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**************     Conyers Apparitions     **************
 Journal of Reported Teachings and Messages of Our Lord
     and Our Loving Mother at Conyers, Georgia, USA
        Compiled by Our Loving Mother's Children,
            P.O. Box 309, Conyers, GA. 30012
                    www.conyers.org
           Internet Email Edition - December 1997
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                        REPARATION
     Our sacrifices and prayers are needed in order
     to give our hearts back totally to God in love.
                  The result is peace.

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             "REPARATION IS VERY IMPORTANT."

                     November 21, 1997

     Nancy was reviewing the final drafts of the July and
August 1997 Conyers Journals which focused upon the Fatima
messages and their call to all mankind to make reparation.
When Nancy looked up from reading a Journal, she saw a
bright white, mystical light radiating from the crucifix.
     Jesus said, "Reparation is very important."
     Then Nancy looked at the first page of the July 1997
Journal and saw a bright white, mystical cross appear
directly over the word "Reparation".
     Later, as Nancy was momentarily distracted from her
review of the Journals, Jesus said, "Continue working.  My
words are light for My children."

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             THE INTERCESSION OF ST. PEREGRINE
                       October 1997

     In June of 1997 Nancy and her friends were visiting the
National Shrine of Divine Mercy in Stockbridge,
Massachusetts.  They prayed in the chapel and, later,
Nancy's friends quietly walked around the inside of the
church.  Nancy remained sitting in the pew because she was
having trouble with the arthritis in her knee.
     One of Nancy's friends felt moved to bring the relic of
St. Peregrine that was in the chapel over to Nancy and she
placed it on Nancy's knee and prayed for healing through St.
Peregrine's intercession.  Nancy's friend wondered why she
was so moved to place a relic of the patron saint against
cancer on Nancy's arthritic knee.  Afterwards Nancy kissed
the relic and her friend carefully returned it to its place
in the chapel.
     Four months later Nancy discovered a lump in her breast
and, soon afterwards, had surgery to remove what turned out
to be a pre-cancerous tumor.  Nancy then understood the
reason why her friend was so moved that day in June to call
upon the intercession of St. Peregrine.

     Saint Peregrine Laziosi, OSM (1260-1345) was born at
Forli, Italy of well-to-do parents.  He was active in his
youth in the anti-papal party in Romagna but an encounter
with St. Philip Benizi changed his life.  Centuries later,
after living an exemplary life and extending charity to the
poor, he was canonized in 1726 and is recognized as the
patron saint against cancer.  A brief overview of St.
Peregrine's life from "Devotion to St. Peregrine", compiled
by the Daughters of St. Paul and published by Pauline Books
and Media, Boston, MA  02130, follows:

     SAINT PEREGRINE, THE PATRON OF CANCER PATIENTS

     Suffering is a gift we can give to God.  It is a gift
that only the person who is suffering can give.  When we
understand its value and offer it for love of God and the
good of others, then we also find that suffering brings joy.
     Certainly good works are of great value, but pains and
trials borne with love and patience are worth even more.
Love can transform even the smallest pain and make it a
worthy act of adoration.
     No one loves suffering for itself.  But to suffer out
of love, and in an attitude of acceptance and trust, is to
follow Jesus.
     St. Peregrine, the Patron Saint of cancer patients, is
an example of just such trust.
     As a youth in Forli he took an active part in the anti-
papalist politics of his town.  Fr. Philip Benizi was sent
to Forli by the Pope to act as a mediator, but he was
insulted and mistreated by the townspeople.  A group of
young troublemakers, led by Peregrine, attacked Fr. Philip
and drove him from the town.  Peregrine himself struck the
saintly priest on his face.  Fr. Benizi's only reply was to
offer the other cheek.
     Peregrine could not forget the look in the holy
priest's eyes - a look of compassion, love and pardon.
Peregrine's whole life changed and took on a new meaning.
He begged Fr. Philip's forgiveness, left aside his former
way of life, and dedicated himself to prayer and solitude.
     During this time he developed a trusting and childlike
confidence in the Blessed Mother.  On one occasion Mary
spoke to him and urged him to join "her servants" - the
Servites.  Fr. Philip Benizi received Peregrine into the
Order.
     After Peregrine had been ordained a priest, he asked to
return to Forli to work among his own people.  His favorite
places were the hospitals, the prisons and the homes of the
poor.  He spent his days and nights visiting the sick and
the dying, and comforting them by his presence, his words
and his actions.
     A life of poverty and penance eventually left its mark
on the aging Fr. Peregrine.  A painful cancerous sore
developed on his leg.  Yet, he bore this suffering without
complaint.  To save his life, however, the doctors decided
to amputate.  Surgery was a great risk in those days.
Peregrine was afraid and spent the night before the
operation in prayer.  Suddenly the figure on the crucifix
above him began to move!  Jesus came down and touched the
painful sore, then disappeared.  Fr. Peregrine thought it
had been a dream - but he was cured!  The doctors themselves
testified that they could no longer detect any trace of the
cancerous sore.
     For this reason St. Peregrine has been chosen the
patron of all who suffer from any type of cancer.
     The suffering that St. Peregrine bore in his lifetime
became his crown of glory.  His reward was the heaven that
each of us longs to someday enjoy.
     What we suffer in this life can never be compared to
the glory, as yet unrevealed, which is waiting for us (cf
Rom 8:18).

