🚀 go-pugleaf

>From: andreamomof2

>You are so right..our posts are sooooo very similar. Haven't we always
>thought
>we were long lost sisters...separated at birth? I am starting to think more
>seriously about that. LOL

YOU CAN BE MY OFFICIAL "CYBERSISTER" IF YOU WANT. :-)
>
>I guess it's just my personality. I am a caregiver by nature, I suppose. When
>my grandfather died and my grandmother was all alone. I talked hubby (didn't
>take much effort..he adored my grandmother) into us breaking our lease in an
>apartment and moving in with her. I think for the 2 years my grandmother
>lived
>after my grandfather's passing.....she saw her daughter (my mom) 3 times. Too
>busy. My sister only came over when she needed something and of course, my
>grandmother was as generous as my parents and always gave to her..no matter
>what. I on the other hand cringed with guilt if I asked her if I "could
>borrow
>$10.00 til Friday" even though I knew she would. You know what though...no
>one
>got to spend her final days with her like I did. I was always her favorite
>(or
>so she said..of course she probably told my sister and our 3 cousins the same
>thing) but I felt it too. :)  As hard as it was taking care of her, and it
>got
>really rough...I was going to college, working and taking care of her...it
>was
>so tough that some days, I didn't know if I'd make it another day! :) But as
>hard as it was..I have precious memories that no one else has of her or with
>her. 

I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL.  THE REWARDS FOR HELPING MUCH OUTWEIGH THE STRESSES.
>
>I never know where I'm going with these....LOL....I guess what I'm trying to
>say is that I enjoy taking care of my family...but that it's so stressful not
>to get help....and I guess I get tired of people expecting it from me...and
>losing sight of the fact that I have my own family...two little children that
>need more of a life than going to grandma's everyday. That sounds selfish, I
>know...and my girls don't complain...but I feel that going there just about
>everyday is wearing on them as well. :( 

IT'S LIKE YOU GET IN A RUT, AND YOU NEED A WAY OUT, BUT YOU CAN'T TURN YOUR
WHEELS OUT OF IT.