🚀 go-pugleaf

I know I dont post much, but Im really ticked off tonight.
Heres the thing........I got divorced over 6 years ago. My son was 17 years
old. So being that he was ALMOST an adult I never had to go threw the problems
of dealing with my ex. Ive only bumped into him twice since then.
Well........my first Grandbaby was born on the 4th of this month. OMG.......He
is soooooo cute!!!!!. Anyway, now I bump into him all the time. Thats bad
enough but what is really making me mad is the fact that when I see him, even
though its been over 6 years......I still panic. The first day in the hospital,
I was sitting in a chair off in the far corner of the room. A very small room.
He walked in and BOOM. ......PANIC. The only way out of the room was to either
walk by him or jump out the window. Believe me.......The window seemed like the
easiest way even though we were on the 6th floor.....lol.
I just get so mad at myself for letting this STILL happen. I should be so happy
right now because of that baby, but im on edge all the time.
I also feel bad for my son. He knows how I feel and is trying to bring the baby
to my house as often as he can. But thats not fair to him. He works all day and
I know he just wants to go home and relax in the evening. But I have to
admit....I get to enjoy the baby so much more when there here. 
OK.....Im done. Im not looking for sypathy, just needed to get it off my chest.

Oh....1 more thing
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

There........NOW im better