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        REPARATION AND THE SELF SACRIFICING LOVE
              OF THE CROSS AND MASS ARE ONE

       Part I:  The conversion of Saint Peregrine
              ... an example of Reparation

     There is a connection between reparation and Saint
Peregrine's conversion.
     Jesus said at the Last Supper, and His words are
repeated at each Mass, "Do this in remembrance of Me." [Luke
22:19]  With these words, Jesus instituted the Holy
Sacrifice of the Mass.  Jesus then offered Himself as a
sacrifice of love as He was beaten and crucified.  He did
not fight back nor speak-up to defend Himself.  He was as a
lamb.  The Lamb of God showed us how to love patiently when
we are attacked or beaten by words or by physical force ...
to "love one another as I have loved you." [John 15:12]
Jesus showed us how to sacrifice one's self in love until it
hurts.  As we sacrifice in this selfless way, we live the
love of Jesus in the Sacrifice of the Mass and we make
reparation.
     One time Nancy had a vision of a lamb and said, "I saw
a lamb and a little flame came in the center of its face.
Jesus, may I know the meaning of that vision?"
     Jesus replied and said, "Yes, My precious little lamb,
as I sacrifice Myself in love I ask you to do the same.  Be
gentle and kind, in love everywhere.  If you wander astray,
I will go and find you just like My Mother did.  The size of
the lamb is symbolic.  I want you to be very, very, very
little.  When you are very, very, very little, then you can
follow Me better.  It is only when you are little then I can
lead you.  So, if you don't want to stand on the hill alone,
be little." [1/18/91]
     Saint Philip Benizi sacrificed himself as a lamb, doing
it in remembrance of Jesus, and the fruit of his sacrifice
of love was the conversion of Saint Peregrine.  Saint Philip
Benizi understood the meaning of true love - "to give until
it hurts" (the words of Mother Teresa from the September
1997 Journal).

              "REPARATION IS VERY IMPORTANT."

     Jesus told Nancy, "Reparation is very important."
[11/21/97]
     Reparation is the process of repairing the separation
of our hearts and our will from God's heart and God's will.
This separation was and is caused by sin - the choosing of
our will and the desires of our heart over God's will and
the desires of His heart.
     Reparation is very important because before we can be
at peace with God and be with Him in Heaven, reparation must
be completed to bring our hearts and wills into oneness with
God.  Reparation is the journey back to God, of dying to our
ways and the ways of the world and following the way of God.
This leads to peace.  This is the way to Heaven.
     The more reparation we make, the less there is of us
and the more there is of Jesus that will live in us.  The
more Jesus lives in us and the more we reflect and bear
witness to His Living Presence, the more people will be
drawn to Jesus and His way of love and peace.
     The above story of Saint Peregrine's conversion is a
result of witnessing Jesus living in Father Philip Benizi.
By accepting the attack against him with love, resignation
and peace as Jesus did, Saint Philip showed how following
Jesus' way and reflecting Him in one's life converts people
to self giving, self sacrificing love and peace.  Jesus' way
is a way of self sacrificing love, a way of being kind,
gentle, loving and patient, no matter what is done to Him.

