly.
     Jesus said again, "Submit to you.
     "We are one.  Be at peace.
     "Thank you.  I love you."
     The hidden visionary, who could only see the light that
accompanied Jesus, said, "We shouldn't worry about things
that are beyond human comprehension."  As he said these
words both he and Nancy saw a great mystical light flash
before them.
     Nancy, then filled with the Holy Spirit's fire, prayed
fervently, saying, "Oh my Jesus, please convert all
unbelievers and draw them to You.  It is my desire that the
whole world come to know and love You.  This is all I want,
that souls may come to You, the source of our life."
     As Nancy prayed these words, she saw a majestic and
venerable man with a beard descend over the apparition of
the glorified Christ on the cross and merge with Christ to
be one with Him.  Then the vision vanished.

                 A REFLECTION ON HUMILITY

     In the above October 26, 1996 message, when Jesus said,
"Submit to you," a second time, the hidden visionary
received an immediate understanding of the meaning of His
words.  In God's light, he remembered and understood the
following words from An Unpublished Manuscript on Purgatory:
 "Great though He is, Almighty God does not hesitate to
lower Himself to the humble soul that truly loves Him."  In
other words, God is drawn like a magnet to the humble and
contrite heart.  Later as he reflected further on the
message, the hidden visionary wrote:

