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**************     Conyers Apparitions     **************
 Journal of Reported Teachings and Messages of Our Lord
     and Our Loving Mother at Conyers, Georgia, USA
        Compiled by Our Loving Mother's Children,
            P.O. Box 309, Conyers, GA. 30012
                    www.conyers.org
           Internet Email Edition - February 1998
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                        REPARATION                        

     Spend time with Jesus in prayer and in adoration
              before the Blessed Sacrament.

                            
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    Note:  If you can access the Conyers Web site at
   "www.conyers.org" you will find a more colorful
    presentation of this Conyers Journal including a
    photograph of Jesus that Nancy says most
    resembles her visions of Him.  There is also a
    drawing of Jesus on the cross in mystical light
    that was based upon Nancy's description of her
    visions of Jesus becoming alive on the crucifix.
    At the Conyers Web site you can also read and
    print the Journal in its original 4 page printed
    format by selecting the Adobe Acrobat "pdf"
    version of the Journal. 
                           
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            "SPEND TIME WITH ME, LITTLE ONE...
                I LONG FOR YOUR PRESENCE"


                     December 8, 1997

     Dr. Ricardo Castañon, a former atheist  who had
organized the medical and scientific testing of Nancy in 1993
and later returned to the Catholic faith as a result of his
experiences with the Conyers apparitions, organized a
conference at a convent in Mexico City near the Basilica of
Our Lady of Guadalupe.  Nancy was invited to the conference
and, after she had arrived, Nancy was asked to give a talk. 
Although she had not prepared in advance, she did speak and
the following account is drawn from that presentation:

     "I understand at this very moment what it means to trust
in God.  Jesus has told me that we would be called forth to
speak and "Be a witness for Me.  You do not need to have any
words prepared because I myself will give you the words to
speak."
     "As I came over to the conference, I was understanding 
some very beautiful words:  We are being called to be
apostles, apostles of today.  Not an easy task then and not
an easy task now, but one that God makes very possible.  It
does not matter if we are tall or if we are short; if we are
heavy or thin; if we are wise or not so wise, for God,
Himself, will give us the words to speak through the Holy
Spirit.  Remember, in our spiritual weakness, He makes us
strong to be a witness for Him, the living, the loving, the
merciful Jesus.
     "If we know God, then we will understand His great
mercy, for we will know that we are lacking in the virtues 
-  every virtue including faith, trust, hope and charity,
love.  We are lacking in everything.
     "My day began very early, maybe at 3 or 4 o'clock this
morning.  I was able to go and pray in the chapel and I was
very grateful to be there with our Lord, the Eucharistic
Jesus, in a very special way.  I will share a few thoughts. 
I pray that this may be of some help in your spiritual
journey.
     "As I began to pray in the silent hours, I understood
in my heart how lacking I am.  Then, I understood that the
merciful, loving Jesus takes me as I am, with all my faults,
and calls me unto Himself.

     At that moment Nancy interiorly heard Jesus speak:

     "Spend time with Me, Nancy.  Spend time with Me, little
one."
     As Jesus spoke these words, His image on the crucifix
became alive in mystical light and His head turned all the
way to the right.  When He finished speaking these words, the
image of Jesus' face turned to the left and became still.
     In spite of so many mystical experiences over the years,
Nancy doubted what she had just seen.  She later said that
this was another example of how little faith and trust she
had but how merciful is God: 

     "How little faith and how little trust I still have in
Our Lord.  For I wanted to recheck the mystical experience. 
I looked back at the crucifix to see which way the image of
Christ was facing on the crucifix.  Was the man-made image
looking to the right or  left?  Then I realized again, in
these silent moments, oh how blessed I am and how rich and
endless is His mercy and how easily I abandoned my Lord."

     Nancy reflected further on her spiritual condition.  She
saw that she was truly a sinner and the more she realized her
own sinful state, the more she came to understand the endless
mercy  of God:

     "I began to reflect upon how God loves unconditionally,
pure love, love, love. How rich is His mercy and how
miserable a sinner I am.  I mean these words from my heart. 
This was like a moment of illumination of my own soul.
     "Then I began to pray: 'Please, Lord, forgive me for all
my sins for my whole life and I implore Your mercy.'  In my
heart, I felt: 'I am not worthy to look upon You.  I am not
worthy of a single moment of special grace.  I am not worthy
of a moment of any grace.'
     "I began to  pray for my Bishop and everyone I could
think of at that moment.  I was asking God's forgiveness
again because often have I forgotten my friends - How often
I have received acts of mercy and charity and how often I
have failed to say 'thank you' to God and to my friends and
to thank God for my friends.