         "LOOK UPON THE CRUCIFIX AND UNDERSTAND
      IN YOUR HEART THE REPARATION I MADE FOR YOU."

     Jesus once said to Nancy, "I ask My children to make
reparation.  Look upon the crucifix and understand in your
heart the reparation I made for you.
     "Do not seek signs and wonders but seek Me in My Living
Presence in your midst.  Come before Me with reverence and
repentant hearts.
     "Children, I desire to heal you.  Come to Me."
[2/13/95]

     We need to reflect on Jesus' Living Presence as Nancy
sees Him in mystical light on the crucifix to understand, to
see what reparation He did.  He showed us the way of
reparation, the way of the cross.

        "REMEMBER YOU ASCEND YOUR HEAVENLY STEPS
      THROUGH THIS LIFE BY SELF SACRIFICING LOVE."

     The Blessed Mother spoke to Nancy about the importance
of reparation: "Begin to love God.  Begin to love yourselves
as God loves you, and begin to love each other in this way.
[The Blessed Mother looked prayerfully solemn.]
     "Remember you ascend your heavenly steps through this
life by self sacrificing love.
     "Embrace your cross."  [Jesus appeared momentarily
superimposed over the image of the Blessed Mother.]
     "Unite all your suffering with my Son.
     "I have come to ask you again, please, make many acts
of reparation to our hearts.  Offer to God your daily trials
and sufferings.  I solemnly tell you, you will receive all
the graces that you will need."  [10/13/96]

       "I AM THE WAY. I DIED FOR EACH ONE OF YOU."

     Jesus showed us the way back to God by reparation.
     During a monthly apparition, Jesus became alive on the
crucifix as it became engulfed in great supernatural light.
The image of Jesus in mystical light reflected immense
suffering.
     Jesus said in a thundering voice, full of power and
authority:
     "I am - the Resurrection.
     "I am - the Life."
     Nancy heard Jesus' words reverberate over and over.
The image of the face of Jesus changed back and forth
between a face reflecting great suffering to the face of
Jesus that Nancy would normally see.
     "I am - the Resurrection.
     "I am - the Life."
     Nancy then heard the following words from Jesus deep
within her.  Nancy felt Jesus' words resound with great
power and authority throughout her whole body.
     Jesus said with power, authority and firmness in His
voice:
     "I am the Way.
     "I am the Way.
     "I am the Way.
     "I died for each one of you.  For each soul I died.
     "I have poured forth My Blood.  I shed My Blood over
the whole world."
     The white wall behind the crucifix turned red.  On the
wall Nancy saw shapes like continents.  [9/13/94]

                 "IS MY LIVING PRESENCE
              NOT ENOUGH FOR MY CHILDREN?"

     The way back to God is by following Jesus' Light and
Living Presence in His Living Word.  The Living Word is
Jesus - the Word of God. [John 1:1-14]
     In the message that follows, Jesus asks, "Where is your
sorrow for hurting Me?  Do you not desire to repair your
injuries [to Him through sin]?"  In this message Jesus
connects reparation with His Living Presence in His Living
Word:

     The pilgrims outside were praying the 15 decades of the
Rosary as Jesus spoke to Nancy from the crucifix.
     Jesus said, "Is My Living Presence not enough for My
children?
     "Look upon My image, dear children, and repent.
     "Please have true sorrow in your hearts for all your
sins, for each time that you hurt Me.  Look upon My image
and know I died for you.
     "Where is your sorrow for hurting Me?
     "Do you not desire to repair your injuries? . . ."
     Jesus' closing words were, "My Living Presence and My
Living Word are One."  [8/13/94]

   We make reparation by giving up our way and our will and
following Jesus in His Living Word.  The more His Living
Word lives in us, the more He lives in us and the more
reparation we make.

                "UNDERSTAND IN YOUR HEART
             THE REPARATION I MADE FOR YOU."

