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‘Harvest’

By
Daniel Thomas Andrew Daly

Chapter One

It is always interesting you know when things come together in the
end.  It is always interesting when you see those weaves and strands
of this great tapestry of life come together from a seemingly
haphazard beginning, yet gradually form a picture and, when complete,
show something to be shown off and remembered.  And the tapestry of
life for the Gilmore family, an old farming family of the Monaro
region of New South Wales, wove itself a beautiful pattern for those
seven special months just three years ago when all the harvests of
life for these special members of the Gilmore clan came into fruition.

Jenny Gilmore was the youngest of the Gilmore clan, but her sister
Fiona was expecting and Jenny knew her position as the baby of the
family and the apple of her father, Stewart’s eye, was in jeopardy.
But oh well, such was life.  Stewart, while he was never really known
as a family man, so worried about the constant drought and need of
rain for the fields, still took somewhat of an interest in his eldest
daughter’s first pregnancy, despite Fiona’s stubborn refusal to reveal
the father of the child, much to the annoyance of her grandmother.
But Stewart was a practical man, necessary for farming in Australia,
and had such morals that if his daughter wanted to go it alone with
the child then he would stand behind her.  Funnily enough he wanted a
grandson.  Someone to leave the farm to as he himself had no sons and
worked the farm alone apart from his two daughter’s help and his
elderly mother who made the meals, gathered the eggs and occasionally
helped with the milking.

Jenny and Fiona could share with you many a tale of their fathers
laments over the lack of rain for their farmstead.  They lived on a
property outside of Dalgety in the Snowy Mountains area of the Monaro
region, where it was extra cold in winter and snowed often, but still
quite warm in Summer.  Yet rain, which was a constant worry for Aussie
farmers, was the blood of life for their farm as without it they had
to rely on their yearly ration of water from the Snowy River which,
these days, was often just a trickle.  Fiona often shared with Jenny
that she felt their father exceeded his ration from time to time,
something many farmers in the region likely did, but despite
maintaining this she had no real proof.  Jenny liked to think her
father would do the right thing by the council and uphold their
family’s good reputation, but she was a realist as well.  She knew her
father was human – only human – and susceptible to the same
temptations common to man.

The Gilmore’s property ran sheep and cattle, but they grew corn and
lucerne also, as well as a small vineyard.  Stewart would often say
that with one good harvest they could pay off their debts and live a
far better quality of life.  ‘Even buy a few more fields, a new
tractor, and fix the fences,’ he would often say, speculating on how
he would spend his windfall if it ever occurred.  Jenny wanted a car,
now that she was nearly sixteen, but Fiona called all such
speculations fantasy.  ‘Live in the real world,’ she would often say
to the dreams of her father.  Stewart liked that in his daughter.  So
like her mother – practical, realistic and down-to-earth.  It was a
perfect attitude for the struggle of the farming life.  The one
Gilmore, though, who had not a care in the world it seemed if the farm
prospered or not, the elderly Janet Gilmore, Stewart’s mother, was not
so taken with how well they reaped the fields, but how well she was
reaping souls in her life-long commitment to the great commission of
Christ.  She was a dedicated Jehovah’s Witness, the unspoken official
religion of the family, taken seriously mainly by Janet herself.  Yet
Janet was indeed one dedicated witness, determined to reap souls for
the Kingdom.  Despite her elderly age of 82 she still went out on the
doorknocking evangelistic crusades the Watchtower regularly undertook
through the Monaro region and she thought privately to herself that
she must have handed out, now, over 10,000 copies of the Awake and
Watchtower magazines.  Yet she had not harvested greatly – never had
done.  Still she kept the faith and believed her God would one day
reward his servant for her lifelong commitment.

Jenny Gilmore was not overly religious like her grandmother,
reflecting more of her father’s attitude of live and let live.  And,
perhaps, such an attitude was necessary for the life of Jenny
Gilmore.  She was not a popular girl at school or in the district – in
fact she was markedly unpopular.  She had worn thick glasses since a
young age and always looked quite square.  And of course she’d had
horrible acne since about 13.  These, coupled together, did not help
her in the boys department and as she was also something of a tomboy
being raised to work on the farm and with the less then feminine looks
of her youth still persisting Jenny Gilmore was not exactly the
happiest of rural teenagers.  But everyday, looking in the mirror, she
told herself that the acne ‘seemed’ to be getting less and less all
the time and that as she was developing in her looks she ‘seemed’ to
be growing more feminine.  And of course, something her father had
often promised her, but always backed out on due to lack of funds, she
could always have the eye laser surgery that had been recommended to
her which would supposedly cure all her seeing problems.  Yes, Jenny
Gilmore had problems, but there were solutions coming down the road a
little she constantly reminded herself – she just had to be patient.



‘How about Jenny?  That’s a good name.’

‘Get serious,’ replied Fiona Gilmore to her sister’s suggestion of her
own name for that of the child in Fiona’s womb.  ‘Jenny is the last
name on earth I would choose.’

‘Gee, thanks,’ replied Jenny, less than pleased.  But Fiona had a grin
on her face.

‘Only kidding sis.  I love your name.  You know that.  But we can’t
have two Jenny’s in the family.  Could you imagine the confusion at
dinner time?’

Jenny laughed, imagining to herself such a situation.  She placed her
hand on the belly of her sister who pulled up her t-shirt to let Jenny
see if she could feel the baby kick.

‘Seven months to go, Jen.  Seven months and then a special Gilmore
child is born.’

‘Gilmore?’ queried Jenny.

‘Well, you know.  I am hardly going to name the child after its
father.’

‘And why not?’ asked Jenny, another member of the Gilmore clan keen to
know who the father was.

‘Because this child of mine is a Gilmore through and through.  I just
know it.  Besides, I don’t think the father will really care that much
in the end.  I don’t think he really loved me, like the way he said he
did.  He just wanted sex.  That’s all they really want you know
Jenny,’ she said turning to her sister.  ‘That’s all boys really want
in the end.  They want to screw you and then they want to screw you –
leave you up the duff.’

‘They’re that bad are they?’ asked Jenny, still somewhat naïve of the
opposite sex she dreamed about.

Fiona moved Jenny’s hand to were she imagined the baby was kicking.

‘There.  There! Can you feel it?’

Jenny nodded, but persisted with her question.  ‘And boy’s are really
that bad are they?’

Fiona confessed then.  ‘Well, no.  Not really.  No sis, boys are what
they are.  Boys will be boys, as they say.  We need them, we love
them, but boy how we hate them as well.  But we can’t live without
them in the end.  Funny that, how I lucked out.  But who knows what
the future holds?  Who knows?’

‘The future holds good things,’ said the elderly Janet Gilmore, coming
into the kitchen of the Gilmore homestead, having just risen from a
sleep-in, now at 5 past 11 in the morning.

‘Yes, but you would say that Nan.  You’re supposed to, aren’t you?
Like a good Christian.’

‘Watch your mouth Jenny Gilmore.  Remember, the eyes of the Lord are
everywhere to know who has done good and bad and who has spoken
against him.’

Jenny nodded, used to such a rebuke.  ‘I’ll be careful,’ she promised
her grandmother.

‘You’ve had a good sleep-in, gran,’ said Fiona to her grandmother.
Janet Gilmore carefully lowered herself onto one of the ancient wooden
seats at the kitchen table and picked up the newspaper.  Reading
through it she turned to Fiona to reply.  ‘Sleeping in is the
prerogative of the elderly, dear grandchild of mine.  Remember Solomon
did say a foolish son sleeps through the harvest.’

‘Your point?’ queried Fiona, puzzled.

‘Well he said nothing about Grandmothers,’ replied the elderly
Gilmore.

Both Fiona and Jenny smiled at their grandmother’s wit.  Janet
continued to read through the newspaper as Jenny again felt Fiona’s
stomach trying to feel the baby kick.  Janet stopped reading the paper
momentarily to watch her grand-daughters.  She doubted, at just under
two months, Jenny would feel the child kick, but the teens perhaps
liked to think so.  She’d had three children of her own, one boy and
two girls, and she had fond memories of others feeling her belly in
likewise a manner.  One of the mysteries of life, she thought to
herself.



‘So what do the Gilmore children have planned for such a fine day as
this?’  Fiona picked up on the question.  ‘Children?  You haven’t
called us children in years?’

‘Oh, you will always be children.  Always the daughters of somebody,
God to not say the least.  You will always be my babies, and I love
you so.’  Jenny got up and hugged her grandmother affectionately,
saying, ‘And we love you to gran.’  Fiona nodded as well saying,
‘Always, gran.’

‘That is very good to hear, young Gilmore’s.  Now what are the day’s
plans?  Or has that son of mine got you busy with farm-work this
Saturday morning?  He really should let you have more of your
Saturday’s to yourself.  You are still young and need to enjoy your
youth.  God knows the farming life will always be there for you, but
it can wait.  Something Stewart never nearly enough brings to mind.
Far to worried about this farm he is.  He should just trust in the
Lord and let things run themselves.’

Fiona picked up on that comment.  ‘But the farmwork still needs to be
done, Gran.  The cows won’t milk themselves after all.’

‘Won’t they!’ exclaimed Jan Gilmore in a bout of spiritual zeal,
almost prepared to say they would.  But she softened.  ‘No, I suppose
you are right Fiona.  They won’t milk themselves.  Which reminds me,
do we have any eggs in the fridge?  I haven’t been out for them for
days now.’  Fiona got up and checked the fridge and produced two eggs
which she showed to her grandmother.

‘Well that does it.  I am going senile.  Forgetting to gather the
eggs.’

‘Don’t say that gran.  You are just getting older.  Not old, mind
you.  Just older.’

‘Oh you flatter me Jenny.  But I know I am getting over the hill.
Still I will go get those eggs now so I can at least have a decent fry
up for breakfast.’

‘I’ll help you,’ said Jenny, getting to her feet, but her grandmother
would have none of it.

‘No Jenny.  I am still perfectly capable of gathering eggs despite my
age.  You go off now and have some fun today.  I will tell Stewart to
leave you alone for the day.  You are young and need to be happy.
Look,’ she said, reaching into her purse, bringing forth a fifty
dollar note.  ‘Here, take this and ride into Dalgety.  Spend the day
with your friends in town and do what teenagers do.’  Jenny was about
to say no but thought better of it, happily accepting the fifty dollar
note.

‘Not that I have that many friends in Dalgety, gran.’

‘What was that?’ asked Janet Gilmore who had already turned to pick up
the egg basket and go and gather eggs.

‘Oh, never mind,’ replied Jenny.  Her grandmother nodded and went off
to gather the eggs.

Jenny looked at the fifty dollar note in her hand.  ‘Wow,’ she said to
herself, mildly sarcastically.  ‘Fifty bucks.’

‘Now don’t go spending that all at once,’ said Fiona with a smile on
her face.  ‘Nan is not always that generous.’

‘I won’t,’ replied Jenny.  ‘In fact I doubt I will spend it at all.  I
don’t want to ride into Dalgety.  Nobody likes me there.  Nobody ever
has.’

Fiona nodded, empathising with her sister.  While Fiona herself had
been a popular enough girl from a young age she had known Jenny had
lucked out in that department.  But things could change and Fiona knew
boys.  And noticing the way in recent months that Jenny, although she
would never say it to her, but noticing the way the acne was receding
and her looks gradually turning more and more feminine and appealing –
well her sister may very soon start attracting the attention of the
boys she so eagerly sought.

‘Look, sis.  Try your luck.  Ride in, go to the café and order a
hamburger.  And if any boys are around try talking to them.  You never
know your luck, ok.  Trust me.’

Jenny looked at her, years of frustration peering through her eyes.
But she was still an optimistic enough youth and eventually nodded to
her sister’s request.  ‘But don’t blame me when I say ‘I told you so,’
she retorted to Fiona.

‘I won’t.  Now go on, get going.  I can handle the farming duties
today – there is not much on today and pretty light work.  And the
doctors say these days they like a healthy mother when it is time to
give birth.  Now go on, get.’  Fiona shooed her sister, who left the
room and went to her bedroom.  Looking in her cupboard she pulled out
her red skirt and black t-shirt with the big red Loveheart in the
centre of it she had bought in Cooma earlier that year.  If she was
ever going to attract the attention of a boy she had to look her most
appealing.  Looking in the mirror bemoaning her glasses she
reluctantly said, ‘well here goes,’ and left the room, making for her
bicycle and the 7 Kilometre trip to Dalgety.



*   *   *   *   *



It was a sunny day in late summer, but not that hot with sufficient
cloud coverage to keep a cooler temperature.  Jenny had walked the
distance from home to Dalgety many times in her younger years, mostly
with her sister, but now she rode on her mountain bike.  It was not
too hilly a ride and after about an hour she was nearing Dalgety.
Approaching the long steel bridge which ran across the Snowy River
which ran through Dalgety Jenny brought her bike to a stop on the side
of the bridge and peered down to the water.  She had swum in that
river a number of times, especially on her own property were the river
passed through, and knew it well.  When she was very young, around 7,
she had played occasionally here in town with a small group of friends
of boys and girls, but that had only lasted a couple of years.  They
had grown apart and now seemed to have disowned her.  It was late
summer at the moment and weather in the snowy mountains region of the
Monaro at this time of year was usually warm enough, if not hot, but
today was quite pleasant.  Peering down into the water she picked up a
loose rock from the road and threw it down, watching it make a
circular wave pattern.  Later on she might go down to the river and
fling some smooth rocks across the surface to watch them bounce a few
times on the water.  It had always fascinated her in her younger
years, seeing how many times she could make the rock bounce before
plummeting below the surface.  She once swore she had made it bounce
ten times with a huge fling once, but in later years perhaps felt she
might have been exaggerating somewhat.