     At this moment the image of Jesus on the crucifix became
alive again in mystical light.   His head turned to the right
and Jesus said:

     "My mercy is endless."

     Then the image of Jesus became still again.  Nancy
described her thoughts at that moment:

     "I understood that the endless mercy of God is so rich! 
How can we not love Him?  How can we not love each other? 
How can we not decide to be with Him?  How can we not decide
to be like Him?  I am sure in your own heart the Holy Spirit
will guide you in reflecting upon the great mercy of God."

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    *            "My mercy is endless."            *
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     For a long while Nancy continued to pray and reflect
upon her own weaknesses and wretchedness.  Nancy was enjoying
this quiet time with the Lord when someone came into the
chapel and she became distracted.  Nancy then said to Jesus:

     "Look at how easily I am distracted.  Someone comes into
the chapel and my eyes are turned away from You."

     Nancy began to think about Padre Pio at this moment and
about a very beautiful post-Communion prayer from Padre Pio. 
[This beautiful prayer is included in its entirety in this
Journal.]  She recalled the first words of the prayer: Stay
with me, Lord, for it is necessary to have You present so
that I do not forget You.  You know how easily I abandon You. 
Then the mystical image of Jesus became alive again on the
crucifix as Nancy heard these words:

     "I never leave you."

     Nancy thought to herself, "Oh me of little faith and
trust in God," and in her heart she asked, "Do I hear you
correctly, Lord?"
     Jesus replied, "Yes, I never leave man.  Man leaves Me."

     After Jesus spoke these words His image became still and
Nancy reflected upon these few but profound words.  She 
realized that God never leaves us;  it is we who leave Him. 
How well Nancy understood these words.

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    *  "Yes, I never leave man.  Man leaves Me."   *
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     Nancy saw an immense mystical light flood into the
chapel and she heard these words interiorly:
     "My Nancy, I long for your presence.  I will give you
many notebooks filled with My words of love.  Come to Me."

     Nancy described what happened next:

     "I was reflecting on how Our Lord truly longs for us,
for our presence before Him.  To truly personalize this for
everyone, I understood that Our Lord continually speaks words
of love in an inaudible voice to all souls.  We simply have
to be present to Him."

     At this moment Nancy began to think about the Blessed
Mother's serious warning of a future war in the October 13,
1997 anniversary message at Conyers:

     "Please, children, you must not offend God any longer. 
I come with a serious warning.  A great war will come upon
this world, greater than man has ever known.
     "Pray, children, pray.  Amend your ways.  Please.  I
invite you to pray the Rosary for peace."

     Nancy prayed, "Lord, what about this war?"
     Nancy was not just simply asking for more information
on this war but, in another moment of weakness, was
questioning Jesus if she had heard the Blessed Mother
correctly.
     At this point Nancy again saw a white, mystical light
appear  around the image of Christ on the crucifix as Jesus
said:
     "Man's heart is not one with Me.  When you are not with
Me, then you have conflict.  I am the Great Peacemaker."
     Nancy thought about the peacemakers in the world such
as  the late Mother Teresa and she asked Jesus to explain the
significance of the word 'great'.
     Jesus replied, "I alone give peace."

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    *            "I alone give peace."             *
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     Nancy wrote in her notebook, "How prideful men are to
think that they can create and maintain peace in the world
apart from God.  That peace is false.  This false peace is
temporary and not lasting.  It saddens me greatly to think
that the world may experience a future war.  This doesn't
have to be if only man would return to the Great Peacemaker."

     Nancy looked up and saw that Jesus was alive on the
crucifix as she completed writing these words.  His image
then became still.  She later spoke about this experience:

     "As I was writing these words, I thought they were only
my thoughts but I was surprised to see Jesus alive in
mystical light on the crucifix.  For me this was a moment of
awareness of the Holy Spirit working in my thoughts."

     Nancy was reflecting upon how intimate a relationship
that we can have with God.  She thought to herself, "How is
this possible for me, a mere, sinful human being?  How can
we have such an intimate relationship with God?"  Nancy then
understood instantly, as God pierced the very stillness of
her heart with His voice:

     "You are Mine."

     Nancy again reflected upon her weaknesses and prayed: 
"Jesus, You give us everything.  You are the Great Lover; You
give us everything we need.  You are so good.  There should
be nothing more that I need, so please help me understand why
I still seek human consolation."
     Jesus' last words were, "It is your weakness not Mine."
     Nancy then prayed: "Lord, help me to love You more. 
Help me, with the Holy Spirit, to give You my love, to give
You my heart and to give You the time that is Yours which I
claim for myself."