     Jesus' way, the way of reparation, is the way of the
cross: "Look upon this crucifix and understand in your heart
the reparation I made for you."  [2/13/95]
     Should we not be grateful and thankful for what Jesus
did to save us?  Theologians say He did not have to the
suffer as much as He did to save us.  So, He did it to show
us the way, in a way that goes further than we have to go -
that's love.
     Do we not see the love in the cross?  Should we not
want to return this love by following in His footsteps?
Jesus once said to Nancy, "I am a living sacrifice of love."
[7/17/93]

            "BE JOINED TO THE CROSS IN LOVE."

     Jesus wants us to lovingly join our hearts to the cross
with the same self sacrificing love that He gives for all
mankind:

     Jesus said, "... I want My children to give Me their
hearts on the cross.  My heart is on the cross.  I am joined
to the cross.  I want My children to be joined to the cross
in love..."  [12/29/90]

     Jesus has also said His heart is joined to His cross of
self sacrificing love for us along with His Mother's heart.
The Blessed Mother has echoed His words:

     "My Son wishes to tell the world that our hearts are
one, suffering in love for all mankind, and our hearts are
united and joined to the cross."  [May 1991]

     Let us join our hearts with the Sacred Heart of Jesus
and the Immaculate Heart of Mary by embracing with love our
crosses in life.

           SAINT PHILIP BENIZI'S EXAMPLE TO US
                  OF LOVE OF THE CROSS

     By reflecting upon Jesus' words to Nancy on the
Stations of the Cross, let us look at how Saint Philip
Benizi followed Jesus' way of patient, self sacrificing love
of the cross which resulted in the conversion of the one who
struck him.  This led to peace.  This is the way to peace:

                   The First Station:
           Jesus is Condemned to Death by Pilate

     Jesus said, "Think of the times that you were falsely
accused, that outright lies were said about you.  Think
about what the people are saying and see them all together
surrounding you.  You know the truth but they do not.  Now
you speak out to relieve some of the internal suffering.  I
did not.  I kept silent."  [9/25/89]

     Father Benizi was silent when he was attacked by Saint
Peregrine just as Jesus remained silent.


                  The Eleventh Station:
               Jesus is Nailed to the Cross

     Jesus said, "Surrender completely.  Bear the pain;
bear the rejection.  Bear everything for your reward is
waiting you.  When others strike, do not strike back.  Show
them the error of their ways by your example.  Your actions
will speak louder.  Remember what you do to one another you
do to Me.  No one strikes another without first striking
Me."  [9/25/89]

     Father Benizi was struck.  He reacted as Jesus would
react  because Jesus was living in him.  He had died to the
ways of the world that would have prompted him to fight back
in defense of himself.  He turned the other cheek, in love,
as Jesus asks us to do: "Show them the error of their ways
by your example.  Your actions will speak louder."
     Father Benizi's actions spoke louder:  "Peregrine could
not forget the look in the holy priest's eyes - a look of
compassion, love and pardon.  Peregrine's whole life changed
and took on a new meaning.  He begged Fr. Philip's
forgiveness, put aside his former way of life, and dedicated
himself to prayer and solitude."  [from the "Devotion to St.
Peregrine"]
     Afterward encountering Saint Philip, Saint Peregrine
later became a priest and spent his days and nights helping
the sick and dying, comforting them with his presence and
words, the presence of Jesus living in him.

                  The Twelfth Station:
                 Jesus Dies Upon the Cross

     Jesus said, "My precious daughter, you must die before
you can be reborn.  Die to yourself completely.  Yes, you
must die to everything.  You leave everything behind when
you die and then come to Me.  I will give you all that you
will need forever.  Seek Me alone.  Walk with Me alone.  Do
not be afraid.  When you die, you live."    [9/25/89]

     Father Philip Benizi left behind all and he died to
self so that Jesus was reborn in him.  This led not only to
reparation for himself but also led to conversion and
reparation for Saint Peregrine and for those to whom Saint
Peregrine then touched.
     Do we not see why Jesus said, "Reparation is very
important" and why a cross of bright white, mystical light
appeared over the word reparation in the Journal that Nancy
was reviewing when Jesus spoke to her?  [11/21/97]

        REPARATION IN LOVE, THE SACRIFICE OF LOVE
         OF THE CROSS AND THE SACRIFICE OF LOVE
                  IN THE MASS ALL MERGE