She continued past the bridge and came to the oval were a game of
cricket was in progress.  The men were in traditional white playing in
the local Monaro district competition.  Her father Stewart had played
cricket in younger years but given it up with the demands of farming.
But he’d told her tales of the century he once scored playing for
Dalgety and also boasted he was not that bad a leg-spinner in his
day.  Jenny had no real interest in the game, not even the big matches
on television, and she swore that test cricket bored her to death.
Seriously, five days to determine the winner of a silly game like
cricket, and half the time it was either washed out or ended in a
draw.  No, such foolery was not for the attention of Jenny Gilmore.
Yet, despite that attitude, she parked her bike at the side of the
oval and sitting under the trees watched the game in progress.

There was a small crowd gathered watching the match, likely just
family and friends which was the usual turnout for the smaller Monaro
competition, unlike some of the crowds the big city matches
occasionally got her father told her.  She sat watching for a couple
of hours as the first batting side completed its innings with some big
hitting in the last few overs.  It was one of the pub sides from Cooma
and they had amassed 236 in their allotted overs.  A good score which
would be hard to beat for Dalgety Jenny thought to herself.  She
continued watching for a little while and was about to leave when one
of the Dalgety players came over to say hello.  A lad of about 17 who
looked strangely familiar to Jenny.

‘Jenny.  Jenny Gilmore.  How the hell are you?’

Jenny smiled, but was not sure what to say.  Eventually she stumbled
out a reply.  ‘Uh, yeh.  Uh, hi.  Umm, do I know you?’

The blonde lad smiled, shaking his head somewhat.  ‘You don’t
remember, huh?  Surely it hasn’t been that long.  But I suppose it
is.  I’m Craig.  Craig Coleman.  We used to play under the bridge over
there when we were younger.  You even let me kiss you once.’  Jenny
blushed, somewhat embarrassed, but was starting to remember.

‘Craig?  Yes, I think I do remember you.  But didn’t your family move
out of town?’

‘Oh, we still kept the property.  My uncle and his wife and two kids
stayed behind.  But we returned earlier this year.  The city life
wasn’t really working out for us and dad reckons the farming life is
probably in his blood in the end.  No point in being a fish out of
water after all.’

‘I guess not.’

Craig came and sat down next to her, turning to look at her more
closely.  ‘So how have you been Jen?  It’s been a while.’

‘Oh, you know.  The same I guess.  A little older.  Maybe a little
wiser, as gran would say.’

Craig chuckled at that.  Looking at him Jenny could not help but
notice that he had grown into a strong and attractive looking young
man.  He had broadish shoulders, strong looking arms and fine legs.
He had really developed well.

‘So tell me,’ began Jenny.  ‘Will Dalgety win the match?’

Craig grinned.  ‘It could be close, but I think we might do them,
just.  I am opening by the way.  I played for a club in Canberra and
did well.  The city competition is a lot harder so maybe the big match
practice might put me in good stead.  We’ll see, anyway.  Well, are
you going to stay and watch me bat?  Or do you have to get going
soon?’

‘Oh, I will watch you bat.  I rode in,’ she said indicating the bike
near the tree.  ‘I don’t really have to be back until sundown.  So I
will watch your whole innings.’

He smiled, a smile which brightened Jenny’s lonely heart.  ‘Thanks
Jenny.  Well, the team is having a talk and I can’t miss it.  But I
will come and say hi again once the match is over.’

‘Sure,’ replied Jenny, watching him get up and walk back over to his
mates.

‘We bat in about 20 minutes,’ he yelled to her as he walked off.

Sitting there she was a little thirsty.  The café was only a short
walk away and she had time to get a drink and a burger.  She got to
her bicycle and rode to the café and ordered a cheeseburger with
chips.  She sat on the café porch, looking down towards the oval,
eating her chips and drinking cola.  It had turned out to be a good
day so far after all.  Who knows what would happen with the rest of
it.



*   *   *   *   *



‘Six!’ yelled the small crowd and as if in response the umpire but up
both arms signalling the score.  The situation was exciting for young
Jenny Gilmore – very exciting.  Craig was on 93, the team on 211, with
4 over to go and 26 runs needed for victory.  It couldn’t be any
closer.  The next over was the final over of the spinner and he bowled
very tightly only conceding 4 runs.  But Craig hit a 6 off the last
ball of the next over and with the other batsman having scored 5 runs
off the over himself the team only needed 11 runs off two overs with
Craig on 99.  They were 9 down and close to victory, but one wicket
would give the victory to the pub team from Cooma.  The over stared
with the best bowler from the Cooma team brought back into the attack
and Dalgety were getting excited.  But to no avail, the second ball of
the over the number 11 blocked but the ball deflected off the bat
skywards and was caught by silly-mid-on.  The game was over – the
Cooma team had won.

Jenny got to her feet and clapped as Craig came off the field.
Despite losing the match Craig was really still a hero and had come as
close as you possibly can to scoring a century without actually doing
so.  The crowd was clapping and shortly the man of the match was named
as Craig Coleman.  Jenny sat watching the hoo-hah for a while,
deciding it might be time to leave.  But as she was walking her bike
back to the road Craig ran over.

‘Hey, are you going already?  We’re going to the pub for a drink.  I
am just under age so will have to sit out the front and drink soft
drink, but you can do that with me if you like.  What do you say?’

Jenny hesitated.  Despite telling herself a number of times that
afternoon watching that match that Craig, perhaps, had just been
polite introducing himself to her it seemed that Mr Coleman, perhaps,
had other things on his mind.  And that seemed to include getting to
know Miss Jenny Gilmore a little better.  She was flattered.  This was
what she wanted – what she really wanted – but now that she might have
it, she almost instinctively wanted to say no.  She was nervous and
butterflies were in her stomach.  Perhaps she was simply not ready for
this.  Perhaps all the awkward things which had happened to her were
simply nature’s way of saying the time was not right.  But looking at
him, looking at the pleading look on his face, she knew she could not
say no.

‘Sure.  I’ll come along.’

‘Great,’ he replied.



        As they sat in front of the pub were the other underage
players were gathered Jenny was somewhat nervous.  Craig spoke to her
occasionally, but was mostly talking to his other team-mates about the
match.  But he was a boy after all, and that is what they liked to
talk about.  As the afternoon waned and the players gradually
disappeared she found herself alone with Craig who was drinking a cola
and looking at the fading sun.  An idea came to him and he spoke up.

‘Why don’t we go down to the river, you know, like old times.  Just to
have a look around.’

She nodded.  Walking down to the river pushing her bicycle, Craig
walking alongside, Jenny Gilmore was suddenly quite happy.  It was
nice.  Nice to have a boyfriend, well, sort of boyfriend.  Of course,
nothing official had actually happened yet, but he seemed to like her
and relationships had to start somewere after all.

        They came down to the river and, as she had thought of earlier
that day, picked up flat pebbles and started flinging them across the
surface of the river, seeing how many times she could make them
bounce.  Craig soon copied her and she noticed instantly how much more
adept he was at this thing.  But he was a boy in his prime – not
really that surprising.

        As the sun began to wane Jenny realized the time was getting
late and she should really get going.  Her family likely knew were she
was and would come looking if it got too late, but it would be best
not to make them worry.  She signalled to Craig and said she really
needed to leave soon.  He smiled and put out his hand.  She took it
and shook it while he said, ‘It has really been good catching up again
Jenny.  Somehow I feel like a missing part of my childhood has
returned to me.  Hopefully we will see more of each other.’

Jenny nodded, responding, ‘Yeh.  Yeh, I’d like that.’  She waved then
and started pushing her bike back up to the bridge, Craig falling in
behind her.  As she sat on her bike she turned to look at him and he
waved, turned and made his way back towards the oval were his car was
parked.  As she began riding along Jenny thought to herself that
maybe, just maybe, things were finally changing for the better in the
life of young Jenny Gilmore.  It least it was a start.  Things could
only get better from here.

        Riding along the sun finally set and the sky darkened a
little.  It would be bright for some time yet, this time of the year,
but she would arrive home in late twilight.  But try as she might she
could not bring herself to have any concerns over her late arrival
home that day.  Her father might be a little worried but she would
talk to her sister that night and share her news.  And despite the
lecture she felt coming from her father for disappearing without
letting him know and doing any work, for the meeting of Craig Coleman
she felt it was just about worth it.  In fact she was sure of it.



*   *   *   *   *



‘Good grief, Jenny.  You were late because of a boy?’  Jenny’s father,
Stewart Gilmore, stood there shaking his head, wondering were his
youngest worker had been all day.  Fiona had not commented and Janet
had remained silent just about, simply saying the girl must be doing
what young girls do at her age.  And seemingly that had been the case.

‘Well, he was a guy I had known as a kid, ok.  Craig Coleman.  His
family has moved back to the region and he was batting all afternoon,
so I couldn’t exactly leave.  He nearly made a hundred after all.’

‘The Coleman’s, huh,’ said Stewart, taking off his akubra hat and
wiping off the sweat of a hard day’s work.  ‘So John Coleman is back
in the region.  Doesn’t surprise me, though.  He was never a city
boy.  Too much country in him.’

‘That’s what Craig said.’

Stewart Gilmore looked down at his young daughter and thought better
of rebuking her anymore.  She was young after all and, in the end, he
wanted both daughters married rather than being spinsters.

‘Look, its ok Jen.  I could have used you today, that’s all.  There
were a few things I needed your help with.  But your young and you
need to find yourself.  I can’t ask everything of you, with your
schoolwork and all.  But I will need you tomorrow so don’t go off
skedaddling, alright.  I want you up bright and early.’

‘Sure daddy.  And sorry about today.  I know I should have told you I
was going but gran told me to get going.  And you know how she is.’

‘Don’t I ever.  I’ll have to have words with her.’  Stewart looked
down at his daughter silently pleased that she seemed to finally being
attracting the attention of boys.

‘Now if you want this Craig fellow to like you, show yourself a lady.
And don’t you go getting in any trouble like your older sister.  You
see how she ended up, and without a man I must say.  Besides, I don’t
think your grandmother would approve of any fancy business.’

‘Nor you daddy?’ asked Jenny, gently inquiring.

‘Well, no, I guess.  I mean you know how I am with mum’s religion.  It
never has really been for me.  Heck, I guess I believe in God, but you
can take things too far.  And I think your grandmother suffers from
that.  Thinks she’s bloody Christ himself the way I see it.  Trying to
save every Tom, Dick and Harry.’

‘It’s just her religion, dad.  It’s important to her.  Gives her
something to occupy herself with.  Besides, I don’t think people mind
in the end, really.’

‘I don’t know.  There’s lots of bloody arguments about religion.  Same
as politics.  And especially were the Jehovah’s Witnesses are
concerned.  Worst of the lot, some people say.  Same as those
Mormons.’

‘Good grief.  Nan is far from being a Mormon.  She would faint if you
said so.’

‘Ah, they’re all the same in the end, those fundamentalists.  Same as
the Baptists and those Pentecostals.  You know religion isn’t really
for me, but I have studied the denominations somewhat from time to
time, and I listen to what people say.  It seems to me there are
normal churches and then there are the ones which try and tell
everyone what to do.  As if they are the special chosen ones.’

Jenny was curious about that point.  ‘And what is a normal church?’

‘Probably your mothers, the Anglicans.  I attended a few times back in
the day with her.  And you and Fiona were both baptized in that church
as I recall it.’

Jenny looked startled.  ‘We were baptized?  But Nan has been hassling
us to do that for years.  She never said anything like this.’

‘Oh, don’t worry about that.  Every church wants to baptize you in
their own church.  And a lot of them don’t mind fishing for members
from other churches.  I think there is a strong competition with Jesus
for which church can win the most souls.’

Jenny smirked at that and Stewart had a big grin on his face.

‘Anyway, enough with the religious discussion.  I am glad you have
found yourself a man, but I need you bright and early tomorrow
morning, ok hon.  Bright and early.’

Jenny nodded as her father left the kitchen, off to his room.



        Jenny looked into the pot which was simmering on the stove
top.  It seemed to be a stew of some kind and looking in the oven
there were potatoes and pumpkin baking.  It would be a good dinner.
She left for her room and decided to get changed into her pyjamas.
Sitting at the dresser, looking into the mirror, Jenny Gilmore was
pleased with herself.  As if today she had accomplished the first part
of a long held goal to improve her life.  Of course, in reality, she’d
had to do little of the work herself, mainly just go with the flow.
Craig had introduced himself to her and done all the asking.  She’d
simply gone along with the ride.  Perhaps, thinking to herself, that
was how it was supposed to be for the fairer sex as they were called.
Perhaps men were supposed to do all the asking, like Nan occasionally
said, and women were meant to choose which one appealed to them the
most.  But Jenny Gilmore could not say that she was anything if
fussy.  She had been almost prepared to take any interest in any boy
whatsoever who came along.  Ok, perhaps not any boy – there were
reasonable exceptions.  But she had been in such a state of her lack
of friendships that practically anyone could have become her friend.
But now, with that new friend, perhaps, being the quite handsome Craig
Coleman, it seemed as if God had answered her silent prayer in a way
most pleasing.  In fact, thinking on Craig, most pleasing indeed.