     It is recorded in "The Life and Revelations of St.
Gertrude"  that upon hearing the bell that called her to
receive Holy Communion, she hesitated thinking that she was
not prepared enough.  She complained to the Lord saying,
"Behold, Lord, You are coming to me but why have You not
granted me the grace of devotion [to receive You] with a
better preparation?"  Upon which Jesus appeared to her and
said, "A bridegroom admires the personal beauty of his bride
more than her ornaments; and in like manner I prefer the
virtue of humility to the grace of devotion."
     In "From the Wisdom of the Desert Fathers", we read that
one of the desert fathers, who had fasted rigorously for
seventy years, asked God about the interpretation of a
saying in Scripture but God did not reveal it to him.  The
old man then said to himself, "I have given myself so much
affliction without obtaining anything, so I will go to see
my brother and ask him."  But while he was closing the door
behind him to go to see his brother, an angel of the Lord
was sent to him.  The angel said, "These seventy years you
have fasted have not brought you near to God, but when you
humbled yourself by going to see your brother, I was sent to
tell you the meaning of this saying."  When he had fully
replied to the old man's search into the Scriptures, the
angel withdrew from him.  Many such instances abound in the
lives of the saints.
     In the very gospels, Christ Jesus teaches us that, "...
he who humbles himself will be exalted." [Luke 14:11 RSV]  Take
for example the parable that Jesus told to "some who trusted
in themselves that they were righteous and despised others:
 Two men went up into the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and
the other a tax collector.  The Pharisee stood and prayed
thus with himself, "God, I thank thee that I am not like the
other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like
this tax collector.  I fast twice a week, I give tithes of
all that I get."  But the tax collector, standing far off,
would not even lift his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast
saying, "God, be merciful to me a sinner!'  I tell you, this
man went down to his house justified rather than the other;
for every one who exalts himself will be humbled, but he who
humbles himself will be exalted.'"  [Luke 18:9-14 RSV]
     Great though He is, Almighty God does not hesitate to
lower Himself to the humble soul that truly loves Him.  It
seems that twentieth century people have lost sight of this
reality.  The reality that God will always favor the humble,
but the proud He will always resist.  This is precisely what
He is trying to teach us in Conyers, Georgia.  In one of His
appearances to Nancy, the Lord Jesus said, "Humility is the
most important virtue and the inverse is true, pride is the
greatest sin.  All sin is prideful.  Every sin involves
pride." [July 29, 1991]  On another occasion Jesus said to
Nancy, "Blessed are you who humble yourself before Me and
all men.  Humility, humility, humility, the paramount of all
virtues.  Without humility there is no need to talk about
the rest." [November 10, 1991]
     Once Nancy humbly pleaded with God for a more extended
time of mercy that souls could be converted to Him.  Jesus
seemed moved by this petition and simply responded saying,
"There are many graces when a little soul comes to Me in
prayer." [January 10, 1993]
     On another occasion Nancy had to give a public talk
before multitudes in Puerto Rico.  The thought of speaking
before many people scared Nancy.  In holy fear and
trembling, she went to Jesus for help.  Instantly the Lord
Jesus appeared as if He could not wait any longer.
     Jesus said, "Oh My little one, you come like the
innocence of a child.  I love your childlike qualities.  I
am drawn like a magnet to a little soul.  Let My children
come unto Me.  Again I say, it saddens My heart; if only My
children would be children.  Tell them, precious one, repeat
My words often ... See what My life and My strength can do.
You come to Me like a little child, frightened and in need
of help.  Again I say in your weakness and littleness, I am
attached to you.  Teach others to depend on Me ... Tell
them, Nancy, I am living.  I am their living God ..." [August
7, 1993]
     Another example can be drawn from Nancy's experience
with the Mother of God on the feast of the Immaculate
Conception in 1990.  Nancy was speaking with the hidden
visionary about the mercy of God.  Nancy suddenly stopped as
if struck by a sudden thought and she began to weep at the
thought of her own unworthiness and sinfulness.  At that
moment, a light descended through the roof of her home and
the Virgin Mother of God appeared.  After Our Lady thanked
Nancy for honoring her on her feast day and encouraging
Nancy to grow more in love with her Son, she told Nancy that
what really brought this apparition was Nancy's humility.
With great compassion she then looked at Nancy and said,
"Your profound humility brought me at the very moment that
you were recognizing your unworthiness."
     Because the appearance of Our Lady happened so quickly,
Nancy did not have time to kneel.  When she realized that
she was in a sitting position, she said to Our Lady, "Oh you
are so beautiful, I should be kneeling."  When she made a
motion to do so, the Holy Virgin said, "Please stay as you
are, you are honoring me in your heart because of your
humility.  Remember always your unworthiness.  Remember
always everything is a gift from God ..."
     Even the Mother of God humbled herself in this
apparition when she identified herself as the "Mother of
God."  She did not stop there but also added "a servant of
God."  All in one breath she said, "I am the Mother of God,
I am a servant, a messenger of God." [12/8/90]
     In the Blessed Virgin we find the most compelling
example of how God submits to the humble and lowly of heart
that truly love Him.  St. Alphonsus Ligouri writes that in
the mystery of the Incarnation of Jesus, "Mary could not
have humbled herself more than she did humble herself; God,
on the other hand, could not have exalted her more than He
did exalt her."  When Mary said, "Behold, the handmaid of the
Lord, be it done unto me according to your word," she was
consciously aware of what she was saying.  In the original
language of the New Testament (Greek), St. Luke wrote that
Mary said, "Behold the doule of the Lord,"  where "doule"
iterally means a female slave.  In other words, when the
Holy Virgin saw that God wished to raise her to the dignity
of the Mother of God, she humbled herself profoundly as the
"slave" of the Lord.  With this inner humility, she added a
complete surrender by saying, "Be it done to me according to
your word."  This therefore is the kind of surrender that
God asks of all of us.  A surrender both complete and
without reserve.
     St. John's Gospel and St. Paul's Epistles make  it
clear that basically the choice is ours: either we are
slaves of sin or slaves of the Lord.  Being a slave of the
Lord is an honor because by believing in Christ's
redemption, we become freed from the enslavement of sin and
begin to enjoy a new status as sons and daughters of God.
[Galatians 4:7 and 2 Peter 2:19]
     Finally, it will do us well to reflect on what St.
Augustine said about humility: "... Humility is the most
proper disposition for all celestial gifts.  And finally, it
is so necessary to holiness, that of all the ways to reach
it, the first is humility; the second, humility; the third,
humility.  And if the question were repeated a hundred
times, I should always give the same answer."