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           PRAYER OF PADRE PIO AFTER COMMUNION

     Stay with me, Lord, for it is necessary to have You
     present so that I do not forget You.  You know how
     easily I abandon You."

     Stay with me, Lord, because I am weak and I need Your
     strength, that I may not fall so often.

     Stay with me, Lord, for You are my life, and without
     You, I am without fervor.

     Stay with me, Lord, for You are my light, and without
     You, I am in darkness.

     Stay with me Lord, to show me Your will

     Stay with me, Lord, so that I hear Your voice and follow
     You.

     Stay with me, Lord, for I desire to love You very much,
     and always be in Your company.

     Stay with me, Lord, if You wish me to be faithful to
     You.

     Stay with me, Lord, for as poor as my soul is, I wish it
     to be a place of consolation for You, a nest of love.

     Stay with me, Jesus, for it is getting late and the day
     is coming to a close and life passes, death, judgement,
     eternity approaches.  It is necessary to renew my
     strength, so that I will not stop along the way and for
     that, I need You.  It is getting late and death
     approaches.  I fear the darkness, the temptations, the
     dryness, the cross, the sorrows. 0h how I need You, my
     Jesus, in this night of exile!

     Stay with me tonight, Jesus, in life with all its
     dangers, I need You.

     Let me recognize You as Your disciples did at the
     breaking of the bread, so that the Eucharistic Communion
     be the light which disperses the darkness, the force
     which sustains me, the unique joy of my heart.

     Stay with me, Lord, because at the hour of my death, I
     want to remain united to You, if not by Communion, at
     least by grace and love.

     Stay with me, Jesus, I do not ask for divine
     consolation, because I do not merit it, but, the gift of
     Your Presence, oh yes, I ask this of You!

     Stay with me, Lord for it is You alone I look for.  Your
     Love, Your Grace, Your Will, Your Heart, Your Spirit,
     because I love You and ask no other reward but to love
     You more and more.

     With a firm love, I will love You with all my heart
     while on earth and continue to love You perfectly during
     all eternity.  Amen.

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                   "AMERICA, WAKE UP
                 BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE." 

                       Part 20

     Jesus has said to Nancy, "Man's heart is not one with
Me.  When you are not with Me, then you have conflict.  I am
the Great Peacemaker.  I alone give peace."  [12/9/97]
     Many times at Conyers Jesus and the Blessed Mother have 
asked for reparation, particularly Eucharistic Reparation. 
All the Conyers Journals since July of 1997, including this
Journal, have focused on reparation.  Reparation will bring
Peace - to us as individuals, to our families and communities
and to all mankind.  But, just as reparation brings great
blessings, there are also serious consequences of not making
reparation.
     In her 1997 anniversary message, the Blessed Mother
addressed the global consequences of a lack of reparation by
giving "a serious warning" that "A great war will come upon
this world, greater than man has ever known."  The next
messages in the series "America, wake up before it is too
late" are particularly relevant to the critical need for
reparation today:

                  "IF YOU REFUSE MY PEACE,
                 THEN YOU WILL BE AT WAR." 

                        May 12, 1993
     A great light came into the room.  The picture of the
Sacred Heart of Jesus came alive in this light.
     Jesus said to Nancy, "Write.
     "Dear children of America, the time has come for you to
respond to My invitations of love.  Please, children, wake
up before it is too late.  You are going deeper and deeper
into darkness.  Again I say to you: If you refuse My peace,
then you will be at war.
     "This message is only part of it.  My Mother will
complete it."  [Everything on the wall was glowing in great
white light.]


      "YOU ARE GOING DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO DARKNESS"

                        May 13, 1993
     On the anniversary of the first apparition at Fatima,
the Blessed Mother said, "Dear children of America, the time
has come for you to respond to our invitations of love. 
Please children, wake up while there is still time.  You are
going deeper and deeper into darkness.  Again I say to you:
if you refuse the peace of my Son, then, you will be at war. 
You will have war between nations, in your communities, in
your families and within yourselves.
     "On this anniversary day, I ask each of you to recommit
your life to God.  My children everywhere, join your hands
and your hearts to God and to each other."


             "A GREAT WAR IS COMING.  UNLESS MY
          CHILDREN WHOLEHEARTEDLY TURN BACK TO ME,
                 I WILL NOT STOP THE WAR."