        A knock came to her door and Jenny said ‘Come in.’  Her sister
Fiona came inside, sat on the bed, and looked straight at her.

‘A boy.  Is dad really telling me the truth?  A boy talked to you
today?’  What was his name?  Dad didn’t say.’

Jenny smiled.  Of all the things in the world to talk with her sister
about it seemed, finally, she had something womanly to chat about.
And about time too.

‘It was Craig.  Craig Coleman.  A kid I knew growing up.’

‘Oh,’ said Fiona, instantly making the connection.  ‘I know Craig
pretty well.  I think I knew him more than you did after he stopped
hanging around you.  They were just trying to be cool in those days,
sis, and you were never seen as being cool.  But really, don’t let it
worry you.  Times change.  They always do.  But Craig, he was a good
kid.  Always polite and caring.  He hung around some rough nuts from
time to time, but he was always worth getting to know.’  She paused,
thinking over younger years.  ‘So the Coleman’s are back in town?
Well that is good to know.  They were always a strong part of our
community.  They really never should have left.’

‘Craig sort of said the same thing,’ responded Jenny.

‘Well, did he ask you out?  Or was he just being friendly.  A girl has
to know these things.’

‘Uh, no.  He didn’t ask me out exactly.  But he said it would be nice
if we caught up again sometime.  So I think that means he is
interested.’

‘Not necessarily.  He might just be being friendly.  Perhaps you are
just a person from his childhood which he wants to remember fondly.
Perhaps that is all it is.  But if he does like you the next time you
see him, well you will know.’

‘How exactly?’

‘You just will.  Take it from me, guys are obvious.’

‘Ok.’

Fiona stared absentmindedly, seemingly thinking over her sister’s good
fortune, before coming back to herself.

‘Well, you get some good sleep after dinner, ok.  Dad wants you up
bright and early.  I thought you might get into trouble with what gran
suggested, but you are young.’

‘You sound like dad.’

‘Very funny.  Come on, lets go eat.  Nan is about to serve up.’

The two of them got to their feet and made their way to the kitchen of
the Gilmore homestead.  Janet had just started dishing out the meals
and motioned for the girls to be seated.  Shortly Stewart joined them
and when the meals had been served, Grandmother motioned for silence
and asked her offspring to close their eyes.

‘Dear lord,’ she began praying.  ‘We thank you for this wonderful
day.  You are so good to us to provide for all our need and we thank
you for this food from your creation and ask you to bless it to our
bodies.  In Jesus name we pray.  Amen.’  The Gilmore’s opened their
eyes and began their meal.



        Finishing off desert Jenny put her bowl on the sink.  While
she occasionally washed up the dishes, Janet seemed happy enough to
have that as one of her chores for the household.  Going into the
living room she turned on the television and sat down watching the
last half hour of 60 minutes.  But she was not really concentrating on
the program and as her father came into the room and sat down near
her, lighting up a cigarette and staring at the box, Jenny’s mind was
alive with thoughts of Craig Coleman.  The family had given her a good
impression of the Coleman family.  They seemed like real salt of the
earth people, people who she could trust.  So if anything were to ever
eventuate between herself and Craig, which she now hoped did occur, it
would perhaps be good for all concerned.  Providing the Coleman family
liked her, that is.



        Later that night, as she drifted off to sleep, Jenny Gilmore
was quite pleased.  It had been a tough few years since her mother’s
passing, and the Gilmore’s had knit together because of it.  But
Laura’s passing was now something which the mourning of sorrow had
turned into the strength of going on.  They were stronger as people,
now.  More capable of handling the difficulties in life.  And while
she missed her mother greatly and could think of nothing more she
would like to do than share her stories of Craig Coleman, she thanked
God that she at least still had her sister and her grandmother, and
even her father, despite his malehood.  It had been a good day for
Jenny Gilmore and as she finally found sleep and dreams invaded her
head she was happy.  It seemed, now, things were finally turning
around for the youngest of the Gilmore clan.  It seemed, now, things
were getting better.  Getting better indeed.







Chapter Two



Stewart Gilmore, 49, husband to the late Laura Gilmore, mother of his
two daughters, whom he had loved dearly, was a farmer through and
through.  And an Aussie through and through.  His family, so the
family chronicle told, went all the way back to convicts from the
first fleet.  And they were amongst the first settlers in the Monaro
region, coming to their current homestead in the 19th century, as
belied the age of the home.  Oh, it had been modified and rebuilt
somewhat over the years, but you still saw the age in the place.  And
in some ways you also saw the age in Stewart Gilmore, so anxious and
worried for rain he had become in recent years.

Stewart knew he had no son, which he constantly told himself should
not bother him as he was the proud father of two beautiful daughters.
Yet there was something about having a son, something part of humanity
since ancient days, which spoke of leaving a legacy and having someone
walk on further in your shoes to live the family dreams.  Yes he
wanted a son and, silently, prayed that Fiona’s child would be a baby
boy who he could teach the ways of farming and have carry on the
Gilmore name.

Stewart was not a religious man like his mother who was a very
dedicated Jehovah’s Witness.  He’d had a number of arguments with his
mother over the years, especially in his turbulent teens in which he
had abandoned religion totally.  His father had been non-religious in
most ways and Stewart had seemingly followed that trait.  But Janet
Smith had captured the late Fred Gilmore’s heart, despite being part
of that newer Christian denomination full of zeal, the Jehovah’s
Witnesses of the Philadelphia Watchtower and Tract Society.  And
having made it her lifelong desire to convert her husband and then her
son to the society Janet had lectured him on religious morality since
a young age.  But he’d never been baptized having decided against it
when he seemingly had the choice made to him in his teenage years.
Stewart was questioning – still questioning – and had no firm beliefs
to speak of in relation to the big questions.  He knew he was an
agnostic in reality, despite thinking that God probably was there.
But despite thinking the creator of all likely did exist he could
simply not make the leap of faith to absolutely affirm such a truth.
There was still too much doubt in the heart of Stewart Gilmore.

Stewart was proud of his daughters, Fiona and Jenny, but kept his
praises mainly to himself.  If anything, the miracle of life his
daughters represented were the main reason he did suggest God likely
existed.  Seeing his own face mirrored in some way in the faces of his
children just spoke to his heart of the miracle of life and gave him
quiet, heart-warming solace.  And that miracle, from time to time, he
saw expressed in the farming life.  When a new calf was born, or
ducklings which were on their farm started attaching to their mother
and running after her, or even when they occasionally had a good
harvest, Stewart was reminded why the life of a farmer, which was in
his blood, was the life he had never left.  Part of nature – part of
the natural cycle – producing food for the rest of society – was an
idea central to much of the philosophy on life of Stewart Gilmore.

Now, three and a half years on since the passing of Laura, Stewart had
healed.  And healed so much that, despite pretending he would never
speak to his daughters about it, he had been having a romantic
friendship with a widow who lived in town.  They had met at the pub,
but he had known her a little over the years, occasionally saying
hello.  But when Laura had passed, after a few months he felt the need
for intimacy again, and this stranger who he knew had been widowed a
while suddenly seemed quite appealing.  He had first talked to her in
the pub just after a year since Laura’s passing.  He had wanted to
ensure he waited the year as a sign of respect to his late wife, but
when his mourning was complete the lady in question seemed quite
willing to embark upon a new relationship with him and they had been
meeting at her house for over two years now and slept together often.
It was funny, that.  His mother might possibly say they were
fornicating which Stewart knew was supposed to be a sin.  But he had
read the scriptures from time to time and gotten the impression that,
for widows and widowers, later on in life, having proven faithful,
that God probably didn’t mind that much.  Which in a strange way was
important to him.  Oh, he had not really confessed any great faith,
but he still exercised a degree of caution, and did not really want to
offend the Almighty should he be up there in heaven keeping score.

Stewart, generally, was happy enough with his lot in life.  Things
could be better, especially if they got more rain, but the farm
managed to get by and the bills were usually, if often late, paid.  He
had two daughters who he loved and watching them grow each day and
face similar trials of youth he had grown through gave him joy at the
wisdom life brought simply with experience.  He was very happy that
Fiona was expecting, and the son he expected would make a welcome
addition to the family.  And now, of all things most surprising, young
Jenny might finally be showing signs of getting herself a man.  Which
reminded him strongly of his promise to her.  Yes, he had long
promised the surgery for her eyes, which would definitely improve her
appearance, and felt he soon could make good on that promise.  He had
been putting a little aside for a few months now and while the surgery
was not exorbitantly expensive, it had usually been just out of
reach.  But soon, very soon, he would make good on his promise and
give his daughter the sight she so richly deserved.

Yes, all things considered, Stewart was happy with his life.  It was
nothing remarkable, perhaps unlike a prime minister, or a great
author, or noble laureate.  But it was a life which pleased him and,
all things considered, he wouldn’t change it for the world.



‘Come on little piggy.  Come on.  Come get your food.’  The little pig
grunted and came out of his little hut as the scraps were tossed into
the sty.  They’d had pigs a number of times, always ending up
slaughtering them for the delicious pork, ham and bacon such pigs
delivered.  Stewart had never really committed to the idea of breeding
pigs though, used to his other main sources of income, but they
purchased piglets from time to time at the markets to fatten up and
slaughter for food.  He admitted to himself that he loved the taste of
bacon and over the years through particular feeding habits he had
practiced he was sure that he was getting a better quality of bacon.
But his mother said it all tasted the same to her.  It was Sunday
morning, around 9, and Jenny was out on the motorbike moving the sheep
to another field, while Fiona was tinkering with the tractor which
needed fixing.  Fiona was a mechanically minded child, very fortunate
for a girl considering he didn’t have a son, but perhaps it was simply
the way he had raised both girls to be men to look after the farm.  He
had no son so had to make do with what he had.  He thought to himself
these days that if he were to have an accident with the tractor or
some other misfortune befell him the girls, now, would likely be able
to manage the farm.  They knew the shearers they had to get in during
shearing season and would likely manage that okay, an integral part of
their income; and all three Gilmore ladies knew how the milking
machines worked.  Harvesting the corn and lucerne was a little
trickier, but Fiona was starting to get the hang of it, and Jenny had
no problems with the grapes and making wine for the small wine label
they ran.  ‘Gilmore Monaro Estate’ was not exactly a best selling wine
label, as they did not produce a great quantity of wine, never really
committing the necessary resources to do so.  But it sold well,
usually, and they had outlets throughout the region which happily
enough sold their product.

As the pig went through its meal Stewart thought on his plans for the
evening.  By now he knew his daughters must be thinking something was
up, so many times had he spent the night away from home when he
claimed he was just going to Dalgety pub.  They weren’t stupid - they
were Gilmore’s after all.  But despite the worry that somehow they
would find out, he could not stop seeing Michelle.  She was his
girlfriend, now.  And while he had sworn to himself that the memory of
his daughter’s mother was something sacred for him and his daughters
to share, he likewise had to face reality.  Sooner or later he would
have to tell them about Michelle.  And perhaps sooner, before they
found out for themselves anyway.

Watching the pig finish off its eating returning to its hut, Stewart
looked at the sky, took off his akubra, and wiped his brow.  They
would only work to midday today.  He never really felt comfortable
working any longer on Sunday knowing they both needed the rest and his
mother’s religious concerns for that day.  There was work to do in the
winery, fixing some of the vines to posts which had come off during
last nights strong wind gusts.  And he wanted to take a drive around
the property to do a full stocktake of the fences, something he had
been putting off for some while.  There were a few nagging fence lines
which had been on his mind, and a gate which really needed looking at,
but funds had been scarce recently.  Still they had enough for now,
but what he really hoped and prayed to the God he was not really sure
he believed in was for good rain for the next few months.  Come spring
later on in they year, if they had good rain, harvest could be good
this year.  And with a good harvest and good crops came good money.
And with good money he could attend to things which had been lagging
and perhaps give all the Gilmore’s a special few months to be
remembered.



*   *   *   *   *



Fiona had been tinkering with the tractor all morning.  The Gilmore
family had two tractors, the other one quite old which was generally
past its use by date but, if necessary, could be fixed up to run as
well.  And throughout the morning she occasionally felt they may have
to in fact do just that.  She was not exactly a mechanic but knew
enough by now that she could likely carry the title of Mechanic’s
apprentice without too much trouble.  She had cleaned the spark plugs
that morning, thinking that was the main problem, but then it still
hadn’t worked.  She’d spent a couple of hours looking through the
engine, trying to work out what the problem was, but to no avail.  But
now she thought she was stupid.  And having just checked the key
starting mechanism, she found it loose.  Tightening it up she tried
the key and it cranked over the engine and the engine started.
‘Success,’ she smiled to herself.  Stewart came over to see her and
motioned for her to turn off the tractor so he could speak.