                   Reflection References
  1. "An Unpublished Manuscript on Purgatory" published by
     The Reparation Society of the Immaculate Heart of Mary,
     Inc., 100 East 20th Street, Baltimore, Maryland  21218
  2. "The Life and Revelations of St. Gertrude"  published
     by Christian Classics, Inc., P.O. Box 30, Westminster,
     Maryland  21157
  3, "From the Wisdom of the Desert Fathers" from the
     anonymous series of the "Apophthegmata Patrum"
     published by the Sisters of the Love of God, Convent of
     the Incarnation, Fairacres - Oxford.


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                         PETITIONS
     Prayer petitions can either be sent by e-mail or U.S.
mail for placement in the room where the Blessed Mother
appears at the Conyers apparition site.  The e-mail address
is "petitions4heaven@mindspring.com" and the U.S Mail address
is: Our Loving Mother's Children, P.O. Box 309, Conyers, GA
30207.

        TWO NEW CONYERS PUBLICATIONS NOW AVAILABLE
     Volume III of "To Bear Witness that I Am the Living Son
of God" is available at last!  The 390 page book is being
printed and it should be available at the Conyers apparition
site by October 13th.  Volume III is a powerful, heart
moving collection of the Conyers messages that were
published since Volume II in 1992.  The messages in Volume
III are organized by theme as Jesus had originally
requested.  A reader with an open heart can not help but to
be drawn closer to the loving and merciful heart of Jesus.
The book costs $10 plus $2 for shipping and handling.  Book
orders previously received will be processed as soon as
Volume III is received from the printers.
     The 94 page booklet titled "There is too little faith
here.  I am very sad." has also just been published.  The
booklet contains all the monthly messages on the 13th from
1990 through 1995 from Jesus and the Blessed Mother.  There
are three sections to the booklet.  First, the Blessed
Mother explains her purpose in coming to Conyers.  Second,
the messages from Jesus asking mankind to return to Him.
Third, both Jesus and the Blessed Mother extend an
invitation to all of us to come... to visit... to pray, in
faith on the Holy Hill as their presences remain in a
special way.  Never before have all the monthly messages
been combined like this.  The overall Conyers message is
very clear in this publication.  The booklet costs $2 plus
$1 for shipping and handling.
     Please send orders to: Our Loving Mother's Children,
P.O. Box 675, Newington, VA 22122.

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                    PLEASE BE A WITNESS

     Jesus told Nancy, "I have created many witnesses.  Let
them go out and speak."  Jesus also said, "Through the
graces of Conyers, I will grant many more healings."  If
Jesus and His Mother have touched you through the Conyers
apparitions and messages, please witness in a short letter
to the Atlanta Archbishop at the following address:   Most
Reverend John F. Donoghue, Archbishop of Atlanta, 680 W.
Peachtree, N.W., Atlanta, Georgia 30308-1984.  Please send
a copy to Our Loving Mother's Children, P.O. Box 309,
Conyers, GA 30207, Attn: Joy.

             PUBLISHED CONYERS MESSAGES & VIDEOS

     Copies of previous monthly Conyers Journals starting
with the first in April '92 to the most recent are now
available!  The set is bound with a blue cover and is $12
per set including postage.  Also, additional Conyers
messages received prior to the publication of the Journals
are available in the books "To Bear Witness That  I AM the
Living Son of God" - Volume I and II.  The volumes are
available for $5.50 each including postage.  Five videos are
available at $18 each including postage.  They are: "Miracle
at Conyers", "Love and Mercy", "Journey of Faith", "Why do
you Test Me?" and the newest, "Wake Up America".  Please
send your order with check (no COD) to: Our Loving Mother's
Children, P.O. Box 675, Newington, VA  22122

        HEARING AND RECEIVING THE CONYERS MESSAGES

     The printed monthly Conyers Journal is available for
free.  To receive, please send a six month supply of
stamped, self-addressed envelopes to the address on the
first page of this Journal.  Write the name of a different
month on each envelope and use 4" by 9 1/2" envelopes with
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or access them on the World Wide Web at the new address:

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or access via a computer BBS (configured 8/N/1/9600 baud)
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    To hear directions to Conyers as well as information on
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need further information, please call the apparition site at
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(Eastern time), Monday through Saturday.

    To receive by Fax the Conyers Journals (in English,
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