     Reparation and the cross are one in Jesus.  As
reparation and the sacrifice of the cross, which is self
sacrificing love, become more and more one in us, the more
we follow Jesus' way and walk in Jesus' footsteps toward
Heaven.  The more we "Do this in remembrance of Me" [Luke
22:19], and "Love one another as I have loved you" [John
15:12], the more we will be moved to imitate Jesus by being
a lamb and joining our sacrifice of love to Jesus' sacrifice
of love in the Mass.  In this way we become more and more
one with Jesus, a Living Sacrifice of Love.  As we do this,
other people, like Saint Peregrine, also see the "errors of
their way" and they too begin following in Jesus' footsteps
to Heaven.  This is the way to Jesus - Who is Peace.
     Reparation is contagious!

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                     "AMERICA, WAKE UP
                 BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE."

                          Part 18

     There are serious consequences of not making
reparation.
     In her 1997 anniversary message, the Blessed Mother
addressed the global consequences by giving "a serious
warning" that "A great war will come upon this world,
greater than man has ever known."
     In 1917 at Fatima, in the midst of World War I, the
Blessed Mother warned of a worst war if people did not stop
offending God.  The peace plan of reparation that she gave
at Fatima was not embraced.  Mankind continued to offend God
and, as a consequence, World War II began 21 years later
with Hitler's annexation of Austria on March 13, 1938, the
occupation of Czechoslovakia in March of 1939 and finally
the invasion of Poland on September 1, 1939.
     In the 1990s at Conyers, both the Blessed Mother and
Jesus  have repeatedly asked for reparation and have warned
of war if mankind does not amend its ways.  The following
messages in the series "America, wake up before it is too
late" are particularly relevant to the critical need for
reparation today.

            THE VISION OF THE CROSS IN THE SKY
                        May 2, 1993
     Nancy was on her way to a 3 p.m. Mass when she saw a
cross, very clearly, high in the sky.  Jesus' body was
lunged forward on the cross.  The vision was more vivid and
detailed than a cloud formation.

             "UNITED STATES IS GOING TO WAR."
                        May 3, 1993
     During the 3 p.m. Rosary at the Farm, Nancy in a vision
saw a tiny white dove appear and fly to the crucified Jesus
hanging on a white cross.  That evening in church, before
the exposition of the Blessed Sacrament, Nancy saw a vision
of a white dove appear on top of the monstrance which holds
the Blessed Sacrament.
     Jesus said, "Nancy, My dearest daughter, United States
is going to war."
     Nancy looked up and saw above her in the center of the
church a very large and tall profile of a woman.  The woman
wore a veil and was dressed in black.  Nancy realized that
the woman was the Blessed Mother.  Nancy remembered how the
Blessed Mother had appeared in a similar way, dressed in
black, before the 1991 Gulf War.
     Nancy was thinking about the words, "United States is
going to war."  She then opened her eyes and saw the same
vision of the Blessed Mother.  Nancy was asking herself,
"Did I hear correctly that the United States is going to
war?"
     Jesus said, "It is true."
     Nancy saw the same vision of the Blessed Mother three
more times.  Then Jesus said, "My dearest daughter, I am
giving you many confirmations."
     Nancy again saw the same vision of the Blessed Mother
appear three more times.
     After the Blessed Sacrament was returned to the
Tabernacle, Jesus said, "Do you believe Me?
     "United States is going to war."
     And again, Nancy saw the Blessed Mother all in black.

                      To be continued

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            The International Group for Peace
      presents The Fifth International Symposium on
                    SCIENCE AND FAITH

This will truly be an evening with a difference.  You will
hear scientists present their findings of what they have
encountered when they have looked through the eyes of
science at certain religious phenomena currently occurring
in the world.  Can meaning be found with this phenomena and
what are the implications of their findings for humanity and
its faith?

          * May 9, 1998 in Miami (Time and location being
     arranged)

          * May 12, 1998 in Atlanta, 7:30 - 10:30 PM at the
     GEORGIA INTERNATIONAL CONVENTION CENTER, 1902
     Sullivan Road - Atlanta, Georgia 30337  (Next to
     the Airport)

         Lmited Seating -  Reservations Required
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Please Contact:  Mary Fernandez at Regina Caeli, 2731
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305/442-9183

More detailed information will be available on the
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