‘What was the problem then sweetie?’

‘Just a loose starter engine for the key switch.  It took me ages to
find the problem, but its all working fine now.’

‘Good.  Well I’ll need her tomorrow, so you can clean her up if you
like and then take the rest of the day off.  I’ll probably be
finishing shortly anyway.’

‘Sure thing dad.’  Fiona got to work checking the oil and fuel and
noting the fuel was low drove the tractor over to the farm’s diesel
pump and filled her up.  Diesel was delivered regularly and they had a
pump which they used for the farm vehicles.

        Filling the pump Fiona thought about the child within her
womb.  She was only 19, which often to her seemed young to have a
baby.  But not really, she reminded herself.  Nature had dictated she
was ready so she would have to accept the consequences for her
infidelity.  Well, not infidelity exactly, but pre-marital
shenanigans.  Fortunately gran had not hassled her too much, generally
showing sympathy and understanding for her situation which relieved
her greatly.  Fiona was like her father somewhat in religious thinking
and morality but had a little more sympathy for the faith of her
grandmother.  She did believe in God, a jump her father had not
committed to, but did not pursue religion with any great zeal.  Fiona,
in general, saw herself as a down-to-earth country girl.  A true blue
Aussie.  She had been reasonably popular in her school years and had
dozens of casual friends and a few close ones.  And in fact it was one
of those closer friends, one of the males, which had gotten her into
her current situation.  He was a Cooma lad, the main town of the area,
apart from Canberra further up north.  She had gone to school with him
at Monaro high in Cooma, he being in the year above her.  And when
they had left school he had gone off to university, only returning
home for holidays.  In fact, it was December the previous year when he
had been back in town that they had caught up and done the deed which
led to her current state.  He had promised he would look after her but
had recently returned to Canberra and his university life.  ‘And the
other women’, Fiona often thought to herself.  But she did love him.
She knew that much.  And if he ultimately did prove faithful to her
and her child, well, if marriage became an option she likely would not
decline.

        Fiona had plans for the future, and she had no plans.  More
like dreams which were less than concrete which was surprising because
she was a very practical girl at heart and noted often.  Oh, she
reminded people to live realistically, and she presumed in the end she
did, but she fantasized about being a country singer from time to time
and seeing the kind of life that could bring.  She also had dreams of
working somewere in Canberra or Sydney in a high-flying career.  But
deep down she was a country girl and realized the farming life her
father had brought her up in would likely be the bread and butter of
the rest of her days.  But that didn’t bother her.  At times it was a
lonely life, stuck out on a farm near Dalgety at the back of
nowheresville.  But while that was not completely true, apart from the
farm itself there was not much to do.  There was a Dalgety dance night
every now and again, which the girls had attended for a number of
years now, but Fiona was less interested in that now, concentrating on
her child.  Yes, it seemed that her baby would occupy much of her life
now and the dreams she had for herself, well, the child could carry on
and live those dreams for her.  But that was life, wasn’t it.  We make
plans and then along come children who take over our dreams and become
the central rock of our lives in our sense, teaching us to be
responsible and dependable citizens.  Fiona knew that.  She knew that
was what being pregnant had done to her so far – taught her to be more
responsible and less flaky.  She realized she had been raised well, to
respect her elders and to have good values and she knew the importance
of passing on such values to her own child.  They were the things
which got you through life and taught you how to relate to the rest of
society.

        A bigger family would be good for the Gilmore’s, now that
their mother Laura had passed.  Oh, they got along well, but it had
seemed for a while as if something was missing, as if with the passing
of Laura there was still an empty place which should not have been at
the kitchen table.  But perhaps the little child in Fiona’s belly
would make a difference to that.  Fiona liked to think so.  Oh, she
could never replace her mother with her child, but it would give
everyone in the family, especially her father Stewart, something to
focus on since Laura’s death.  In every way Fiona felt the child had
come just at the right time.  She had names, Jonathon if it was a boy
and Laura, after her mother, if it was a girl.  And while she felt it
would be wonderful to have a female child named after her mother she
couldn’t help but believe it was a boy to satisfy her father’s
desires.  Either way in around seven months she would find out.

        Jenny was dear to Fiona.  The little sister she had held in
her arms at only 3.  She loved her – loved her dearly.  And she had a
heart for her little sis and the problems of life which had beset
her.  Oh, they were nothing drastic in the end, but being unpopular
was something Fiona had never really had to face, unlike Jenny.  But,
it seemed, in her sweet sixteenth year Jenny Gilmore might finally be
showing signs of blossoming into a fine young lady.  Indeed the acne
was less now and she was looking more and more feminine each week
virtually.  The eyes would hopefully have the surgery they needed soon
– and especially soon if this new boy was interested.  Jenny had never
had a boyfriend, unlike Fiona who’d had a few by Jenny’s age.  But if
Craig Coleman was to be won by Jenny, well she needed every advantage
she could possibly get.

        Stewart, her father, was in many ways now the rock of Fiona’s
life.  Like so many young daughters, their mother was their role model
and the one they looked up to with questions on life and all the
worries they had.  But Fiona had lost her mother at 16 and since that
time it had been her father and to a lesser degree her grandmother she
had grounded upon.  And because her father was so important to her
life she tried to help him with the farmwork as much as she possibly
could, even in her current pregnant state.  Something she admired
about her father was his dependability and faithfulness.  He would not
cut and run on his children – something which seemed totally
impossible to the doting Fiona Gilmore.  No, no matter how tough
things got, and they were often quite tough, Stewart would stand
behind his family like a fair dinkum father, and see them through both
the tough times and the good.  And she loved him because of it.

        Janet Gilmore, her grandmother, was, while Fiona was growing
up, not exactly the kind of grandmother she thought fitted the normal
mode.  Her mother, Laura, had often told her that Gran was a religious
zealot and to not take too seriously the things she said.  Fiona had
been shaped by her mother’s words about her grandmother from a young
age, but recently had come closer, somewhat, to understanding her
grandmother’s perspective on life.  She had been to the Jehovah’s
Witnesses Kingdom Hall meetings a few times in her life and had gained
something of an understanding on were her grandmother was coming
from.  And, in Fiona’s mind, it was something of a persecution
complex.  They were sometimes called cultic by other branches of
Christianity, mainly because they refuted the trinity doctrine.  And
from what Fiona saw this created a backs-to-the-wall mentality amongst
her grandmother’s fellowship, one which viewed itself as being against
the whole world.  And because Fiona had grown to understand that, and
appreciate that her Grandmother had spend 82 years in such a mould, it
was easier to understand were her Nan was coming from and relate to
her because of it.  She really didn’t think other Christians were as
against her grandmothers church as her grandmother herself thought.
In fact, from discussions, most people just thought they were another
church these days.  But, perhaps, the old stigma was alive in her
grandmothers thinking, something which continued to motivate her in
her evangelistic zeal.  But that was her grandmother, and despite
thinking she might like to from time to time, she probably wouldn’t
change her for the world.

        Ultimately, things were generally good enough in the life of
Fiona Gilmore.  She was not really sure if she would change anything
at the moment, so satisfied she was with it all.  Oh, she could always
win the lottery, which she supposed a lot of people dreamed about, but
being realistic things were as they should be.  Life was good and the
new baby would be the icing on the cake when it arrived.



        ‘Fiona, do you have a moment?’  Jenny Gilmore had come from
the homestead out to see her, with some query on her mind.  Fiona was
pumping diesel into the tractor but sensed she’d put enough in.  She
finished off, replaced the pump handle, and put the tractor fuel plug
back on.  She turned to her sister, wiping her hands on her overalls.

‘What’s up sis?’

‘I’m back at school tomorrow.  Dad has decided the cold I had is
definitely over with so it is time to get back to school, even though
I start late this year.’

‘You’re only a couple of weeks late.  You will catch up.’

‘I hope so.  But I am in year 11 now and they sometimes dress a little
casual at Monaro in year 11 and 12.’

‘Don’t I know it,’ replied Fiona.  ‘We are starting to be called
adults by year 11, sis.  The teachers are less worried about what we
wear then.  They assume we are mature enough to know how to dress.’

‘Right,’ said Jenny, gaining a firmer understanding.  ‘Well, you know
Craig?’

‘Yes, I know Craig,’ said Fiona smiling.  ‘What about him?’

‘Well, he is in year 12 this year, just above me.  And, well.  Umm.’

‘Spit it out.’

‘Well, what should I wear at school?  For him to notice me, you know?’

Fiona smiled.  Her sister was such a girl.  Funny that, though – what
else should she expect.

‘Look, it is not so much what you wear, sis.  But how you wear it.’

‘What’s that supposed to mean.’

‘It means your attitude and how you come across is far more
important.  Who you are as a person will last a lot longer than how
you dress, if you take what I mean.’

Jenny nodded.  Her sister sounded wise.

‘Yeh, you’re probably right.  I shouldn’t worry so much, huh?’

‘Just be yourself.  If he is going to like you he is going to like you
for you – for who you are as a person.  And there is no point in
trying to be what you’re not.  You will only betray yourself in the
end.’

Jenny nodded.  Yes her sister was wise.

‘Well, I will just wear what I wore in year 10.  That will have to
do.’

‘Probably for the best.’

‘Thanks sis.’  Jenny put up her hand in a little wave and walked back
to the house.  Watching her go Fiona thought on the things she had
said to her.  They were true words, words which came from her mother
from her early teens.  And she trusted her mother’s wisdom.  If Jenny
was to find a man, she could not be anything but what Jenny Gilmore
was in the end.  To try to be otherwise was a betrayal, and that was
not something the Gilmore’s were into.  Not something at all.



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Janet Gilmore loved Jehovah.  She loved her God with all her soul,
mind and strength.  But sometimes, just sometimes, she wondered if her
God felt the same way.  Yes, she knew what the scripture taught and
what the elders who ministered to her from the pulpit continued to
remind her in relation to the fidelity of God’s love – but sometimes
she questioned wether he really was listening.  Oh, he had always
taken care of her.  She was now 82 years old and had lived a long,
fruitful and rewarding life.  She had seen wars, droughts, childbirth
and any of the other conditions common to society – but one thing,
which made her question the love of God – was wether he really was
paying attention or not to her prayer requests for souls to be given
into the kingdom.  And that was the biggest priority of all for Mrs
Janet Gilmore.

        First and foremost of all the souls she truly desired to come
to know the love of Jehovah was her son, Stewart.  Stewart, in his pre-
teen years, had attended the watchtower services when his father
permitted, but had left this faith entirely in his teenage years.  She
still remembered strongly the arguments she had with Stewart over the
existence of God and why, amongst a world full of religions, that her
particular strand of Christian faith was the truth when so many others
also made that claim.  Certainly, she had answers she could give, and
gave them often, but he was too jaded in the end to really take
seriously the viewpoints of his mother.  As a theologian might say,
God was ineffable to her son Stewart, beyond understanding and even
really knowing for sure.  But she loved him and had prayed for him
just about every day of his life to come to know her heavenly father.

        The other souls she was most interested in were, naturally,
her two grand-daughters, Fiona and Jenny.  Fiona seemed accepting of
her grandmother’s faith, but non-committal.  As if she perhaps already
had a worldview on God and religion which she didn’t intend changing
from.  And Jenny, well the lass was still young and mouldable, but she
seemed destined, to Janet, to follow in the footsteps of her older
sister or father, or a mix of both.

        But there were other souls in the district who Janet Gilmore
had witnessed to many a long year on the virtues of firstly Christian
faith and then the teachings of her own movement in particular.  But,
despite a lifelong commitment to the great commission of Christ, apart
from the occasional visitor to the assembly whom she had given a copy
of ‘Awake’ or the ‘Watchtower’ magazine to, she had never really
reaped any souls for the kingdom.  And this she desired to do
strongly, knowing Christs words on the importance of bearing fruit.

        Yet, despite her situation, and despite the questions she had
towards Jehovah who should indeed be keeping faith with his faithful
servant, Janet had concluded that if she kept the faith, in the end,
the reward would come.  She just had to be patient.



        In other aspects of her life she was generally content with
things on the Gilmore homestead.  She had met Fred Gilmore decades
back, who she found one of the more handsome men in the district.  It
had not taken him long to propose and no sooner were they married than
she was pregnant with her first child, Fiona, Stewart’s sister.  Fiona
lived just a few months before dying of cot death.  It had been a
tragedy for her and Fred to face, but she fell pregnant very quickly
afterwards and the birth of their second and final child, Stewart,
seemed to console the couple somewhat.

        Fred had never really liked her religion.  He had been brought
up a nominal Anglican, but never really attended church.  And so,
having met Janet, the religious divide between them had been a non-
issue.  Life with Fred Gilmore on the farm had been good – very good.
She had been a faithful and loving wife, as her faith taught her to
be, and through the hard times and the good times she had grown to
trust her God, that he would always be there for her, providing for
her in ways beyond her.  And he had always, thankfully, done so.

        And then, a while back now, but seemingly only yesterday, Fred
had passed and she was left with Stewart and Laura and the children
and then only Stewart and the Children.  Funny how life brings loved
ones into your life and then just as easily takes them away she had
thought to herself.  Funny that.  But she had faith for those gone
from her that she would meet them again one day in the world to come
and for now concentrated on where she was in life, loving those the
Lord brought to her.



