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I am posting this anonymously because my employer (though they claim to be
liberally minded) would hardly approve:


In May of 1991, and again in June, 1991, I had bad trips.  These were my
last and second to last experiments with LSD.  Since then, I've noticed
that occasionally I see little visual disturbances (dark items leave
"light" remnants for a few seconds), and that late at night I see little
pink dots sometimes on walls, etc.

I am near-sighted, and attribute a general (fades in and out throughout the
day) feeling of "being out of touch sometimes and unable to concentrate" to
both this (I tend to ignore rather than squint (hurts my head)), and maybe
the fact that I did acid.  I'd say I've done it about 15 times (don't
remember).

I have heard that doing acid can bring on hidden symptoms of schizophrenia.
 While I have really weird thoughts at night (like conversations I have
(simulated) with myself, but not really -- nothing I actually "hear," but
it's weird), and sometimes I see little visual disturbances for an instant
(I notice the little floaters in my eyes more and see a tiny dot of blue
every once in a while), I don't think I'm going crazy or anything.

I'm level-headed, and all.  Guess I'm just a little worried.

My first bad trip was pretty terrible.

My second, terribly unreal, and something that haunts me to this day.


I can't handle even smoking pot really, anymore. :(


It's really too bad.  All I'm asking is -- out of all of you who have had
"bad trips," does it get better?  I mean, will I stop (not having
flashbacks) remembering some of the images and being scared by them?  I'm
really sorry I ever tried acid now -- though at the time, I thought I was
learning a lot about myself and perceptions of things.

So, hey -- we're all human.  I tried it, used it a bit, and that's over... 
So if someone from my work sees this and decides to do something uncool
(despite the claim that this is anonymous), then so be it, there's nothing
I can do.


To those out there who have had bad trips, am I just being paranoid, or
does it really affect your life?  I guess I "unlearned" some visual things
that I used to ignore...?  Whatever it is, I hope it goes away...


Anonymous


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