                        May 25, 1993
     Nancy saw in a vision a great darkness on the side wall. 
She saw some all-black images which looked like military
equipment such as tanks.  Nancy saw outlines of countries,
and she saw city skylines descend and then vanish.  This last
vision repeated itself many times.
     Jesus said, "The war will get worse.  The war will
spread.  Cities will collapse."  [Nancy understood that Jesus
was referring to the war in the former Yugoslavia.]
     During the Mass, at the Consecration, Nancy saw great
white light around the Host as the Host was elevated.
     After Mass Jesus said, "Write what I have shown you.
     "A great war is coming.  Unless My children
wholeheartedly turn back to Me, I will not stop the war."
     Nancy then saw in a vision many people.  Their hands
were together like they were in prayer.
     Jesus said, "The saints are praying."
     Nancy saw a vision of what looked like battleships. 
Most of the ships were black.  A few were white.
     Jesus said, "You are attentive to My voice.  Look
again."
     Nancy saw another city skyline descend and then vanish. 
The vision was a repeat of previous visions.
     Nancy saw a large image of the Blessed Mother appear all
in black.  The Blessed Mother appeared in the air, over the
altar. 

                   "DO NOT TRUST CHINA."

                        June 1, 1993
     Jesus said, "China is a real enemy.
     "From China will come a great war.  Do not trust China. 
Do not trust China.  Do not trust China.  I will say no
more." 
     Nancy saw a white cross appear on the wall.


                "PRAYERS AND SACRIFICES ARE
                  POSTPONING A GREAT WAR."

                        June 9, 1993
     The Blessed Mother said, "I know you are suffering. 
Offer your suffering up for the many lost souls.  Offer your
suffering in reparation for your own sins and for the sins
of the world.  Prayers and sacrifices are postponing a great
war.  Persevere in your prayers and increase your prayers and
sacrifices for peace.  I have come as your loving mother to
encourage you and strengthen you in these times of trial. 
Know we are with you." 


                   "I AM THE PEACEMAKER."

                       June 12, 1993
     Jesus said, "My dear children, I welcome you.  My little
ones, I love you.  Pray much, My little ones.  Pray much for
peace.
     "More conflicts will come.  Men will disagree with men. 
One conflict after another will come because man refuses to
come to Me.  I am the Peacemaker.
     "Behold, I am the Living Son of God.  I am He who
appears before you now.
     "Pray children for peace.  Pray that My children
everywhere will come to Me.  I am the Peacemaker." 


            "I AM THE SOURCE OF ALL YOUR PEACE."

                       July 11, 1993
     Nancy said, "Jesus showed me the world.  I saw darkness
here, darkness there.  It kept flashing." 
     Jesus said, "Conflicts are increasing in the world,
dearest daughter, because My children live apart from Me. 
When will you, My dear children, realize that I am the source
of all your peace.  I am Jesus, Son of the Living God." 
     Nancy said, "Jesus is so bright!" and knelt down.
     Jesus said, "Thank you, my dearest daughter, for this
respect." 

              "ABORTION IS MURDER ... YOU ARE
         BRINGING THIS SUFFERING UPON YOURSELVES." 

                       July 13, 1993
     During the monthly apparition the Blessed Mother said,
"My children are going to suffer more because they have not
returned to God.  There is universal rejection of God all
over the world." 
     Later, Nancy saw a vision of a wave coming from one
direction.  The Blessed Mother said, "Water will wash on to
the land."  Nancy asked if the water will come from the
ocean.
     "You must be cleansed.  Please children, amend your
lives.  Please." 
     Later Nancy again saw blood come down the Blessed
Mother's face.  She then saw a vision of a great amount of
water rushing on to and flooding the land.  The land was flat
and more and more water kept flowing on to the land.  The
water came quickly.
     "Look at the land mass; look at the amount of water. 
Why do you children remain stubborn?  Amend your life." 
Nancy understood that the Blessed Mother was pointing out the
huge quantity of water that covers the surface of the planet
and the relatively small amount of land mass.
     Later the Blessed Mother cried a dark substance again. 
Nancy asked, "Why do you cry blood?" 
     "Because children are being murdered at this very
moment.  Abortion is murder." 
     The Blessed Mother was very sad and Jesus momentarily
appeared.
     "My Son comforts me.  He is with me.
     "Children, you do not know how close you are to a very
great, great suffering.  You are bringing this suffering upon
yourselves.
     "I am the Mother of God and your loving mother and my
Son has sent me to help you." 

                    To be continued        

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