        Sitting in her upstairs room of the Gilmore homestead Janet
was looking through the recent issue of the ‘Watchtower’ magazine.  It
was nothing out the usual but she still answered the questions ready
for the next service.  She often travelled into Cooma to attend the
Kingdom Hall there, but often just studied at home as well.  While she
still drove she was a little shakier on the road in recent months.  It
could well come down to her needing to ask her son Stewart to take her
to assembly and, while that was not the end of the world, she sensed
there might be some problems.  Just then a knock came to the door and
Janet spoke ‘Come in.’  Young Jenny came into her room, dressed in her
school clothes.  Of course, she would be back at school tomorrow, now
that she was over her summer cold.  ‘Yes Jenny.  What is it?’

‘Well, Gran.  I don’t really know how to say this, but, well.’  She
gathered herself.  ‘I mean, I totally respect what Fiona says and
agree with her, but boys do like you to look good, don’t they?  I mean
they like you to dress well don’t they?’

‘What has Fiona been saying to you?’

‘She says that it doesn’t really matter how I dress.  A boy should
like me for who I am rather than what I look like.’

Janet nodded to herself.  Perhaps her wisdom from life should speak on
this.

‘While I should rebuke myself for saying this, child of mine, but
while a woman needs to show herself gentle and feminine it is often
the sad truth that those who dress in a way which attract a man’s
attention will often get the prize others miss out on.’

‘So I should dress up then?’

‘Don’t look like a harlot, mind you.  But yes.  It is still a very
feminine and natural thing to want to look good for a man.  It is
natures way dear Jenny.’

Jenny nodded.  She had been through a phase that afternoon of
questioning everything she knew on this subject, but still felt boys
wanted a girl who looked good, something her grandmother seemed to
reinforce.

‘Be yourself Jenny, in what you say and do.  But dress well as well.
Look good for him.’

‘Thanks gran,’ said Jenny and hugged her grandmother.  It was exactly
what the teenager wanted to hear.

‘Is that all?’ Janet asked her granddaughter.

‘Yes that’s all.  I’ll go and pick something now.’

Janet nodded as her granddaughter left the room, happy to have offered
some advice.



        As she returned to her magazine her mind drifted to her
younger days.  She had dressed very formally when first dating Fred
Gilmore.  Of course it was different in those days.  Before the 1960s
came along and the sexual revolution began.  Oh, they weren’t naïve in
her day – they knew what was what.  But it seemed to her they had
lived in the shadow of the bygone Victorian era with all its morality
and then, suddenly, the 60s hit and sexual morality had not been the
same since.  In some ways, despite the very conservative inclinations
within the heart of Janet Gilmore, it was a relief.  What had been
kept in the shadows could at least now be discussed in some way and
she really felt people at least deserved to be educated on the subject
before making an informed decision.  She queried to herself from time
to time what God, the great creator of sex in the first place, really
did think on human mating rituals.  Perhaps they were an area of
amusement to him, or was he really the king of sexual morality that
the scriptures seemed to maintain.  It would be something she looked
forward to learning about for certain in the world to come.



        She was tired, and though dinner was due shortly, she felt she
might just have a little nap.  It couldn’t hurt.  As she lay there she
gently drifted off to sleep and dreams of boys from her youth filled
her mind and one particularly handsome Fred Gilmore pledged, in her
dream, that he would be hers forever and ever.



*   *   *   *   *



The breakfast table, early Monday morning, Jenny due back for school
on the bus to leave shortly, was alive with chatter.  Fiona had ironed
Jenny’s clothes twice at Jenny’s request as the girl really did want
to make a good impression on her first day in Year 11.  Fiona felt,
maybe, she was fussing to much but understood as well.  Janet Gilmore
was also at the table having risen early.  Today she was out
doorknocking for her church with another Jehovah’s Witness from the
Dalgety area.  That morning they were eating bacon, eggs, tomatoes and
hash-browns – a traditional Aussie breakfast.

‘And remember,’ said Fiona to her sister whose mouth was full of
bacon.  ‘This is your big year, nearly the biggest of them all.  HSC
is next year so you will want to study hard this year, more than ever,
to get ready for that.  If you really want to go to university getting
good scores on your HSC is absolutely essential.

‘But I heard,’ said Jenny through mouthfuls of bacon, ‘that you can
get into university as a mature age entrant at 21 anyway?  So what
does it matter if I am late a few years?’

‘I think its 20 sis.  But surely you want to get on with your life and
not waste a couple more years at the farm.  You have always been good
at school and we all think you could do well at uni.’

‘But I like the farming life as well, you know.  I didn’t know you
were that eager to get rid of me.’  Fiona came and hugged her sister.

‘We’re not, Jenny.  But you could have a great life.  And a university
degree goes a long way to achieving that.  Don’t take year 11 and 12
lightly.  Believe me.  The harder you study now the easier it will be
later on when it is important.’

Jenny nodded, believing her sister.

Janet Gilmore spoke up.  ‘In my day it was still not quite the done
thing for a lady to attend university.  Oh, the suffragettes brought
us our liberties, but women still had a fight to get somewere on their
own in those days.  For myself, not that I would have chosen
otherwise, but the married life was about the only real option.  So
think carefully Jenny Gilmore about your future.  You have so much
promise and can offer so much to this world.  Let your dreams come
alive and chase them.  They are what you have in the end.’  Jenny
nodded as she chewed on the bacon.  She had heard similar things from
her grandmother before.

        Stewart came in the room and looked at the bacon in the frying
pan.  ‘Hey, is this for me?’

‘And the hash browns and tomatoes.  Sorry, we’re out of eggs.’
Stewart loaded up a plate and sat down at the kitchen table, looking
at his daughter in her school clothes.  Jenny had done up her hair and
had a small hair scarf to make herself look attractive.

‘My, don’t we look a treat,’ he said to his daughter.

‘Daaad,’ moaned Jenny.

‘I mean it.  You look a peach, Jenny.  I am sure Craig or whatever his
name is is bound to notice.’

‘Don’t embarrass the girl,’ said Janet Gilmore.  ‘You can see she is
nervous for her big day.  I remember your first day at school.  You
couldn’t stop talking about all the new kids you had met that
afternoon.’

‘I remember,’ replied Stewart.

Jenny looked at the clock and finished stuffing down her bacon.  ‘Ok.
I gotta go.  The bus will be out the front in about 10 minutes so I
can’t wait.’  Fiona came over to her.

‘Ok.  Do you have everything?’

Jenny looked at her sister.  ‘Yeh, I think so.’

‘And don’t be nervous, okay.  I know it is a big day and you are
looking forward to maybe seeing Craig.  But just be yourself.  You
will be fine.’

Jenny nodded.  Fiona gave her a hug and Janet waved at her, while
Stewart smiled at his daughter.  Three minutes later she was out the
door, heading to the unsealed dirt road at the front of the property
were the Dalgety School Bus drove past.



        Watching her go Fiona thought on all her glory days in
school.  They had been good days, great days many of them, but they
were gone now.  And now the regular humdrum of life which all adults
had to face put its nose in.  She was lucky, in a way.  She now had a
child to look forward to and in that way could show she was important
to the world.  But she had been worried just last year, living out on
the edge of Dalgety, nobody really to talk to that much, stuck on a
farm.  It was almost as if life had forgotten her temporarily.  But
now she had something to look forward to and could share in the
excitement of her sister’s life for now.  And soon, very soon, the
patter of tiny little feet to bring new joy to her heart.



        Yes, it was another bright new day for the Gilmore clan and as
they went about their business for the day the bright summer sun rose
steadily in the sky, another new and glorious day of hope and untold
promises.



Chapter Three



Jenny looked at the notebook in front of her.  Year 11 Advanced
Mathematics.  She had studied the higher grade of maths all the way
through high school and had enrolled for year 11 Advanced Maths as
well.  She should be ready but some of the problems looked
challenging.  The teacher, Mr White, said he would help her out and
give her a few tutoring lessons in lunch time until she caught up, but
she was reluctant to agree to that at first because she wanted to be
‘seen’ at lunch.  But she knew it was in her own best interests and
without a reasonable excuse agreed.

        Sitting there in the library that lunch time, Mr White had
just left after helping her for about 10 minutes on some of the
introductory material.  She was doing her best to really concentrate –
she really was – but she couldn’t help but feel anxious to get outside
and see if she could find Craig.  But, funnily enough, as she got
stuck into her studies someone had crept up behind her and sat down at
her desk.  It was Craig Coleman.

        ‘So whatchya doin?’ He asked, picking up her maths book.

‘Maths, Craig,’ responded Jenny, ever so pleased to see him, but not
wanting to let him know that.

‘Yeh, I know I probably should be studying in the library at lunch as
well.  Can’t get anywhere without studying my dad always says.’

‘He’s probably right,’ replied Jenny who had put down her pen.  Craig
picked up the scientific calculator.

‘This,’ he said, indicating the calculator, ‘becomes a lot more fun in
Year 11 and 12.  We use it a lot more.’

‘I always assumed we would,’ responded Jenny.

‘Yes, you would.  Your smart, aren’t you?’  Jenny just blushed at
that.

Craig opened the old text book and looked at the inside cover
carefully.

‘What are you looking at,’ asked Jenny.

Craig kept the textbook open and handed it to her, pointing to a
little note which had been written inside the cover of the book.  It
read ‘Turn to page 414.’  She turned to page 414 and found another
note which read, ‘Turn to page 311.’  She turned to page 311 and found
another note which read, ‘Turn to page 66.’  She turned to page 66 and
found the final note which read ‘You suck!’  She laughed out loud and
Craig grinned.

‘How did you know that was there?’

‘This was my textbook from last year.  I wrote it in there.’

Jenny grinned and pushed his shoulder.  She stared at the note saying
‘You suck’ for a few moments, before returning to her sums.

        After a few moments of Craig casually using her calculator he
spoke up.  ‘You know, Jen.  I don’t really have a girlfriend.  So if
you want to hang out with me, well that would be okay by me.  I mean
it doesn’t have to be anything serious.  We can be just friends, you
know.  Friends.’

This was something Jenny Gilmore had longed to hear in the last couple
of days.  And now it had happened and she was not sure what to say,
caught off guard at first.’

‘Uh, yeh, well,’ she stuttered.

‘Well?’ he said, looking straight at her.’

She came to herself.  ‘Yeh, sure.  We can be friends.  I would like
that.’

‘Great!’  He replied.  ‘Well, I am heading off now and I know you have
to study, but I will see you on the bus this afternoon.  I wasn’t on
this morning because I had a doctor’s appointment, but I will be
taking the bus with you each day now.  And we can sit next to each
other if you like.’

‘Sure, that would be great.’

‘Cool.’  He got to his feet, typed something into the calculator and
handed it to her and walked off.  She looked at the calculator.  It
read ‘58008’.  But she turned it upside down and read ‘Boobs.’  She
smiled to herself.  He had a sense of humour did this Craig Coleman.
Someone to watch out for.



*   *   *   *   *



That afternoon during her final class for the day, economics, Jenny
could barely concentrate on the lesson.  She was looking forward to
the long trip back home to Dalgety and her time chatting with Craig
Coleman.  Already she was fantasizing about perhaps being his
unofficial girlfriend; but of course it was just that, unofficial.
But that didn’t matter.  If she made a good impression, which she felt
she already had, he would like her and might be interested in having
her as his girlfriend one day.

The clock ticked over to half-past three and the school bell rang.
She finished off her notes from the board, put her notebook in her
bag, and started making her way towards the western front entrance to
the school were the buses would be.  She found her bus and looking on
it didn’t yet see Craig, but the bus wasn’t due to leave for a few
minutes and she was sure he would arrive.  A couple of other students
from Dalgety who were in her year said hello to her, as they had that
morning, seemingly taking a little more of an interest than previous
years.  And she was just starting a conversation with Natalie Cooper
when Craig sat down next to her.  He smiled to Natalie and said hi but
then turned his attention to Jenny.  ‘How’s tricks?’

‘Oh, everything is alright,’ she replied nervously.  She could feel
the eyes of Natalie Cooper on both of them, but didn’t want to say
anything.  There was nothing to say, anyway.  They were just friends
after all.

        Shortly the bus took off and did its rounds of the Cooma
schools and then started making its way out of Cooma, headed for
Berridale.  From Berridale they would turn south for the trip to
Dalgety.

        All that long afternoon, which seemed to last forever, Craig
chatted about this and that and Jenny felt like she was dramatically
falling in love.  Of course that wasn’t true but she was very soon
smitten with Craig Coleman with all the attention he lavished upon
her.  When they finally reached Dalgety he got off at the main stop.
She was almost tempted to get off as well, but stayed on the bus and
waved him goodbye as she continued along.  When she got home coming
through the kitchen door finding Fiona all her conversation was on
Craig Coleman.  Yes, indeed, the lass was smitten.



*   *   *   *   *



        The following day followed a similar routine to the previous
except that morning she rode on the bus with Craig.  Craig introduced
her properly to his Dalgety friends and, it seemed, Jenny Gilmore was
now becoming something she had desired for so long - popular.

