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Warning!  This could get ugly - sensitive readers may wish to avert their eyes.

Ladies & Gentlemen, tonight's rant is about MY MOTHER.   Yes, the woman who
gave me life, who was in labor for 17 agonizing hours.  This is the same person
I want to throw something at.  

As Bmom knows, I've been looking at dress patterns.  I want to make my own
wedding gown (thanks again Bea!).  So tonight,  I am talking to my mother, and
I mentioned that I want to make my gown.  She says, "A gown?  So you're going
to have a big wedding?"

I responded "No,  it's not going to be a big wedding."

Her:  "Well, are you going to have bridesmaids?  A maid of honor?"

Me:  "Yeah, probably."

Her:  "Well, who?"

Me: ::insert names of my sister, Knight's sister, my little one::

While I'm naming names, she is looking more & more uncomfortable.  Finally she
says, "I just can't get excited about a second wedding."

So, I'm hurt.  It's not like I was asking for ANYTHING from her - not money,
not help with the dress (even though she is a very good seamstress),  not
ANYTHING.

And as far as the second wedding thing - it's a crock of shit.  When my uncle
(her brother) RE-married (yes, that's right REMARRIED, as in second time) she
busted her ass for that wedding - made favors,  desserts, hosted the shower,
everything.  When her friend Joyce got married for <gasp> a second time, my
mother was a bridesmaid and had a ball.  For weeks I heard about the limo, the
champagne,  how much fun it was, etc. 

I really don't understand it - she really likes Knight, and was tickled to
death when we got engaged.  And you know, this is something really huge, and
wonderful in my life - in fact, I think the only other thing that was better
was having Morganne.  Wouldn't you think that as my mother, she could suck it
up a little,  and at least ACT a bit enthused?  Maybe offer to help in SOME
way?  Ask me about the dress, what it looks like?  

Instead, she is acting like instead of celebrating, we should be planning the
quietest, least embarassing way of getting married.  I don't know why she is
acting this way,  or why she can be happy and excited for other people but not
for me.

At this point,  I'm seriously considering just doing the wedding I want the way
I want it and showing her pictures afterward.