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>From: boltmom2000@aol.com  (Boltmom2000)

You are so right..our posts are sooooo very similar. Haven't we always thought
we were long lost sisters...separated at birth? I am starting to think more
seriously about that. LOL

I guess it's just my personality. I am a caregiver by nature, I suppose. When
my grandfather died and my grandmother was all alone. I talked hubby (didn't
take much effort..he adored my grandmother) into us breaking our lease in an
apartment and moving in with her. I think for the 2 years my grandmother lived
after my grandfather's passing.....she saw her daughter (my mom) 3 times. Too
busy. My sister only came over when she needed something and of course, my
grandmother was as generous as my parents and always gave to her..no matter
what. I on the other hand cringed with guilt if I asked her if I "could borrow
$10.00 til Friday" even though I knew she would. You know what though...no one
got to spend her final days with her like I did. I was always her favorite (or
so she said..of course she probably told my sister and our 3 cousins the same
thing) but I felt it too. :)  As hard as it was taking care of her, and it got
really rough...I was going to college, working and taking care of her...it was
so tough that some days, I didn't know if I'd make it another day! :) But as
hard as it was..I have precious memories that no one else has of her or with
her. 

I never know where I'm going with these....LOL....I guess what I'm trying to
say is that I enjoy taking care of my family...but that it's so stressful not
to get help....and I guess I get tired of people expecting it from me...and
losing sight of the fact that I have my own family...two little children that
need more of a life than going to grandma's everyday. That sounds selfish, I
know...and my girls don't complain...but I feel that going there just about
everyday is wearing on them as well. :(