        That lunch-time at school she was again in the library
catching up on her maths study when Craig found her again.  They
chatted casually but he sensed she was concerned with her work so he
started helping her.  Craig was an A Average student, very used to
getting high grades in most of his subjects.  He was in Advanced Maths
for year 12, and handling it, and found little difficulty in helping
Jenny understand her problems.  For Jenny it was the right person to
become her friend at the right time for so many reasons, and was she
ever grateful.

        But no new romance ever gets off without a problem, and that
problem, for Jenny Gilmore, was found in the person of Natalie
Cooper.  Natalie was in year 12, Craig’s year, and ever since he had
gotten back to the region she had been mildly flirting with him.  And
that afternoon on the bus, thinking it had just been her imagination
yesterday, she was confronted with another woman after her man.  Of
course, Jenny was a gentle and reserved type of girl and when put to
the test, which she was, she did what came instinctively and withdrew
from the challenge.  Craig himself seemed to like the attention of
both girls but, from what Jenny could see, he particularly liked the
close attention that Natalie was giving him.  When both Craig and
Natalie got off at the Dalgety stop Jenny was tempted to get off as
well, as she did not like the thought of losing her boyfriend before
she even had gotten him, but something in her heart, something about
Fiona’s words, told her that if Natalie could steal him away from her,
then he wasn’t really for her in the first place.  And so she remained
silent and calm the following morning and afternoon while Craig was
being flirted with by Natalie but, to Jenny’s relief, he came with her
the extra few kilometres after the Dalgety stop saying he would walk
home from Jenny’s place.  Natalie had gotten off at the Dalgety stop
but there was a look of defeat in her eyes.  Sitting there in the
front of Jenny’s property Craig said something which relieved Jenny’s
fears.

‘Yeh, I like Natalie.  She’s a fun girl.  But I’m not interested in
her, okay.  Not in her.’  Jenny nodded, quietly taking in that
information.  She showed him the property briefly but he declined an
invitation to be introduced to her family.

‘Perhaps some other time, okay.  But I gotta run.  See you tomorrow.’
And he took off.

She was more certain of herself now and had growing confidence in
Fiona’s words.  If she just remained herself then boys would see her
for who she was, not what she looked like.  And she would trust in
that.



*   *   *   *   *



‘Honey.  Do you ever think, well maybe.  Maybe you could tell your
daughters about me.  It has been over two years now.  They are grown
girls.  I’m sure they will understand.’

Funnily enough, despite thinking he really did not want to hear this
from Michelle Brooks right at the moment, Stewart Gilmore felt perhaps
he should.

‘Yes, I suppose you’re right.  I have been putting it off for ages,
now.  Finding excuses not to tell them.  Mainly Laura, you know.’

‘I know.’

‘But there will never be a right time.  Not with news like this.’

‘Hon, they’re grown girls.  They know how the world works.  We move
on, after a while.  All of us do.  And when someone we love has left
us – well we are only human, and we still need a little loving.’

With other such words Michelle gently persuaded Stewart to share the
news of her existence with his family and Stewart finally assented.

‘But not right at the moment.  Just give me a few months, okay.  Only
a few more months.  I need the time to work up to it and find the
right moment.’

‘Sure thing honey.  I’ll trust you’ll know when.  Now come over here
and give me some lovin.’

Stewart dutifully rose from the couch of Michelle’s home and they made
their way to the bedroom and a night of pleasure.



*   *   *   *   *



Stewart got home late that night but as soon as he walked into the
kitchen, noting the time of 5 past 1, Fiona caught him with news.
‘Time is right.  Chloe is about to give birth.  Should be any time
tonight.’  Chloe was a mare, one of 3 horses, the property ran and she
had been pregnant.  Tonight was the night by the looks of it, and
Stewart knew the time was about right.  ‘Jenny and Gran are with her.
I was waiting here for you.’

‘Come on then,’ replied Stewart.



They came into the barn were the horses were stabled and found Janet
and Jenny watching over the mare.  The other horses were grunting,
seemingly in expectation.  It was a long night and the horse moaned
many times, but around 4.20 in the morning she heaved her final heave
and the foal came out.  They cleaned up the new foal, it was a male,
and the mother soon made its way to nursing it.  As Stewart watched on
he again gave thought to the miracle of life and thought on the God of
his mother which apparently made all things possible.  And looking at
Fiona his daughter, and the seven months to go to his first grand-
child, things were starting to make sense to Stewart Gilmore.  Things
on how the circle of life all flowed and worked in harmony together.
And he prayed a silent prayer of thanks because of it.



The colt grew quickly over the next few months and they named him
Stanley.  It was a time of growth for many of the Gilmore’s, including
the colt.  Jenny and Craig remained good friends, but as Craig had put
it that time in the library, just good friends.  Nothing more had yet
eventuated.  Jenny had noticed that her acne was definitely much less
now and soon, she hoped, it would be gone entirely.  Every day to the
other Gilmore’s it seemed as if Jenny’s time of life had come and she
was now shining in the way all young girls ought to shine in life.  As
autumn passed and winter began the property, much to Stewart’s great
relief, was seeing a reasonably good bout of rain.  Nothing to break
the drought in the region, if such a thing were really possible, but
good rain nonetheless.  Fiona felt the baby in her womb, definitely
kicking now she thought, and the Gilmore’s each day, anxiously awaited
the moment.  And Janet Gilmore continued to pray each day for her
offspring, patiently waiting on the miracle her God would deliver for
her.



It was mid winter, just past the solstice, when Jenny had news for her
sister.  Craig had finally asked her out.  To go see a movie at the
Cooma cinema this up and coming Friday night.  It was a big action
flick but Jenny really didn’t care what was showing.  It was intimate
time with Craig that she had really looked forward to.  She pestered
Stewart all that week, but he never gave her a firm answer.  But
Friday morning, just as she was leaving for school, he gave his
consent to her seeing the movie that night with Craig.  ‘But be sure
you are home at a decent hour, okay.  Before 11 if possible.’

That day at school Craig was more attentive than normal promising her
a night to remember with a subtle smile on his face which Jenny was
not quite sure about.  But it was her big night so she let that subtle
smile go.

The movie was one of those big action blockbusters about aliens and
robots and Jenny had a hard time following what was happening but
realized later that it was just a show movie, not to be taken
seriously, and mainly for the male audience.  Half way through the
movie Craig had put his arm up above her seat and then, gradually,
lowered it.  Jenny was nervous but didn’t object.  She knew he liked
her.  After the movie they were eating snacks in the foyer when
Stewart suggested they see a Cooma lookout before returning to
Dalgety.  Jenny had no objections so they were soon making their way
back towards Berridale before veering at the top of the four mile and
taking the dirt road up to a restaurant which had good views.  When
they arrived they found that the restaurant had close but Craig parked
the car and looked at his girlfriend.  ‘You know Jen.  I like you.  I
really like you.  And I thought tonight could be really special for
us, if you know what I mean.’

Jenny smiled.  She wasn’t naïve but she was not quite sure what he was
driving at.  But when he grabbed her and started kissing her for the
first time, quite roughly, she didn’t really want to push him away.
But when he grabbed for her jeans and started unbuttoning them she was
in a panic.  She thought on her sister Fiona and what had happened to
her because a boy had been too eager.  And again she thought on those
words of her sister, those cutting words.  ‘He should like you for WHO
you are and not WHAT you can give him.’  And instantly she made a
decision.  She pushed him away, but he got a little rough and said,
‘you know you want it, babe.  Don’t fight it.’  But she tried again to
push him away, but still he persisted.  She was getting nervous and
almost anticipated he might rape her when something in her rose up and
yelled ‘NO!’  That was the point Craig took the hint and stopped what
he was doing.  He had her jeans around her knees but that was as far
as they had gone.  She tried not to cry but pulled up her jeans and
buttoned them.  ‘Can we go home now Craig,’ she said, with a frozen
voice which scared Craig Coleman.

        It was quiet all the way back to Dalgety and when he let her
out at her home she barely said a word.  She had seen a side of Craig
Coleman which she was not sure she liked at all.  Yet, as he drove
away, she did remind herself that he had stopped when she insisted.
He was a guy, but he was not a rapist.  And she reminded herself that
when she slipped into her room to go to bed that night.



*   *   *   *   *



‘What’s gotten into you?  The big night and suddenly not a word.’  But
Jenny remained silent, not responding to her sister’s question.

‘What, did he try and rape you?’ she said exaggeratingly.  But when
Jenny looked at her immediately with a big shocked look on her face,
Fiona knew something had happened between them.  She got off her seat
and came and stood in front of Jenny, looking down into her eyes.
‘Seriously Jenny.  What happened?  He didn’t force you, did he?’  But
Jenny just turned her head away, too embarrassed to say anything.
Fiona, though, was very anxious.  ‘Did he…  Did he rape you?’ She
asked incredulously.  Jenny finally responded, looking at her sister.
‘No.  He didn’t rape me.  Okay.  But he wanted to go all the way and
he got pretty heavy about it.  But I shouted ‘No’ and he finally
stopped.  He had my jeans around my knees.’

Fiona let out a breath which she had been holding and sat back down.
It was not like the Craig Coleman she knew, but he was a guy.  And he
was getting older and at that time of life when these sort of things
could happen.  ‘And I thought he was such a nice guy,’ she said to
herself, which made Jenny respond.

‘He IS a nice guy, Fiona.  He just got carried away.  He did stop when
I yelled.’

‘Look, seriously Jenny.  ‘I don’t think he is the kind of guy for
you.  If he has to go that far and be yelled at to stop…. Well next
time he might not listen.  Know what I mean.’

‘Don’t say that.’

‘I am telling you this for your own good, okay.  I think perhaps you
and Craig Coleman need a breather for a while.  Just stay away from
him for a while, okay.  Give yourself time to think about it and were
it is going.  You don’t want to end up like me after all.’

Jenny looked at her sister’s belly and almost, despite knowing she
should think otherwise, finding that it might not be that bad to be
pregnant and have a new life growing inside her.  But she banished the
thought just as soon as it came, knowing she should know better.

‘Please, don’t tell dad okay.’

‘Don’t tell me what?’ said Stewart Gilmore, just entering the room.

Fiona responded quickly after Jenny gave her a nervous glance.
‘Nothing that concerns you Mr Gilmore.  Private woman’s business.  No
need for a male to interfere.’

‘If you say so,’ responded Stewart, who poured himself a bowl of corn
flakes.  The conversation went silent and Jenny soon left for school.
But all that day Fiona worried for her sister and prayed a few times
that God would resolve the situation for the good of all.



Jenny did not talk to Craig on the bus that morning and she hid in the
library at lunch-time to escape him as well, not hanging out at there
usual spot.  She thought he might come looking and he did, but he just
looked at her for a few moments.  She looked at him as he stared at
her and he put up his hand in a wave and then left.  While she was not
really sure, she felt he had been convicted and was sorry.

But, that afternoon, he did not again speak to her on the bus but
spoke with Natalie Cooper all the time.  It was silence, an awkward
silence, but perhaps for the best as Fiona had said.



*   *   *   *   *



It was at dinner time, when Stewart again found the girls secretly
talking, that he finally had enough.  ‘Anyway, how did that date with
that Craig fellow go.  It must be what you two are whispering about.’
Jenny looked convicted.  She looked at her father, but then stared
down at her dinner plate.  Stewart was perplexed.

‘Did I say something wrong,’ he asked nobody in particular, but Fiona
answered.

‘The date didn’t go well,’ Fiona said to her father.  Jenny looked at
her sister with daggers in her eyes and said, ‘You promised you
wouldn’t tell.’

‘He needs to hear,’ replied Fiona.  She turned to her father.
‘Craig.  Craig Coleman, well he got ambitious with Jenny.  If you know
what I mean.’

Stewart looked from Fiona to Jenny, and while staring at Jenny said to
Fiona, ‘Tell me exactly what you mean, Fiona.’

‘He got physical with her.  But Jenny yelled No before they did it.  I
mean, he had her jeans around her knees before they stopped.’

That was as much as Stewart Gilmore could take.  He rose to his feet,
glared at his daughters, and then walked across the room and grabbed
his coat.  ‘I am going out.  A certain Gilmore family to see.’  Jenny
and Fiona ran after him but they were too late.  He had gotten to the
four wheel drive and as they watched him go Jenny was in tears.
‘He’ll kill him,’ she screamed.  But Fiona knew better.  She knew her
father would have words, but leave it at that.  But words to be
remembered.



*   *   *   *   *



‘So tell me, John.  Why did you raise your son to be a rapist?’

John Coleman took affront at that word, but remained silent.  He had a
good idea, now, what had happened between his son and Stewart’s
daughter, but wanted to hear it from Craig himself.  He called the lad
in who dutifully came into the room, looking nervously at Mr Gilmore.

‘Craig’ began John.  ‘Could you please tell me what happened on Friday
night between you and Jenny.  And be precise son.  Mr Gilmore wants to
know exactly what you did.’  Craig began nervously.  ‘Well, we went to
the movie and I suggested we go up to that lookout near the four
mile.  She said okay.’

‘And what happened then,’ asked John.

‘Ok, I tried it on with her.  But nothing happened, okay.  Nothing
happened.  She said no, I stopped, and we went home.’

