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<ed76e484-bb35-4c52-add2-a637a1b2badc@i12g2000vba.googlegroups.com>,
 Juan <flybd5@gmail.com> wrote:

> You have a lot of enemies, Rudd. One of them told me to come check out
> this thread. Figured I'd make sure everyone gets the real skinny on
> you, in your own words. Call it your reality check.

Actually you monitor this ng, and others in the UK as well. you monitor 
me.

There are no friends and connections, Jimenez, there never has been. 
There's you, and your imaginary friends.

And now, many will want to read what you're so excited about, something 
I wrote at a bizarre time a decade ago - surely I'll make even more of 
these enemies, who will in turn tip you off when I'm up to something.

We can't wait to get into the really good stuff, like your time travel 
working for Google Earth, and your secret websites and of course the 
dreaded enemies, the visitors you have promised for how long now?

You just never seem to know when it's time to pack it in, amigo.



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> Just home with a sick kid and found this ng - I wish I'd found it
> sooner.
> 
> I'm just turned 47, and an the 8th month of a separation. My wife left
> me for another guy after almost 18 years together. She's now not
> seeing
> him, and we started counseling Last week.
> 
> For the record - I love her deeply, but I failed in many ways to give
> her what she needed.
> 
> It was a pretty tough summer -she moved out while I was in Florida
> with
> my dying Mom, so there is a lot of crap I am getting over. I got the
> news over the phone in a hotel room, and I flew home on mother's day
> when it looked like my Mom might make it (she had gone into a coma -
> they called me wih news of her death, but sahe pulled out of it).
> 
> She had moved out that morning, with the help of rick, whom she had
> eveidently gone to high school with, but just recently they re-met and
> as far as I can tell, it was about a 5 day whirlwind.
> 
> So I get home to an empty house, she is in a new apartment already
> with
> my daughter, whom she dropped off that evening to be with me.
> 
> So, of course I'm completely, utterly devastated. No sleep for 4 days
> in
> florida, no food for five. I was a mess. I keep calling my mom, but
> she
> is "too tired to get to the phone". It turns out my stupid brother let
> her know that penny had left me, which I did not want her to know
> under
> her circumstances. She passed away that following Wednesday, and we
> were
> never able to discuss it, I was never able to explain (She liked Penny
> very much).
> 
> And, to top it off, Penny's Mom had passed on after a long battle with
> Alzheimers just three months previously.
> 
> My wife has very firm spiritual beliefs - she was unable to continue
> with this guy because of it. For the record, from what I know of this
> guy, he is absolutely a losing proposition for her. Even my stepson, a
> US Marine, doesn't like him, (and the guy is an "ex"-Marine reservist)
> and upon getting the news of her leaving him he emailed me from Yemen,
> and told me what he thought of the guy.
> 
> She told me of her relationship, that he was controlling, etc. And
> also
> he has a drinking prob according to my stepson. She said that leaving
> him was a seaparate issue and that we can try and work it out between
> us, but there are no guarantees.
> 
> Then, first counseling session - she says she left rick over guilt for
> me. My jaw dropped.
> 
> What percipitated their breakup was the night he shaved his head to
> "prove his love for her". Evidently, he has similar hair to mine, and
> that had something to do with it. That scared her, and she broke it
> off,
> and then there I was in her arms one night for the first time in
> months.
> 
> Now she refuses to sleep with me, and the frustration is getting in
> the
> way. Then she tells me that she loves me as a friend, that she is
> empty
> of her love for me as a husband, and she is praying for that to come
> back. she says it could be a day, a week, a year....
> 
> So today, after a rocky, frustrating weekend, I have told her that she
> can now leave guilt-free, that I do not want to force her love if she
> loves someone else.
> 
> Not to mention I have an extremely demanding job that has been damaged
> by all this. It's a frikkin razor's edge all the way around.
> 
> Not to mention that My oldest brother and I just had my middle
> brother's
> kids taken away in florida, and his 17-year old committed under the
> Baker act.
> 
> So, basically, I've hit the wall. I can't wait a day, a week, a year.
> I
> gotta move on one way or anotther. I never even dreamed of another
> woman
> in almost 18 years. I can't
> even contemplate intimacy, cause intimacy was always her.
> 
> Just before she split up with him, I had reached a plateau of
> acceptence, and I told her so, and said there was no reason to ask
> forgivness, that the fault lay with me, and she must follow her heart.
> 
> I felt fantastic then...started to finish painting the house, got a
> new
> puter for freelance to pay this freakin mortgage. I had made it. Now,
> I'm falling back into stuff again, and the frustration threatens to
> turn
> into anger, and I can never be angry with her again. I can never
> experience what I did this past summer again. I don't have that much
> in
> me.
> 
> Well...thanks forletting me blather. I've been kind of cut off from
> everything, and the net is a good place to unload.