🚀 go-pugleaf

I would have to say that they are all free and well and have
instructions to come see me to NYC ASAP to have a lengthy discussion
in some coffee shop, the one that resembles the one we used to go
almost every day for years, but I am losing real hope. Somebody else
has been doing that and giving real instructions. I understand why
sometimes she didnt have the keys to the house and why sometimes she
didnt want me to take her home in the night. We were administered, the
fact is that we never concurred even if we met in the same places. I
wouldnt miss an appointment, we would agree next appointment the
previous day, only sometimes arriving late things would go bad. I
wouldnt speak if she was late, feeling very angry! But no wonder I
wouldnt be rejected, I would feel hurt right away and it would show
that I was in love. I never asked when she would tell me her sister
was in the other room, I would simply accept it... small discrepancies
that now make more sense, but I am still burning in the need of ask
and be answered. They were not impersonating, we were following
NATURAL sympathies! The fact is that we were in public and they were
free to go and leave me there but it didnt happen... or maybe once?
There was enough space for interrelationship struggles and fights, but
then my whole strategy of knowing and making myself known lost
meaning! I dont even know how many times it happened, which is why I
need to _speak_ with them and expect them to have NORMAL changes, that
is, changes that intuition and instinct identify with the normal
passage of time. We all need to know how many children. It is a real
pity that perturbed religious men have to go in between and insist in
treating us like animals with fixed heat periods, fixed stereotyped
behaviours, fixed number of relationships, fixed... as if we were
FIXED by instinct and nature and environment when in fact we are FREE
because of language we can use to escape FIXED programs, PREwritten
programs...

Damned, it is like being turned into unconnected pieces, lost bits of
past. I didnt mention the names of people who really knew my first
name. I dont even know who turned our relationship into a nightmare,
who ended the relationship, who read what, who knew what, some
important informations would be missing and they would understand
nothing! I understood nothing. I mean, there was my girlfriend and
that s all I needed to know. No wonder we didnt have sex every night
or every day, it would be like going to bed the first date! So... how
come I am not getting the just rewards for all these efforts?

This is the meaning of Lot in the Bible, turning back, the woman turns
into a salt statue, not a NECESSITY, no LOGICAL NECESSITY, not even a
SOCIAL NECESSITY, but people do look alike. Turning back the woman s
condition has changed, we are supposed as men to go to another woman!
Then people, _some_ people will take this as an axiom and make it
happen. The woman is salty because some people wont want, based on
that old story, to have the same man go back. Something happened to
her. Marriage is only a partial solution as there is no guarantee that
she wont change or be exchanged with somebody else. The other solution
is downright kidnapping the woman and then let the other one appear,
another one who is similarly looking. From here the Goppis are a
natural outcome and the man ends up with a whole group. As the woman
changes, the Sterens algorithm has two times, in one the woman
dissapears and takes away the child, in the next movement the child is
taken away from the mother and given to somebody else. The father,
oblivious, finds later the child and may commit incest. Hence rules
imposed regarding parenthood to avoid the real next-generation-child
to go back to the father (or be given the mother when forced to
change, there is some leeway in this respect). Fixed rules so that the
situation doesnt arise, except for those who do kidnap and dont let
the children go astray or be taken by the midwife, now hospital nurses
confusing them. Children are already a different genetic strain, so
**incest** can be assumed without **big** consequences, just in case,
because the children wre taken away and rules like the 4-n rule are
applied. Marriage, beyond human needs of affection and familiarity, is
a threat, either you marry and stay or the woman is turned into salt
and dissolves. No way to look back, it is a mistake, but a social
mistake, cultural, not an affective, emotional mistake when it becomes
necessary.

In terms of man evolving we are still Man escaping the predator. In a
state of nature Man cant have sex at will, it has to be at some
minimum cared for, agreed, taken care, because it is a moment of
vulnerability, between feeding, watery environments to safer
vegetation surroundings, the group had to have some order to avoid
losing members. Having sex turns into a danger! Here lies the
association between sex and death, having sex is being at the mercy of
the predator, so people dont want to have sex because they are scared
of death. These feelings, base, unconscious, hardwired fears can of
course be transmitted through biological radio to create difficult to
understand behaviours.

There is a bad Bush around, right? Maybe some facial surgeried Lu is
and that is why there is so much trouble? I dont want to think they
were being taken to jail and then somebody was paying the bail, so I
wouldnt meet them, they were being kidnapped.

Somebody is WATCHING recording studios? They are soundproofed. Bullets
can be shot and nobody would know in the outside; in fact, only
through telepathy those murders would be if not known at least
suspected, even if the notion is quite obvious when you are forced to
think in terms of casualties.

FISH. It is a solution to telepathy, THC being maybe an
antitelepathic. I ate fish for almost 18 years nonstop and didnt have
such problems as schizophrenia or proofs of telepathy.

Fabrizio J Bonsignore now Danilo J Bonsignore