‘It was a bit more than that according to my daughter,’ responded
Stewart with unveiled hostility.  Craig softened.

‘I told her today at school I was sorry.  I mouthed it to her in the
library.  But nothing happened.  I mean, I’m sorry Mr Gilmore, but I
really like your daughter.  I think I love her in fact.’

‘It is a funny way of showing love, Craig.  You practically forced her
from what I was told.’

‘But I stopped,’ insisted Craig in return.  ‘Really, unless she had
agreed, I never would have done it with her.  And that is the way it
was.  I stopped.  I got her home again.  Look, I am really sorry
okay.  It just got out of hand.’

‘I’ll say it did,’ retorted Stewart.

John turned to his son.  ‘Okay, Craig.  You can go to your room.
We’ll have words later, okay.’  Craig left, and Stewart stared at John
Coleman.

‘Look, Stewart.  I am really sorry okay.  But you know Craig as well.
He’s a good kid.  He really just likes the girl a lot.  He has been
talking about her for months now.  But these things happen, you know.
But I am sure he respects her.  I am sure of that.’

‘He’ll be respecting Jenny Gilmore, I can tell you that.  He’ll be
respecting Jenny Gilmore.’  He looked at John, satisfied he had said
his piece, and picked up his hat from the sofa.  ‘Okay.  I’ll be going
now John.  But tell your son this.  If he wants any future with my
daughter, well he better rethink his ways.  He better rethink them
strongly.’  John nodded and Stewart, satisfied, left.



Later that night Stewart and Janet were in the kitchen, in front of
the open fireplace, with Stewart sharing what had happened with his
mother.  Fiona was in the next room, but listening as well as she
could.  Stewart had calmed down somewhat, but did say one thing which
Fiona later shared with Jenny.  ‘The kid took it like a man.  I could
see it in his eyes, though, when he said he loved her.  He meant it.
Like he really cared and wanted to be with her.’

‘The passions of youth, son of mine.  The passions of youth.’

Stewart nodded at his mothers words of wisdom.  They had consoled his
pride somewhat, but there was still something to be said to his
daughter.  She would not speak with Craig Coleman for a good long
while.  As far as seeing each other, well they were grounded.  She
needed to learn her lesson if she had not done so already and as far
as Stewart Gilmore was concerned so did Craig Coleman.



All that week at school Jenny, as per her father’s wishes, did not
speak with Jonathon Coleman.  On Thursday in the library he came to
see her and said again he was sorry.  She accepted his apology but
told him that for now she couldn’t see him because of her father.  And
it seemed that was too much for the lad because the following morning
on the bus he was strongly in conversation with Natalie Cooper and
throughout Friday she saw him kissing her at lunch time.  And then
Friday on the way home on the bus they kissed as well and they were
officially together as an item the kids on the bus said.  Jenny was
heartbroken.  Despite thinking she should know better according to the
words of her family, she was still distraught and that afternoon,
getting home from school, she ran to her room and burst into tears.
Fiona followed her in shortly and could see she had been crying.

‘What’s the matter Jenny?’

Jenny sobered up somewhat.  ‘It’s Craig.  Him and Natalie Cooper are
now boyfriend and girlfriend.  I’ve lost him,’ and saying that she
burst out in tears.

All that evening all Stewart Gilmore would say was that it was best it
had happened now.  No point in prolonging a friendship which was
doomed to failure.  But Jenny still missed Craig.



*   *   *   *   *



        Yet, life moves on.  It inevitably does.  And as winter
continued its steady march from July into August, the Gilmore family
returned to its steady routine.



        Jenny’s geography class had an excursion up to the
snowfields.  It had been snowing that winter and even Dalgety had
gotten a bit.  Her class was to go up and identify certain
geographical formations around Mt Kosciusko and write up a report on
them.  Jenny had been to the snow a number of times since her youth as
they lived on the back door virtually to the snowfields.  When the bus
got to Jindabyne there was a bit of snow around the town, but later as
they got higher up the mountains they encountered more and more hills
and valleys covered with snow.  Mr Jones the teacher instructed them
that they had an hour and a half as soon as they arrived to enjoy
themselves, eat lunch and play in the snow.  But after that the
serious work would need to begin.

        Jenny was in her warm winter clothes and on the bus trip up
she had excitedly looked out the window, noting the familiar
landscape.  But try as she might she couldn’t get her mind off of
Craig and Natalie.  She had lost her boyfriend before they had even
been official and it really looked as if the bout of unpopularity she
had encountered since a youth was set to continue.  But looking out
the window of the bus, looking out at the glorious scenery, she tried
to put away such thoughts and concentrate on having a good time that
day.

        She had brought with her Fiona’s digital camera and had
already taken a number of pictures.  The Camera could take hundreds of
pictures and it was empty so she happily snapped away all that morning
and afternoon.  She took pictures of the small glacier, of some crows
which were hanging around a dead kangaroo which she found in the snow
and of all sorts of wildlife.  Of course she took many photos of Mt
Kosciusko which was mainland Australia’s highest mountain.  It was not
exactly the most impressive of peaks – there was no real glory about
it – but it was the highest point on mainland Australia and she was
tempted to leave the group and run up to conquer the peak.  But
perhaps some other time she thought to herself as she returned to her
schoolwork.

        She did manage to take some spectacular shots of mountain
views and later on that night, having returned home, she was in front
of the computer downloading the pictures.  She liked one view quite a
lot and set it as the wallpaper for the computer – a pleasant reminder
of a wonderful day.



*   *   *   *   *



        The colt had grown and while Stewart still refused Jenny to
ride it, she was tempted to sit on its back and go around the stables
a little.  But it was still young and needed its freedom, her father
told her.  It would be broken in soon enough

        Life on a rural farm was generally pleasing enough to Jenny
Gilmore.  But as her sister and father reminded her she was a bright
lass and could have a good future before her if she wanted to.  She
had been to Canberra quite a number of times in her 16 years and
Sydney as well, and while she more instinctively chose the country
life as the life that would be for her there was something appealing
about living in a fancy flat or unit in the big city, working a real
career and earning big bucks.  She could have all the fancy things in
life she really wanted, have nice clothes, even nice jewellery (which
she didn’t really wear anyway), and live somewere spectacular.  When
they had recently been in Canberra visiting the Questacon science
centre they had driven past some new flats on the shores of Lake
Burley Griffin in the heart of Canberra.  The flats looked beautiful
to Jenny – so much more impressive than anything in Dalgety, Jindabyne
or Cooma.  And living in one of them working a real career – well it
certainly had an appeal to it.  And thinking these thoughts over a
couple of weeks Jenny decided that possibly, just possibly, that might
be the kind of lifestyle she would end up choosing for herself.  Oh,
she loved her father and didn’t know how she could ever possibly leave
the farming life.  But, in the end, as her grandmother would say, it
was her life and her own destiny to find for herself.  And because of
that, and the temptations to the good city life before her, Jenny dove
into her schoolwork with more passion than ever before.  If she was
going to make it in life she needed a good education with good
grades.  That was no mystery.  And despite the affairs of the heart
still interested in a certain Craig Coleman her new zeal for her
studies seemed to abate that somewhat.



        Jenny again took to taking photos with Fiona’s digital camera
around the farm.  When Fiona had first gotten the camera she had let
Jenny use it when she wanted to but Jenny had only a little interest
at first.  But after the trip to the snow and seeing all the wonderful
types of pictures she could take an interest in photography itself
sparked and she began taking photos of all aspects of farming life.
After a few months she had an extensive collection of photos on the
family computer and had even bought a few USB drives to keep her
different collections on should the computer hard drive ever break
down.  She didn’t really think about it initially, but after a while
she wondered to herself wether photography itself could be a career
worth pursuing.  She certainly liked taking pictures – she could
happily do that all day – and a career counsellor at school had said
the best professions, in the end, are the ones in which you are doing
work that you enjoy doing.  Work that is no work in that sense.  And
Jenny certainly enjoyed taking photos.

        One afternoon Stewart got out his fathers old Kodak camera
from years ago.  Looking at it, though, it seemed to come from the mid
1960s and seemed quite advanced for a camera from that era.  But
Stewart told her that cameras and photos were a big thing by then and
that the big companies had produced some real quality items by that
era.  Film and producing the shots would be expensive but Stewart
forked over some cash for her to spend it on and she had the
government youth allowance to buy film with as well.  Taking the
digital photos and printing them off on a computer printer had been
alright, but the quality of the photos had always been second rate.
Doing it the old fashioned way, Jenny found, produced a far superior
photo and something to be treasured and remembered.

        And in that zeal Jenny Gilmore took to taking more photos
around the farm and throughout the nearby Dalgety region.  Once she
found a magpie with a broken front beak.  She ran to the house to get
some bread and threw the bread at the magpie but it disappeared.  But
it returned about ten minutes later and starting eating the bread.
Carefully, very carefully, she came closer to the magpie, which seemed
to mind less after having been fed by the stranger.  She got half a
dozen beautiful shots of a magpie with a broken beak and when they had
been developed she put them up on her wall.  She’d had them blown up a
few sizes from the regular photo size but didn’t mind the extra
expense.  They were excellent photos and made Jenny think of the
harshness of nature and how living things learn to cope with obstacles
in their path and still survive.

        And then, surfing the web, she found a local Cooma photography
competition.  The entry fee was $15 and it was open to all entrants in
the local Monaro district.  She thought it over for about five minutes
and then, rushing to her father to borrow his credit card which she
needed to pay online, something which Stewart was reluctant at first
to let her use, but understanding her impulsive desires to enter the
competition straight away, relaxed and let her use, Jenny entered the
competition and began planning out what could be a winning photo.  She
had a number already which she might be able to use, but no.  She
wanted something special.  If she was going to win the competition the
winning picture would have to stand out and look something different
and wonderful.  And so, writing in her notebook, she began writing
down all the ideas which entered her mind.



        It had been an engrossing few weeks for Jenny Gilmore, caught
up with her studies and then with her photographs, and for a while her
heart was forgotten as she was occupied with her dreams, thoughts of
Craig Coleman and Natalie Cooper almost forgotten.  Almost, but not
quite.







Chapter Four



        Craig Coleman sat on the porch of the Coleman homestead, just
south of Dalgety, thinking about life.  Natalie was on his mind.  His
current girlfriend.  And while they’d had sex just the once, Craig was
rethinking, now, wether he really wanted Natalie as his girlfriend at
all.  Now that he’d had what he so desperately wanted with Jenny with
Natalie instead he felt like he was cheating on Jenny.  For, in a
strange way, it was as if he had already promised himself to Jenny
Gilmore.  Not so much in word, but in choice of heart.  He remembered
her from growing up, playing under the Dalgety Bridge.  It was one of
those faces from childhood you never quite forgot and he had kissed
her once, asking her to marry him, to which she had just giggled.  But
now, several years later, it seemed as if Jenny Gilmore was still the
real girl who he desired a commitment with.  Oh, Natalie was alright,
but he didn’t feel himself drawn to her in the way he felt drawn to
Jenny Gilmore.  It was as if something deeper was at work.  Call it
fate, call it destiny, it just seemed to Craig Coleman that when he
did the romance sums everything added up to equalling Jenny Gilmore.
And because of that he had made a decision.  He would break it off
with Natalie Cooper.  As carefully, as sensitively as possible, he
would tell her he was no longer interested and leave it at that.  But
he would wait a little while – a few weeks, maybe a month or so, and
then, with time passed since his mistake made with Jenny Gilmore, try
and give it another go with her.  This time, if he was careful, things
could hopefully work out much better for him.



        As he sat on the porch, the sun setting in the distance, Craig
resolved himself on that point.  Really, Natalie was fun, but not the
kind of girl he would ultimately want to settle down with.  Not so
much a personality clash, but a clash of worldviews.  She was a fun,
good time girl, which he liked and needed as well.  But Jenny Gilmore
was more down-to-earth.  More realistic about life and its
possibilities.  And it was Jenny Gilmore which had won the heart of
Craig Coleman more than Natalie Cooper.  And so, yes, he was decided.
He would indeed break it off with Natalie, wait a while, and see were
things went from there.  For now that would be his plan.



*   *   *   *   *



Stewart Gilmore looked at the clouds.  They looked promising – very
promising.  So far this winter they’d had good rain on the property.
Much better than the last few years.  In fact, with another few good
showers he was almost confident enough to say they would have their
best harvest in years – perhaps ever.  And for the life of an
Australian farmer such news was of paramount importance.

He was out on Chloe, moving the sheep from one yard to another the old
fashioned way, whistling and yelling to his kelpie sheepdogs ‘Shiner’
and ‘Bluey’ all the time.  Usually he would take the motorbike but
funds were getting scarce and horses cost nothing, practically, to
run.  So he had mounted Chloe and was moving the sheep from the
southernmost paddock to one on the eastern side of the property.  He
moved the sheep regularly as they chewed through paddocks.  He would
let one paddock be whittled down and then move the sheep to another
paddock, letting the old one start growing again.  It was the usual
practice for sheep farmers and Stewart continued on in the traditions
his father Fred and his father before him had handed down.  He knew
what he was doing, was confident in his work, but just prayed silently
for a good harvest every now and then to make all their hard work
worthwhile.  It was those good years which made the farming life worth
it in the end.  Oh, it was a lifestyle you would ultimately have to
choose for yourself if you wanted it.  It had its ups and downs, good
times and bad.  But you really needed the temperament for the
challenges it brought if you were going to survive.  But harvest, when
everything was going well, well that was what it was all about.  And
Stewart had a growing confidence that in the upcoming spring they
would have a harvest to remember.

