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   (Self quote)

    " While I've had to pinion my person to near permanent stifle 
   lest BDT avoid me altogether, I could no longer contain my anger 
   and frustration with respect to what I consider to be criminal.  
   It is not a risible matter, this conception, nor is the 
   offense itself.  And therefore, I offer this apology. Not an 
   apology of regret for remonstrations in past posts, rather, 
   an apology in the classical sense: an argument for defense. "  


And now, in the wake of a series of e-mailings to/from Mr.Beckmeyer,
I eat my own words.  This is yet another apology, NOT in the classical
sense, but in contrary, an expression of sincere self-effacement.  

I sent a copy of my most recent posting to Mr. Beckemeyer BEFORE
putting it on the net, offering terms for rebuttal.  Mr. Beckemeyer
replied the following day, though no sooner than moments before
receiving his e-mail, I had posted the letter to the nets.  

Mr. Beckemeyer was rightfully disturbed by the contents of my article and
was hurt by my lack of discretion.  

It is now clear that there were patent communication 
problems between us.  My 'old' version of MT C-Shell took
close to 20 days to arrive at his desk.  E-mail to him was 
directed to a sub domain for a few weeks (though the mailer 
daemon never acknowledged this, so neither of us knew of 
the problem ).  Therefore, during the interim, whilst i fretted 
over the "apparent" irresponsibility of BDT, Mr. Beckemeyer never 
really knew I was trying to contact him.  WHen the disk finally
arrived at BDT headquarters, the secretary noted that the $10 
update fee was not included, and therefore sent me a letter saying 
they needed the $10.00 before they could send me the disk.  
Unfortunately, the US mail failed us once again, and I never 
received the note.  To make matters more complicated, David himself 
did not plan on charging me in the first place!  As I understand it, 
there was an in-house mixup and the secretary never was clear on the 
fact that i was supposed to be sent the disk for free. Ironically,
I was never informed there was an update fee in the first place, David 
was simply being generous.

Recent communication with Mr. Beckmeyer has been profitable. Both
sent each other an explanation of events and attitudes.  Given the
public pillory to which I subjected BDT in my last post, I 
certainly did not deserve the kindness tendered by Mr. Beckemeyer
in his most recent letter to me (fortunately, the e-mail is
working again).  The traducing of his character was categorically
uncondign, and without question, beyond reason.  

In retrospect, I have learned an important lesson that I will
carry with me in perpetuity.  I extend a sincere apology for
the damage I have caused Mr. Beckemeyer's reputation.
The results of his hard work have proven many fine products 
for the ST and are used extensively throughout the Atari 
community.  I urge others interested in BDT software to disregard
any and all previous posts of mine.  My actions have disgraced 
the community and in no way represent the feelings and attitudes
of the Atari net at large. Truly, i am the nefarious character,
not Mr. Beckemeyer.

-kevin callahan
bissiri@blake.acs.washington.edu