        As he whistled and yelled he looked out over the property.  It
was not a huge amount of land, but it was good land, close to the
river, and you could do a lot of things with it if you had to.  There
was an old dump were they tossed their rubbish and old things up on a
corner of the property were the girls had often adventured to in
younger years.  Up there were a number of older farm vehicles which
had passed their use by date as well as this and that piece of old no
longer functioning farm machinery.  He could just imagine if he got
the grandson he desired that the little tyke would have no end of fun
playing at the dump, crawling over the old trucks and machinery,
getting into no end of trouble.  But that was one of the real joys of
the farming life.  And thinking to himself Stewart knew he wouldn’t
have it any other way.



        ‘Those clouds look good Chloe.  We best get about our business
before it comes down.’  He got back to work, whistling and yelling in
the way to taught to him and after a little while had finally moved
the sheep to the next paddock.  He closed the gate of the paddock, as
he had done for each and looked at the clouds.  They were about ready
to burst.  As he made for home, going along the dirt track, down to
the river and then crossing it, the rain did pummel down and as he
came into to the farmstead kitchen he grinned at his mother who was
sitting at the table.  ‘I think your Jehovah God has done something
right for a change.’

‘He always does the right thing,’ responded his mother.

‘And today is a beauty.  We will have hours of rain with those
clouds.  And forecasts are good for the week.  Its just what we need
for a bumper harvest.  Just what we need.’

Janet Gilmore nodded.  She was pleased for her son, but not really
worried either way.  The farming life had its ebb and flow and that
was that.



        Later on that evening, having watched the weather report on
the news, Stewart was grinning to himself.  Rain all week for the
region.  Big cloud coverage all over the state.  Not enough to break
the drought, so they said, but good nonetheless.  He celebrated by
going out to the pub for the night and, heading over to Michelle’s,
enjoyed a good night with a ladies company.  Better times were coming
for the Gilmore family.  Stewart was sure of that.



*   *   *   *   *



        Fiona sat at the family computer in the living room of the
Gilmore homestead looking through hundreds of Jenny’s digital photos.
The girl had really taken a shine to taking pictures and there were
all sorts of colourful and lively photos of the homestead and outlying
area.  It made Fiona think, now that Jenny had rumoured a possible
career in photography, of wether there was something she could do
herself around the farm to occupy herself with and perhaps make some
sort of living from.  Certainly, she had the farmwork and at this
stage was set to take over from her father one day as the main worker
on the farm.  But that was still a couple of decades away – a lot
could happen in that time.  She sat down in her room one afternoon
with a notepad and a piece of paper and wrote down all the possible
things she could do to occupy herself and perhaps make a little money
as well.  A career had been at the back of her mind since leaving
school, but she had just gone with the flow of the farm for the
meantime, nothing better having yet come along.  But now, out of
inspiration from her younger sister, she had a few ideas and wanted to
see if anything could come of them.



        Right on the top of her list she stupidly wrote ‘Photographer’
borrowing Jenny’s idea, simply because she had no other idea to start
the list.  But after a while, looking at that idea, she wondered if
they could, after learning the craft, go into business together.  It
could be interesting.  But no.  She crossed out the word after a while
and went to sit out the back to think up things she could pursue as
some sort of occupation apart from the farmwork.  Sitting there for
half an hour or so she produced the following list of ideas.

·        Selling woolly jumpers, socks and other woollen items online
from farm wool and knit by myself and Nan

·        Concentrating on the winery and seeing if dad will let me
take it over

·        Writing fiction books

·        Writing Poetry

·        Artistic painting

·        Woodworking

·        Making pottery

·        Copperwork

·        Making basic jewellery

And finally

·        Studying an online university degree



She felt, if she were to be serious, the last option may possibly be
the best one if the farming life was ultimately not for her.  But she
knew if she gave it further thought she could produce a whole page
full of do-it-yourself items which she could potentially sell online
through a website.  It was simply a matter of finding the most
suitable idea, one which worked well with her talents, and pursuing it
with dedication and commitment.  If Jenny’s photography ever took off
she could thank her sister for the being the source of inspiration and
the motivation should she herself ever prove successful.



When Jenny got home from school Fiona shared with her the ideas she
had come up with and Jenny was very supportive.  ‘It is good to have
something we like doing to keep ourselves occupied, sis,’ were Jenny’s
words of encouragements.  In some way it seemed sound advice and
keeping that in mind Fiona would sleep on the issue and give it a few
weeks of careful thought to decide how she would proceed.  Certainly,
there was no rush, and she had a baby due soon which would take up
much of her time.  But the child needed a future like herself and
planning was important.  Success came through careful planning so her
grandmother often remarked and Fiona Gilmore decided that to be her
motto for now.  With careful plans her foundation for the future could
be laid.  It was all in her own hands and all before her.  Something
to be excited about and something to be thankful for she thought to
herself as the days ticked by.



*   *   *   *   *



‘Just for the record, Stewart, you know I love you don’t you son of
mine.’  Stewart smirked to himself but knew he shouldn’t have.  And
while his mother’s affectations were never unwanted it seemed in
recent weeks she had gotten even more emotional towards her family.
Perhaps it was just her old age.  Perhaps she feared dying along in
some paranoid state of mind.  Or, perhaps, she really just did love
him.  He suspected religious motivation, knowing his mother and her
devotion to her lord, but still, in the end, she had said the words
and he loved her for them.  He got up from the sofa came over to his
mum and gave her a hug.  ‘I love you to mum.  Don’t forget that.’

‘I won’t, son of mine.’  She seemed to be happy after that Stewart
noticed which made him happy as well.  It was good being happy.

Janet Gilmore knew she had to say those words.  They had been on her
heart for some time.  Something within her asking her this:  If you
really love your family, have you let them know?  And so she had
decided she would show love to her family from then on, even more so
than in the past, and be the rock of love her family always and
continually needed.



*   *   *   *   *



        ‘Look, Craig.  I really don’t know if that is for the best.
Dad is still upset with you.’  Jenny looked at Craig, a little anxious
as she still had strong feelings for him, but understanding she had to
obey her father’s wishes.

‘Jenny, look.  I am not perfect, ok.  Really, I am far from it.  And
while I had fun with Natalie Cooper she just doesn’t compare to you.
What words can I say to tell you that I am really sorry?  What words
can I say?’

Jenny softened at that, a little voice in her heart saying, ‘Its ok.
He means it.’  ‘Well, alright.  I accept your apology.  I know you can
get out of hand but I also know you can control yourself if you have
to.  Look, I’ll talk to dad tonight.  I’ll try to persuade him you
have changed.  He might listen, but I can’t promise anything.’

‘That’s all I ask.’



As he walked away Jenny thought on how she would communicate her
desires to her father.  Stewart could be stubborn at times, especially
when it came to the welfare of his family.  But he had a soft heart as
well.  A soft heart which would listen to the gentle voice of his
daughter if it was one of true sincerity.



*   *   *   *   *



With her pottery business up and running, Fiona was happy with life.
Stewart had paid for the kiln and after a few weeks of lessons in
Cooma she had started designing her own works.  The first few efforts
were rather average, but after that she noticed a gradual improvement
in the styles and quality of her work.  And what she was learning in
her lessons wasn’t hurting either.  Sitting in her shack studio which
Stewart had built near the barn, Jenny wandered in.

‘Hey sis, what’s up,’ said Fiona.’

‘Oh, nothing.  What you doing?’

‘Some mugs.  I have a basic design which I am working on constantly to
make them as durable as possible.  Once they are up to scratch and
after I have painted and glazed them they will go online on to my
website.  And then, if I’m lucky, in comes the money.’

Jenny nodded, but only seem half interested.  ‘Is something on your
mind,’ asked Fiona.

‘Well, uh.   Yeh.  It’s Craig.  He wants to get back together with
me.  He says he has changed and that he is really sorry.’

‘I know Craig is, deep down, a good guy Jenny.  But you should be
careful ok.  He can get a bit out of hand as you know well.’

‘I know.  But, well.  I think probably have feelings for him.’

‘You think?  You either do or don’t.  There is no in between, really.
I mean, I guess you could be uncertain, but you need to know Jen.  Do
you?  If you do that means something.’

‘Yeh, I do,’ said Jenny nodding.

‘Then go tell dad.  Tell him you love him, if that is what is really
in your heart.’

‘Thanks Fiona.’

‘No Worries.’



*   *   *   *   *



        A few months later Stewart Gilmore was a happy man.  Spring
was bearing good results for the farm and as Summer neared he knew
Harvest was coming.  A great harvest.  It had taken him a while, and
initially he had said no, but he had finally allowed Jenny to date
Craig Coleman again, but under strict rules.  They had to be home by 8
pm at the latest, and no going off anywhere secret or private.  And
while he had concerns that Craig might try something he knew Jenny
would keep him in line.



        And now, with the way things were working out in his life,
Stewart Gilmore had started attending the Kingdom Hall assemblies with
his mother.  He was not really convinced of any faith yet, and doubted
he ever would be.  But he wanted to make his mother happy in her
latter years and the preaching was fine.  He had gradually grown
accustomed to what the Kingdom Hall went on about.  Sitting there, on
the back porch, watching the sun go down, it had been a hard day’s
work, but thinking over his life he was happy enough with it and felt,
in the morning, he would make his announcement.  The time was now
right to share with his family his girlfriend,



*   *   *   *   *



        ‘This is Michelle.’  Jenny, Fiona and Janet looked at Stewarts
girlfriend, a somewhat anxious look on his mother’s face, but the
girls seemed fine with it.  Fiona came forward and gave Michelle a
hug.  ‘Good to meet you, Michelle.  I guess it is about time Dad moved
on.  It’s been long enough.’

‘Nice to meet you,’ said Jenny, offering her hand which Michelle
shook.  Michelle turned to Janet.

‘It is Good to meet you at last, Mrs Gilmore.’  Janet looked at
Michelle and looked at Stewart, who just waved his head in the
direction of Michelle urging his mother to respond.  Janet turned to
Michelle.  ‘Well, the pleasure is all mine Michelle.  Come, let us go
into the sitting room and you can tell me all about yourself.’
Michelle and Janet disappeared leaving Stewart with two curious
daughters.

‘So, you have moved on, huh dad?’  began Fiona.

‘Well, don’t tell this to your grandmother, but I have been dating
Michelle for a fair while now.  I just wanted it to be the right time
for her to get to know you.  To let Laura’s memory still be the number
one thing between us.’

Jenny came forward and hugged her father.  ‘Thanks, dad.  And we don’t
mind.  We know you need someone too.’

‘That’s good too hear,’ responded Stewart Gilmore, a greatly relieved
father.



Michelle, after a couple of months, moved in with the Gilmore’s and
seemed to be a happy new cog in the family.  Jenny and Fiona quickly
bonded with her and Stewart, seeing how the relationship had slowly
come together and worked well was generally a happy man.  Things were
smooth at the moment.  Very smooth.



*   *   *   *   *



‘Harvest.  A bloody good one.’

‘So how much will we take in,’ asked Fiona to her father.

‘Money in fair words, Fi.  Money in fair words.’



And, indeed, as payday came around that Summer, a good harvest was
indeed taken in by the Gilmore family.  A harvest which brought a
blessing to one of the oldest Dalgety families.  And then, another
surprise, a surprise from Jenny.

‘He’s proposed,’ asked Fiona, totally shocked at her sister’s
announcement to the family.

‘Oh, that is good news,’ responded Michelle.

Stewart looked at his daughter Jenny, suddenly quite impressed with
the young lady.  ‘Well, as a gift young Jenny, you can have that
surgery now if you want to.  For your eyes.  I have enough put aside
for it and you can look beautiful on your wedding day.’

Jenny came forward, hugged her father, and said thank you’s after
thank you’s.



*   *   *   *   *



        One of the largest weddings in Dalgety history took place in
early Autumn in a blessed year for the Gilmore family.  Jenny looked
radiant, dressed in virginal white, and Stewart was ever so proud as
he walked his daughter down the aisle in the outdoor ceremony on the
farm.  There was quite a turnout with half of Dalgety present and
numerous family and friends.  The Harvest of the Gilmore Family had
blessed them greatly and as the year turned over and the new one got
under way, tiny little feet belonging to the firstborn child of Craig
and Jenny Gilmore were placed on the lap of Janet Gilmore as she held
her great-grandson Jamie.  ‘Now, little Jamie.  Listen to me on this.
You have a stubborn grandfather, and your mother and aunt are in his
mould.  But for heaven’s sake, please come along to service when you
are grown.  I must have at least one regular member of my family at
our services.’  And, as if in response, the cherubim angel Jamie
burped and Janet Gilmore smirked.  Another little happy day in the
life of the Gilmore family of Dalgety in the Monaro region of New
South Wales, Australia.



THE END